murklan said:
While I agree I also think that people in all times have used (and perhaps misused) substances to change their biochemistry. Not to say that it then is all okay. I friend of mine calls coffee 'the lubricant of capitalism'. I kind of agree. But I also think perhaps it's more connected to industrialism etc.
I think that's a good observation. We are trying all the time to fit the mold to keep the cogs turning. There has to be an ideal mold we fit into and stimulants offer that opportunity to temporarily be something else so you can keep up with the exceptionalism and meet the acceptable personality quotient of a socially acceptable individual.
ephreda said:
I could never quit, how did you get it?
Heart attack/stroke/similar. Pizzas, salt, burgers, McDonalds and lots of it, 700mg+ caffeine daily (energy drinks, pre workouts and homemade espresso), sedentary lifestyle caused by the lockdowns and steroid use (minimal but still present to keep my vitality during lockdown). I took 110ug of acid one evening and began to feel numb down one side of my face and body, and sweating buckets. Had to stand in the shower at full cold temp for an hour to lower my temp. Had a swollen stomach for hours and kidney issues. I think the vasoconstriction and blood pressure changes set a cascading effect off that mounted from months of letting myself go during lockdowns. Tipped me over the edge. I went to hospital and they couldn't find any symptoms. For about a month I couldn't do much cause I'd get shooting pains in my chest if I exerted myself and it would stop me in my tracks.
I meditated for 90% of the trip, around 6 hours to keep myself together and finding Zen through this freak event. Luckily it was only 110ug but I definitely felt the acid.
After that promised myself I would never eat like that again and never drink caffeine and would heavily control any steroid use. Only done one cycle of TRT since.
Almost 3 years later and never looked back.
An eye opening experience and caffeine for sure played a role combined with my dramatic change in lifestyle because of the big C to the 19!