After a few prominent experiences ive noticed that my life after those experiences is chalked full of of what may be considered psychotic effects.
recently, the reason i created this post, i had a strong experience with achuma. since then i noticed a trend of my perception being more than it was before. an example of this is when i close my eyes to go to sleep i notice patterns and transformations, things normally experienced on low doses of psychedelics. i also recognize inanimate objects as animals and people... this is the first for me to have it this late after that particular experience, since i havent used psychoactives since ( 2weeks) i see cats in the corners of my eyes and double take to find nothing or sometimes an object. i have a giant carved cigar holding indian, im very familliar with it, yet i passed the hallway where it can be seen down it and stopped in my tracks convinced that it was a person. sometimes i think i see people in the corner of my eye aswell. i was trying to sleep a few nights ago and i kept hearing these weird oscilating pitches, and it made me remember this time when i was a kid and thought my brothers were screaming in the middle of the night in a contest with each other, getting louder and louder, it turns out they were asleep which i found out after running to mad dads bedroom and demanding he stop the intollerable screeching
also a month ago i had less than a foot of achuma flesh and smoked changa for a few hours at the end of the experience
for me less than a foot of flesh is not entheogenic, it is empathogenic, there are no visuals, at best visual distortions
after sobering up i decided to break my fast with an apple, the lights were still off so i washed it in the bathroom sink under the moonlight, then i noticed a strobing light reflect upon my dark bathroom, looking outside i saw a spark in the tree, a white spark like electricity not but 15 feet away, at first i thought it was a lightning bug then i thought this bug must be the queen of lighting bugs made of lightning, then after its pulsating sparking, (as if 2 wires were being touched together rythmatically) there was a hint of yellow, as if a flame were about to begin, but it never did. there was nothing in the spot where the sparking orginated, then there was sparks i watched this in growing awe for about 45 seconds, i searched the backyard below and and other places for this to be a reflection and found none. as i changed my vantage point the location of the electrical sparking (about 2 inches in diameter) the sparking still rested in the limb of a tree outside my third story window. now half convinced i needed to photograph this phenomenon and half convinced the moment i left it would too, i watched as it sparked and then swooped off the branch downwards a couple of feet and come towards me, then it arched up and out of sight over the house. i began freaking out, i had never seen anything like this. i pressed my face against the glass and began to look into the sky, i ran to the living room and kitchen windows and half climbed out searching for this sparking phenomenon. it was only traveling a couple miles per hour i thought i could catch another glimpse. excited i stared around my now lit apartment trying to see if i was infact hallucinating and no, i was dead sober, all lines were crisp and static, nothing moved bent or transformed, and certainly nothing sparked like white lightning about to burst into flames and flew around....
i then sat and had very profound cathartic revelations as i spoke them to a friend over the phone who i called at first because of the sparking. for 2 hours i enlightened myself and him with personal truths i had become aware of. there was so much joy in my forgiveness, it was a blessing to be me and all grievances were forgotten as they contributed to my satisfaction in life.
ive never seen anything like this ever, i came away from the situation getting the idea that i had recieved some celestial wink. it was as if the universe let me know it was watching, this magic was a sign i was participating in awe.
recently, the reason i created this post, i had a strong experience with achuma. since then i noticed a trend of my perception being more than it was before. an example of this is when i close my eyes to go to sleep i notice patterns and transformations, things normally experienced on low doses of psychedelics. i also recognize inanimate objects as animals and people... this is the first for me to have it this late after that particular experience, since i havent used psychoactives since ( 2weeks) i see cats in the corners of my eyes and double take to find nothing or sometimes an object. i have a giant carved cigar holding indian, im very familliar with it, yet i passed the hallway where it can be seen down it and stopped in my tracks convinced that it was a person. sometimes i think i see people in the corner of my eye aswell. i was trying to sleep a few nights ago and i kept hearing these weird oscilating pitches, and it made me remember this time when i was a kid and thought my brothers were screaming in the middle of the night in a contest with each other, getting louder and louder, it turns out they were asleep which i found out after running to mad dads bedroom and demanding he stop the intollerable screeching
also a month ago i had less than a foot of achuma flesh and smoked changa for a few hours at the end of the experience
for me less than a foot of flesh is not entheogenic, it is empathogenic, there are no visuals, at best visual distortions
after sobering up i decided to break my fast with an apple, the lights were still off so i washed it in the bathroom sink under the moonlight, then i noticed a strobing light reflect upon my dark bathroom, looking outside i saw a spark in the tree, a white spark like electricity not but 15 feet away, at first i thought it was a lightning bug then i thought this bug must be the queen of lighting bugs made of lightning, then after its pulsating sparking, (as if 2 wires were being touched together rythmatically) there was a hint of yellow, as if a flame were about to begin, but it never did. there was nothing in the spot where the sparking orginated, then there was sparks i watched this in growing awe for about 45 seconds, i searched the backyard below and and other places for this to be a reflection and found none. as i changed my vantage point the location of the electrical sparking (about 2 inches in diameter) the sparking still rested in the limb of a tree outside my third story window. now half convinced i needed to photograph this phenomenon and half convinced the moment i left it would too, i watched as it sparked and then swooped off the branch downwards a couple of feet and come towards me, then it arched up and out of sight over the house. i began freaking out, i had never seen anything like this. i pressed my face against the glass and began to look into the sky, i ran to the living room and kitchen windows and half climbed out searching for this sparking phenomenon. it was only traveling a couple miles per hour i thought i could catch another glimpse. excited i stared around my now lit apartment trying to see if i was infact hallucinating and no, i was dead sober, all lines were crisp and static, nothing moved bent or transformed, and certainly nothing sparked like white lightning about to burst into flames and flew around....
i then sat and had very profound cathartic revelations as i spoke them to a friend over the phone who i called at first because of the sparking. for 2 hours i enlightened myself and him with personal truths i had become aware of. there was so much joy in my forgiveness, it was a blessing to be me and all grievances were forgotten as they contributed to my satisfaction in life.
ive never seen anything like this ever, i came away from the situation getting the idea that i had recieved some celestial wink. it was as if the universe let me know it was watching, this magic was a sign i was participating in awe.
