So i decided i am going to try out a few alternate ways in which to prepare the capensis. Over the last week i have left scrapings of the root in a jar and let it be. This makes the shavings soggy and creates a small "epidemis" type structure. I removed that from the water and added it to a tea, it must have been about 200 , 250 mg about an hour before i went to bed.
I was also reading a really good book " the thunderbolt kid" by bill bryson so i went to sleep right on the verge, literally seconds after i turned off the light ( all the book readers know what i am talking about here ) I had also set my alarm to 4am to wake up .
So at 4 i wake up and i needed to piss anyway but i stayed awake for about 10 minutes, went to the kitchen to get something to drink and allowed myself to gain a bit a wake-fullness ( not sure if that is actually a word ) and then went back to bed. so i am lying in my bed thinking well this is the best time to try and induce a lucid dream and from what i can remember as a lightie i would induce it with the idea of astral projection , which i went on to do. This did not take much effort at all.
I am not sure how long it was after i went back to sleep but i remember starting to leave my body very easily but not how you would think this would occur , it was more of a feeling then a visual thing , and i could tell i was connected some how. It is such an intense feeling i am really suprised this alone does not wake someone up. So anyway i leave my body and it seemed really easy .. really easy , but there was a fear ( i know this probably sounds wierd ) the fear was not of anything it was just there.
This is all seriously wierd actually. Like i know i did it as a child to the same extend where there is this fear associated ( and i watched insidious .. bloodly hell, that doesnt help ) I dont think it is actual astral projection like you read about , i think it is a very lucid dream where projecting yourself outside of your body is like the instigator to the ability of lucid dreaming.
Here is the thing though lately i have been having semi-lucid dreams , i am not in full control of the dream but there are many aspects where i definetly choose what i want to do. I was dreaming the other day that i was in the computer racing game and we had to choose a car but i was like, no man i want a bike, and i remember looking around at the cars and thinking like you would in waking life ... i wanted a bike and that was that. there was a bike but it had not keys to start it ><
there where a few other dreams where there is a very distinct point where i feel like i am in full control of the choice i make to the direction of the dream ,which as far as i am aware is lucid dreaming .. maybe a lesser form but lucid none the less.
This other experience where i project my body is nothing like that .. its way more intense
... check this out if you are interested in this type of thing ..
which makes me wonder if this is lucid dreaming or OBE
I am not sure if the capensis is helping this .. i think so , i would not say that it is like what others have said (and maybe it effects me differently) like dreaming whole life times and becoming very emotive during the dream, but i think it is helping me concentrate on what i want to a achieve ( although i am not sure what that is ). I really think waking up at 4am is the key , finding your mind in that delta state in a waking state and then slowly drifting away again .. i think you have more access to that part of your mind in those times. and of course reading stimulates neuron growth and the creative part of your brain which is very active during dreaming + i really enjoy reading when i find a good book .
anyways ... i think next i am going to try some chemistry out on this root and get the root into a pure liquid form and then inhale the gas from that .. see what happens.
