still hesitant

[sleepypelican]

Ive had about 4 doses of spice for a little over a month now. I lm not sure why i have all four doses still. It almost seems like the Dimitri has been speaking to me from within my bed side drawer, through the numerous plastic baggies, breaking out of the jewelry box and telling me to wait for the right time. Anyone else experience anything like this? Feeling as if the substance is teaching you even before ingestion? I suppose I could attribute it to all the time and thought ive put into preparing for this experience, but it feels like something else. Crazy stuff....

 

[InLaKesh]

i think it is a healthy decision to wait for the right moment.
I had my spice in the fridge for almost 2 years before i decidet to go for (the) breakthrough.
just be patient and hit it when the time is right.
Way more rewarding than rushing it.

 

[sleepypelican]

Thats good advice man. Im really in no hurry, just a little giddy thats all. I have read quite a bit about it, along with many other drugs such asfood of the gods, from chocolate to morphine, tihkal, the spirit molecule, the doors of perception, brave new world, road to elusis, naked lunch (although im not sure that one counts , and quite a few others (its been a hoby of mine since I was a teenager). And im no stranger to tryptamines even though it has been a few years. Not saying I know it all or that im some mystical shaman, but I do like to think I may know a little more about psychoactives than the average joe. Still, I feel like a child when it comes to the little baggie of yellow crystals by my bedside. Remember, ive had the dimitri for four weeks, ive been researching it much much longer.... this reminds me of the last time I had some blotter, I saved that for a special occasion for almost two years then ended up eating it spur of the moment with a friend right before we went and saw roger waters preform dark side of the moon in its entirety. Well worth the wait...

 

[adam]

No amount of reading or preparation will adequately prepare you, how do you prepare for getting your ego annihilated?
That being said it is important to take precautions, like just making sure you are comfortable, or don't have any obligations that will hinder you, or loud roommates who may walk in on you.

This diagram I believe dreamer042 made is useful

dmt preparation

 

[sleepypelican]

No amount of reading or preparation will adequately prepare you, how do you prepare for getting your ego annihilated?
That being said it is important to take precautions, like just making sure you are comfortable, or don't have any obligations that will hinder you, or loud roommates who may walk in on you.

This diagram I believe dreamer042 made is useful

dmt preparation

I completely understand no amount of reading is enough preparation for something as powerful as DMT, if that was the case I most likely would have smoked it by now. The chart is great by the way, what a wonderful way to display such useful information. I especially like the fruit idea. Whenever I used to trip on cubensis I would always have a bouquet of flowers and some really colorful food like a birthday cake or something around for the sole fact that theses items inspired feelings of happiness. Set and setting are concepts im very familiar with, and I have always given them much consideration before any powerful experience. I aint no bubblegummer haha.

 

[armbarsalot]

No hurry mate. But just think of this. If you got in a life threatening accident today would you want the last thing to go through your mind being 'i should have broken through'?

It also might not even work that well if you don't have a solid method worked out.

Get your intent straight, know that you will be a nervous wreck and then take the plunge. You will have doubts but expect that and keep your intent in focus & take that last hit..

 

[Elpo]

Very normal feeling. I still have this every time...
Just take your time, and you will feel when the moment is right. Just don't let the fear block you, but try to transform it into humbleness and respect and you'll see that everything will go well.

 

[sleepypelican]

No hurry mate. But just think of this. If you got in a life threatening accident today would you want the last thing to go through your mind being 'i should have broken through'?

It also might not even work that well if you don't have a solid method worked out.

Get your intent straight, know that you will be a nervous wreck and then take the plunge. You will have doubts but expect that and keep your intent in focus & take that last hit..

Jesus man! To just grasp that idea ya know? This is an experience that when im dead im going to regret not doing. How do you prepare yourself for that? Im starting to think im over thinking it. Ive been to some pretty gnarly places with shrooms and what I would buy as lsd and im well acquainted with the shadow people from amphetamine and the like, so its not like im new to this. I had a bad scare for about two years and lost my mind fora while due to my stimulant abuse but im good now. Ive got an oil burner and some matches and the doses are already measured. I think im as prepared as I can get. Still hesitant though....

 

[sleepypelican]

No hurry mate. But just think of this. If you got in a life threatening accident today would you want the last thing to go through your mind being 'i should have broken through'?

It also might not even work that well if you don't have a solid method worked out.

Get your intent straight, know that you will be a nervous wreck and then take the plunge. You will have doubts but expect that and keep your intent in focus & take that last hit..

Jesus man! To just grasp that idea ya know? This is an experience that when im dead im going to regret not doing. How do you prepare yourself for that? Im starting to think im over thinking it. Ive been to some pretty narly places with shrooms and what I would buy as lsd and im well acquainted with the shadow people from amphetamine and the like, so its not like im new to this. I had a bad scare for about two years and lost my mind fora while due to my stimulant abuse but im good now. Ive got an oil burner and some matches and the doses are already measured. I think im as prepared as I can get. Still hesitant though....