ragabr said:
When SWIM was turning people on with 5-MeO (in a very irresponsible manner

) people rarely got terrified. The speed that it comes on with would scare some of them. The trepidation arrived after the trip, when talking through what they had just encountered. Many reports saying they were glad to have tried it but would never touch it again.
Sister can relate to that. After the following two experiences she reordered some 5meo but has yet to find the courage to go anywhere near it, lol.
Sister had posted this in the wrong section earlier and is moving it here.
12mgs were weighed out and snorted in one line*.
My heart began to race immediately. I went quickly back to bed, jumped in, covered myself, heart pounding. Within 2 minutes I was coming up strongly, it was disorienting and unnerving. I focused my attention on a conscious breath to calm myself. I remember squirming somewhat, although not in any kind of discomfort. It was hard to catch my breath as I am propelled into this. CEVs of “the swirling pattern” were apparent, but very much secondary to the physical sensations I was experiencing. Its like I was the pattern. Full body orgasm. All at once I have reached the origin of my ego, all egos, the worlds egos, and realize that in their absence there is NOTHING. Everything I’ve read about enlightenment and the attainment of Samadhi makes perfect sense to me now. It has all become so obvious. During this part of the experience I am not me, I am simply awareness. I am utterly free. This is a solid ++++ experience.
My awareness is drawn to my point of non-being or dissolution. I start to sink back into my ego now, but it is ok. I realize that every action in my life has been in support of this, my ego. It is obvious to me now that ego can lead to nothing but suffering, and that when I have finally disentangled my self from my ego I will cease to exist. I yearn for this. I experience compassion for the world of souls out there suffocating beneath the weight of their egos.
Anxiety creeps in, but by coming back to the Zen principle of “Just this” I am able to reassure myself. Reality washes over me in waves now, or rather the experience recedes in waves. I lie still for another half hour, bathing in the splendor of my realization. I have been given a glimpse into what the highest reaches of yoga promise** us and I now feel encouraged and motivated to achieve it the hard way. I float around in a state of bliss for the rest of the morning. I have been given the keys to the universe.
The 2nd time Sister tried it, the following day (15mgs) she fell into a horrible negative feedback loop, freaked out and threw her stash in the fireplace along with scales and everything . . . . sigh.