Ufostrahlen said:
Short summary of the video: feeling scared, sad, angry, depressed is a manifestation of your ego. The solution is to put your focus on others and away from yourself. Help others, communicate with others.
TC shares his view also on the simulation theory, that with committing suicide you just kill your avatar but don't solve your problems.
I haven't watched the video, but that is exactly how i get myself out of that thought cycle. Suicide is a serious and important part of who i am. It has touched my life in many ways. I'd like to try to briefly illustrate several examples and the way it affects the survivors.
My best friend (possibly) committed suicide last year. The lonliness left by his void is painful and at times unbearable. He was one of the only men I've ever used the words 'i love you'with. I miss him dearly. However, when he died (o.d.) , i felt a sense of happiness for him. He had a depression that, despite being successfully medicated, would leave him bed bound for weeks at a time when it struck. He had no family, his death was an escape from pain that i understand.
Suicide propagates itself. Through families, a son, a brother, will follow the footsteps of a suicided relative. MY most recent lover was a very difficult person to be with at times. In fact, it was this difficulty and the fear i had that she would hurt herself that i stayed in a toxic relationship for way too long. The lover she was with before me killed himself, and did so in a way that ensured she'd be the one who found his body. The immeasurable, unbelievable pain and psychic torture that horrible selfish act caused nearly destroyed her. In fact, it may have. Since we split, which was in part due to her drug use-meth,which i can't stand- she has gone overboard with prescription drugs bought illicitly and other things. It's sad. She had issues Bessie, but his self destruction guaranteed that she'd never be happy and he would always be hers.
I myself attempted twice. In my thirties, while i was selling (statue is up ) and shooting up to trio gram of heroin a day. Do how did my cowardly, junky self try? Why, od, of course. Since i knew a simple heroin od would be hard, i spent all the money i had on a drug mixture and alcohol that i thought would surely do it, along with a couple gram shots of tar heroin. I did it all so the various substances would hit at once. The pills, then two pints of ever clear, then the two 1 gram shots. I went out immediately. However, four hours later i woke up, as i was falling down into an icy puddle. Somehow, i had gotten up and walked all the way across the river and was wandering around an industrial area. I guess my body went into some kind of survival mode and just began walking. A couple weeks later, i tried a similar approach. Again it didn't work.
My initial 5meoDMT exp was crucial in t removing from my psyche this burden. It gave me an experiential awareness of something greater than myself. It brought me home. Showing me that i am a godly form and my life is valuable. Since then, several years ago, my life has by no means been easy, in fact, the attempted suicide of my roommate caused me to lose my home a couple years ago and i have not been able to get out of that yet, despite working full time etc. But u don't consider suicide anymore.
OP, what is your curiosity in this subject?
