I can only tell you my experience. I had a psychedelic/philosophically related existential crisis. Where it was scary to feel like "there is only ultimately one person in the room (god)" and that "we do this forever".
Ultimately time healed it. And just learning what to do in the world.
It is still scary to me. But we are here for a reason. We are in this state for a reason. So if I align with the harmony of the universe my lowercase s self, can get out of the way, to let the bigger Self, just let things play out as aligned as possible with its nature.
It's a work in progress and imperfect. But it works for me.
I experienced this you-myself god state for the first time recently. It was like a glimpse into a reality where everything is a message experienced with raw empathy of god remembering you-myself. it was so much more than words could ever describe. it is a different reality... the profundity of the experience is mind blowing to me.
beautiful, intimate, vulnerable, intense, pushing my existential soul limits
respect. As god there is no selfishness, no avoiding, at least I don't feel so. Swimming with penetrating empathy in a world where every person is a portal.
I also kindof, had a zen buddhist sort of practice thing going before this perspective. I would consider it 'basic LSD' perhaps but that doesn't make it any less profound to me! I feel like the habitual sobriety of the zen buddhist (where I also didn't consume art or read and identify with 'knowledge/ ideas/ beliefs' too much, nor text excessively with friends) primed me to really engage with the totality of THIS experience at baseline. ~ that may or may not have had an effect on this experience arising.
It arose a week or two AFTER my LSD trip in nature, when I was really sharing the entire emotional reflection with an attentive friend I love, and speaking that memory and those feelings to them really activated the level of consiousness of the trip in me again and for the rest of our conversation I was like ~ well engaged with god but when we stopped talking (the silence of the nature around our park bench 'calmed me down') I felt like "holly crap! my friend is 'GOD; !
!! My empathy was so deep and intimate. Huge respect for every word he said which were activating so much imagination and empathy in me.
@ShadedSelf I have been reflecting on this wheel thing a bit, or perhaps reflecting on some cyclical model of understanding what is going on ~ and as far as I can express and reflectively experience, where I am right now, I do believe that in certain places we are not meant to be in contact perhaps with those places wherein which reflections and wisdoms would exist. Like, for instance, when going through fear for instance, I would not expect myself to know that I'm going through some process of metabolizing fear. I would not really know any of that. I hope perhaps someone from the outside might provide shelter or maybe I would just panic my way through it to which would, from this perspective I am in rn, I would try to give my deepest humility and respect and reverence, as I am not exactly empathically elevated rn, playfully elevated, or going through anxiety and such. I imagine a fear experience would be existentially soulfully dis-orienting amongst other things, but it's one thing to describe, another to be in.
I am a novice to psychedelics however so, I really refer to input from others, but if you are in a vulnerable place (it seems like some time has progressed!) I hope some chunky text might be nice to grab onto
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Best wishes!
Thank you for reading
Thank you for remembering! wohoo
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