This will be a little long, a little background, 3 of my first(and only) times, and some questions at the end, so I apologize in advance..
I recently had my interest piqued... I decided to gather the things I needed and set off on my first journey through extraction land excitedly a few weeks ago. Things went fairly smooth. I read tons, over and over and over, and even as I did it to make sure I had everything perfect and happily ended up with I believe a good amount of fluffy white spice.
My first time, i did not have a scale or good smoking utensil, I was just bumping on tiny bits to no avail, making them slightly bigger then last. I think the real reason it was not working was 1: I put it atop a tobacco and shisha mixture(very disgusting idea btw lol) 2: I believe I was burning a lot of it instead of vaping it. 3: way to much tobacco in it and it was melting down to the bottom.
I ended up getting slightly frustrated/disappointed and kind of thinking maybe I did something wrong and put a good amount on top, probably around 20-30mg. Took a big hit, held it, started to feel the effects, so I took another immediately after exhale and held again. Staring at my carpet it became a beautiful flower lotus like pattern. It was slightly overwhelming so i closed my eyes and laid back. I had a wonderful fractal pattern that overlayed what looked to me exactly like my ceiling, I had to open my eyes just to make sure they were really closed. Half of a strange metallic gear came into vision with the kaleidoscope dancing over it. Everything that I am, my soul, felt as if it was right in the center of my forehead. I had a very feminine feeling presence with me the entire time.
Second time: Having an idea of around the dosage I wanted, I set off. This time visions were WAY more intense. I get a strong internal dialog of fear talk, such as "why did you do this? your going to die. you took too much. I dont like this. Am I holding my breathe?" ect. After that Kaleidoscope again, in a distinctly different pattern. This time again there was a female presence with me, very Hindu goddess like, I could barely make out eyes in front of me. I start to feel fear rising again, open my eyes, the blanket I'm sitting on seems to move and breathe with an ocean of flowing microscopic rainbow organisms. I'm still uncomfortable so I close my eyes again.
The eyes in the center are still there but off to the left, almost out of vision I see a BRIGHT Cyan blue elephant man Benjamin Franklin head on a pedestal. Not that it looked like either of those lol but thats the only words I could come up with to describe it when talking about it as I was coming down. It actually pretty much looked like a hairless junior gorg from fraggle rock with incredibly beady small eyes. It stared at me, like its eyes were burning into me, but I was afraid to look at it directly. Luckily I was starting to come down.
I decided after about 30 mins to take another small dose in a brief moment when I was anxiety free. It turned out to be a good decision because I then followed a red fish through an endless tunnel of reverse water rings that overlapped each other and vibrated inwards towards the fish. Very pleasant and dreamy.
Which brings me to my third and final.
I was VERY much filled with a ton of anxiety. I took me 1.5 hours and letting my partner go twice before I decided to take the plunge. I was very nervous, I do not remember much. I do remember VERY intense fear, and horrible internal dialog again. It was much greater then before and seemed to last forever. I vaguely remember starting to feel better and then talking to a female, maybe myself. It was a long conversation, but I do not remember any of it until the very end as i was starting to come out of it. I just kept hearing "Take it slow!..." over and over. I am not sure if it was a warning or something that I projected on myself from getting so scared beforehand and working myself all up.
I've thought about doing it again several times, but I just get so anxious about the fear, that I can't bring myself to do it, as much as I want too I chicken out. I am sure I will again when I am ready, and I am not going to push myself into something I am not ready for.
So, What say you nexus...
When I am ready, in your past collective experiences, given my previous experiences.. Would it be better to take it slow and start with small dosages and get my feet wet, or would it be better to take another medium to large dose and jump in? I have ordered some supplies to make some changa and enhanced leaf, which from what I understand it is much easier to handle, and fb may just not be for me. Would you guys recommend I wait for that over doing more fb in small or large amounts?
If you've made it this far, thanks for reading.
Any and all advice is welcome ^_^
I recently had my interest piqued... I decided to gather the things I needed and set off on my first journey through extraction land excitedly a few weeks ago. Things went fairly smooth. I read tons, over and over and over, and even as I did it to make sure I had everything perfect and happily ended up with I believe a good amount of fluffy white spice.
My first time, i did not have a scale or good smoking utensil, I was just bumping on tiny bits to no avail, making them slightly bigger then last. I think the real reason it was not working was 1: I put it atop a tobacco and shisha mixture(very disgusting idea btw lol) 2: I believe I was burning a lot of it instead of vaping it. 3: way to much tobacco in it and it was melting down to the bottom.
I ended up getting slightly frustrated/disappointed and kind of thinking maybe I did something wrong and put a good amount on top, probably around 20-30mg. Took a big hit, held it, started to feel the effects, so I took another immediately after exhale and held again. Staring at my carpet it became a beautiful flower lotus like pattern. It was slightly overwhelming so i closed my eyes and laid back. I had a wonderful fractal pattern that overlayed what looked to me exactly like my ceiling, I had to open my eyes just to make sure they were really closed. Half of a strange metallic gear came into vision with the kaleidoscope dancing over it. Everything that I am, my soul, felt as if it was right in the center of my forehead. I had a very feminine feeling presence with me the entire time.
Second time: Having an idea of around the dosage I wanted, I set off. This time visions were WAY more intense. I get a strong internal dialog of fear talk, such as "why did you do this? your going to die. you took too much. I dont like this. Am I holding my breathe?" ect. After that Kaleidoscope again, in a distinctly different pattern. This time again there was a female presence with me, very Hindu goddess like, I could barely make out eyes in front of me. I start to feel fear rising again, open my eyes, the blanket I'm sitting on seems to move and breathe with an ocean of flowing microscopic rainbow organisms. I'm still uncomfortable so I close my eyes again.
The eyes in the center are still there but off to the left, almost out of vision I see a BRIGHT Cyan blue elephant man Benjamin Franklin head on a pedestal. Not that it looked like either of those lol but thats the only words I could come up with to describe it when talking about it as I was coming down. It actually pretty much looked like a hairless junior gorg from fraggle rock with incredibly beady small eyes. It stared at me, like its eyes were burning into me, but I was afraid to look at it directly. Luckily I was starting to come down.
I decided after about 30 mins to take another small dose in a brief moment when I was anxiety free. It turned out to be a good decision because I then followed a red fish through an endless tunnel of reverse water rings that overlapped each other and vibrated inwards towards the fish. Very pleasant and dreamy.
Which brings me to my third and final.
I was VERY much filled with a ton of anxiety. I took me 1.5 hours and letting my partner go twice before I decided to take the plunge. I was very nervous, I do not remember much. I do remember VERY intense fear, and horrible internal dialog again. It was much greater then before and seemed to last forever. I vaguely remember starting to feel better and then talking to a female, maybe myself. It was a long conversation, but I do not remember any of it until the very end as i was starting to come out of it. I just kept hearing "Take it slow!..." over and over. I am not sure if it was a warning or something that I projected on myself from getting so scared beforehand and working myself all up.
I've thought about doing it again several times, but I just get so anxious about the fear, that I can't bring myself to do it, as much as I want too I chicken out. I am sure I will again when I am ready, and I am not going to push myself into something I am not ready for.
So, What say you nexus...
When I am ready, in your past collective experiences, given my previous experiences.. Would it be better to take it slow and start with small dosages and get my feet wet, or would it be better to take another medium to large dose and jump in? I have ordered some supplies to make some changa and enhanced leaf, which from what I understand it is much easier to handle, and fb may just not be for me. Would you guys recommend I wait for that over doing more fb in small or large amounts?
If you've made it this far, thanks for reading.
Any and all advice is welcome ^_^
