Hmm, glad to know I am not alone! When I could not find anything else like this at first I thought this was unique to me, but now there are multiple people confirming it!
I would like to add that after some integration I realized that I had not broke through, sadly. I was actually right there, at the edge... and my body refused to let go.
I broke out into a repetitive hum, and was rubbing my legs. I felt like I couldn't breathe and instead of embracing it I instead went into a trance where I kept my body connected to my mind; hyperspace didn't like that.
I had almost forgotten the feeling of gasping for air, as if I couldn't breathe. I know how safe this is, and I know my product does not have anything wrong with it. I have read now that others have had the same problem, and all I would of had to do was let go. I had cleared a lot of spice and after my second inhalation I could not even comprehend using my VG, and sat there frozen until I began my humming and gasping for air.
My best friend was present for this, and when I returned from the gasping and humming his face was in utter shock, hand over his mouth. I began laughing hysterically. One thing about this is no matter how intense it is, when I come back and look at my friend and think about what just happened I get the most overwhelming sense of laughter. All during the day I could remember that moment and my face lights up with a huge smile. I do not even know why, as I think to most people that would be a frightening ordeal.
I also came back with revelations of things I needed to do this week, things that I believe will help me on my next attempt. I have not had any communication via words or speech with entities, however I do feel there is "communication" going on with feelings. Every time I feel as though something is learning from me, more than I am able to learn back from. I feel as though while I'm in this state trying to understand it, there is a being that is feeding off my knowledge.
So, I wait, until this upcoming weekend where I will finally be joined with a fellow traveller in person, and with all the knowledge I have obtained so far I believe I am ready to break through.
This traveller is bringing some caapi, among other tools, possibly changa. Up until this point I have been attempting freebase crystals, pure white. What makes me most sad is that I do not have much left, only enough for a few more journeys, and seems it may be difficult to obtain more.
I truly hope I make it. The next time, my body will have to let go.
