Recovered heroin and meth addict

[Eatingacidwithcats]

Hello, my name is Eatingacidwithcats, but you guys can call me acid cat. I have a horrendous past filled with self induced torture with the name of drug addiction. I was to the point where I was shitting blood and mucus into the toilet, flushing it, and doing another shot. I did not care at all, and I was near death. Worst of all I was only 18, I'm still 18 actually, 19 next month.

Ever since I was 13 years old I had an interest in drugs, mostly psychedelics, I wanted to try mushrooms, and lsd, and mdma (Which I do not consider psychedelic now). Unfortunately sources for psychedelics were very slim in the small town I lived in and harder drugs were much more abundant. By the time I was 14 I was popping prescription pain killers regularly. I had my first mushroom trip at 14, it was one of the most amazing and profound experiences in my life, it made me feel better than any other drug could make me feel, and it filled me with magic and wonder for life that had long left me. This revived my interest in psychedelics, but once again, sources dried up and I gravitated back to the harder drugs, my first line of cocaine was at 15.

At 15, I had my first hit of lsd and too this day that was the strongest and most interesting trip I have ever had. Psychedelics are like therapy to me, they let me see past my pessimistic character and see how amazing life can really be. But once again, my source dried up and I didn't have good acid for years later. Before I was 16 I was snorting heroin, and within a month I was on the needle because it was cheaper. I had already moved out of y parents house and it was the beginning of my downward spiral. Eventually meth took the spotlight.

Now I am 18 and life has changed dramatically for the better, I am for once in my life at peace and seem to have everything I have ever wanted after getting clean off of the hard drugs. I met the most amazing woman in the world a week after my last relapse, and we fell in love immediately. My love for her is so strong that I haven't looked back since I dropped the shit, she really saved my life and my soul. I've told her all my darkest secrets and she still accepts me. We plan on getting married, even though we have only been together five months on the 17th, when you have met your other half you know. I have also been making money and now have a wide array of psychedelics, and including some changa and pure dmt I will have here soon. I'm just here to learn, and to talk and share my story how love and psychedelics really have freed me of my addiction, and share my future adventures with the spirit molecule!

 

[null24]

Addiction is hell. Heroin addiction is a particular kind of hell I wish upon no one. I can tell you a lot about it, not much about "recovery". I can tell you what I've done to stay off heroin, and to have walked off methadone, but that would be pointless, since it's my path, and for me alone.

One thing i can tell you is, you have to do it for you. The love of your partner is not adequate to be a foundation for your recovery. (I don't like that term, nor do I like "sobriety", since my "recovery"includes periods without it.) It is a valuable asset that you have because you are not using, but don't put all your faith in that emotion stopping the force of your addict when he comes knocking on your door. And I'm not discounting it, addiction can come before family and God.

I don't know what you do to stay away from such powerful addictions like the ones you have, but I hope you have in place lots of support. The hardest part off kicking opiates comes six months down the road, and that's when you're gonna need some people and things in place.

This community has been an invaluable part off my support system, since a huge part of my healing path involves working with the substance it is dedicated to. I urge you to take advantage of the love and wisdom that are these people. I'm just a guy who posts here sometimes, but I know that if you come into this community and honestly want to better yourself through the work being done here, it is available to you.

I'm very glad that you have found a path out of your hell. Keep on walking, friend.

 

[SpartanII]

Welcome, Acid cat!

I too was addicted to heroin. It started with eating and sniffing oxycodone, and soon I was injecting heroin because it was cheaper and more effective. I used kratom to help me quit, which worked wonders.

I recently posted an update in my Marijuana Addiction Advice thread that you may find useful as it contains some advice on dealing with addiction in general. It's post #115.

Marijuana Addiction Advice? - Welcome discussion - Welcome to the DMT-Nexus

 

[brokenChild]

for what it's worth, this may help (nothing you probably don't already know, but helps reinforce what you already do)

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I smoked crystal for a year, maybe a little more... trick is weening off slowly, and focusing your energy on more productive and beneficial natural and creative expressions in your life


never relapsed once since quitting, once you see the total poisoning aspects of it, there's absolutely no reason to continue. Find some natural outlet in life which gives you positive reinforcement (i.e. hobbies that you enjoy, exercise, music, anything healthy + enjoyable)

edited just read the original OP, congrats on recovery brother :thumb_up:

 

[Alien laughing gas]

Hey acid cat, glad your off the dope, that crap is garbage. I haven't shot, smoked or sniffed heroin in five years or so. I currently take about 2 mg of suboxone everyday. I have been completely opioid free, but after 20 years of heroin abuse, I find my life is more pleasant with a little opioid in my system. Those receptor sites do not go away. I just wanted to say hello, and wish you all the luck in the world. And remember, the road to success is paved with many failures .