I may soon have the chance to explore the ketamine space. I have been reading everything I can about it, particularly related to safety (including the sticky thread here). As the dissociative experience is an experience I've never had, I still have a couple of practical questions about it.
First, about the risk of taking it alone. I understand it's preferable to take it with a trip sitter, but I tend to always trip alone. So I'd like to know if the advice of taking it with a trip sitter is just general advice (as one would generally advice with Ayahuasca, for example), or it's a must for safety. From what I have read, I got the impression of it being a must, but I'm still not sure. I don't want to do anything reckless.
Then, there is the question of dosing. My intention is to use it in a therapeutic and spiritual way, and that will require moderate-high doses. Would you recommend starting very low and gradually increasing the dose in successive experiences? Or is a moderate dose reasonable from the get-go? This is in the context of someone moderately experienced with high doses of psychedelics but zero experience with dissociatives.
Last, there is the question of addiction and physical harm. My plan is to limit use to once a week as an absolute maximum. Is this reasonable from a physical safety standpoint, or would you say this already presents moderate risks of physical harm? About psychological addiction and compulsion, have you had the feeling of "needing" to take more after an experience, when the experiences were moderate-high doses spaced out by several days?
I'll appreciate any information or guidance here!
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i see now that you have already been there and done that. i really need to start reading threads before i reply. sorry blig-blug!
i will leave my reply here for others.
i have a lot of experience with ketamine so i will help the best i can.
i don't think a sitter is a must, personally. just make sure you can't fall on anything sharp or off anything high. you won't try to jump out of any windows or do anything stupid (assuming good set and setting as usual), but you might fall over and you will definitely stumble around a lot if you try to stand up and walk around (dose dependent).
just make sure you are comfortable and you do not need to go to the toilet or anything, just kick back and enjoy the ride.
as for dose. if you have plenty to experiment with you might want to start with a smaller dose one day, then a few days later, or more, try a higher dose, but you should probably stick to one dose at a time, i wouldn't recommend upping your dose multiple times in one day for your needs, you will probably build tolerance anyway.
if you don't have much to play with then i would probably start with a higher dose. if you go into a hole you will know it was too much, but as long as you are sitting/laying comfortably then you will be okay (as long as it is not a stupid dose). how high that dose should be will depend on a lot, but i will share my experience with therapeutic and spiritual use so maybe you can gauge a little from that.
when i used it i found my sweet spot was 90-100mg at once, intranasally. this would make me tease the edge of a hole, almost in a hole but still aware of my experience. this is potentially a high dose so treat with care. again, make sure you are comfortable and it will be fine if you go too far.
of course the ideal option is to start much lower, maybe 50mg or maybe even less, then take note of the effects and give it a few days and try again. if you are waiting a week as you mentioned then you will have plenty of time for your tolerance to return.
addiction is something i never really experienced with ketamine, even when i was using it for partying in my primitive days. to me it is not very addictive, and it didn't seem to pull in any of the people around me either. but then i have read about people getting serious addiction so maybe it depends on the person, and probably has a lot to do with the persons desire to escape reality. overall i would say addiction is not something you will need to worry about if you stick to your once a week plan. same for the instant addiction, it is noting like cocaine, where you feel like you want more as fast as you can do it. i only felt a desire to do more when i was partying with it, but even then it was a light desire, mostly to party. during therapeutic use i never had that desire at all. but i don't know you and if you have any issues with addiction or desire to escape reality then use this advice with caution.
physical harm was never a problem either, this is not going to mess you up physically with your planned use. just make sure you are comfortable and do not try to walk around or stand up even if you think you can, make sure you clear your area of knives and dangerous objects. assume you will fall out of your chair and clear that area to be safe. it probably won't happen but you will have covered all potential problems that way and can clear your mind of worry. just sit and chill for an hour.
overall i think ketamine is over hyped and surrounded by scare stories. try not to let those stories scare you and everything will be fine. as i keep saying, your biggest threat is probably falling over, so just sit and chill, as fun as it is to walk at a 45 degree angle
have fun! i hope you find what you need. i have had some of the most profound thoughts and ideas with ketamine. i think it helps us get closer to the akashic records, the only problem is remembering the information on the way back!