Coatl, I'm sorry for ever making you feel bad by stirring up shit by posting that link, and with my personal comments. Honestly when I've done so it's been to try to bring this to the fore in your mind so you can do something about it. It sounds like you've taken it in now, so I promise not to hassle you again.
I know this might make me seem like a self-righteous ***, and maybe I am one sometimes. I've genuinely only been like this with you because I like you and I wanted to be honest with you to try to help you. I can understand that you're uncomfortable with stuff like this being out in the open, but it's going to be out in the open in a forum. Call it an intervention! You're amoung friends here, everyone's cool and trying to grow themselves as well as help each other to grow.
I'll list my faults too so you're not alone, the ones I'm aware of. I can be: a misanthrope, negative, shallow, a snob of sorts, argumentative, insecure, socially paranoid, judgemental, particular, shy, pedantic, tactless, don't listen to what I'm being told, etc. By welcoming criticism, talking about it and deciding whether or not it's justified (and SWIM of course was helped
loads by discovering aya and DMT) I've been able to address these issues with
some success. Seriously you should've seen me when I was your age, I was a state! :lol:
So you see, these fallouts may get nasty sometimes, but it's important to try to make something good out of whatever happens in life