Witnessing my friend's journey, I could sense the intensity of the experience with him struggling to breathe at first and writhing around a bit but then ultimately coming to a place of peace. Afterward, it was my turn, and little did I know, I was about to undergo a profound transformation. With roughly 50mg on "the machine," I took as many deep inhales as i possibly could, i dont exactly remember how many it was at one point i was aided by others holding the hose to my face because i was struggling after the third hit and i just remember eventually being physically too out of it to continue or be in the room anymore and just let go. The experience led me through a complete death and rebirth, i remember seeing almost like a slide show happening so quickly i could barley keep up with it of what seemed like the creation of the universe and the course my energy had traveled from the beginning showing me past lives in the blink of an eye up until that point of smoking it, propelling me into a vibrational existence within a white realm where as soon as i gave in to death I was accompanied by an overwhelming feeling of what i could only imagine was pure love and this odd feeling of "ive been here before"
As I returned to the couch of this persons house i had just met minutes ago who essentially had just delivered me from the astral plane, all i remember thinking was, "everything is going to be okay."
[btw this is a horrible representation of this experience it was about 8 years ago so details are fuzzy and lacking at this point and this story does it no justice by any means]
This experience changed me in ways I still cant explain to this day, it completely eliminated my fear of death, i remember not being able to stop thinking about the experience i just had for months after that. I realized that all I needed in life was food, water, and minimal shelter but that everything would ultimately be okay no matter what and that there was never anything to worry about. I told my landlord at the time who was a terrible person i would no longer be paying rent for next month, began giving away my stuff to close friends and put my 2 weeks notice in at my job. shortly after my friends had thrown a going away party for me and a couple days after my last day at my job i set off on foot heading up hwy 1 out of morro bay with my thumb out, embarking on a journey with just a backpack, sleeping bag, food, and water. For seven years, I traveled the country, hitchhiking, hopping freight trains, and walking. I worked when i could and would busk and do other hustles to make money along the way. I have done just about everything at this point from dish pit to working as a rodbuster on a bridge.
Sadly at some point the initial spiritual ideologies from the experience and the adventure it led into eventually waned after the first couple years and i didnt properly integrate my experince with DMT leading me back to old vices and trapping me on the road. Despite sporadic encounters with DMT, my headspace was never ideal due to struggles with substance abuse.
I decided to leave the road last year, been clean off hard drugs for 5 years now and quit drinking about 11 months ago (almost a year next month).
I began working with microdoses/macrodoses of mushrooms and started to unpack the stuff that had happened through my life and the road at the beginning of last year. then about 3 months ago, DMT unexpectedly re-entered my life through the help of someone who is now a dear friend, and while there has been a lot of tumultuous journeys so far and lots of uncomfortable sessions, these beautiful medicine's have been helping me focus on self-care and personal growth restoring my spiritual faith in the universe and the process at large more so than i ever have before.
In the last month and a 1/2, i found my way to the e-mesh from the same person who randomly brought DMT back into my life suggesting i build one and ive truly been so happy with it as a tool for accessing hyperspace. In fact ive loved the E-mesh so much that i assembled 2 of them as gifts for close friends already who really enjoy them as well. I've been so thankful for the encounters ive been having with it lately so much so it has finally prompted me to get the equipment together for my first extract and led me to here.
I am very excited to be apart of this community and hope to learn everything i can and to hopefully be able to contribute and give back in some way and keep the spirit of this beautiful medicine going
much love everyone thank you for taking the time to read my story, and i hope you are all having a wonderful day or night wherever you are
"you are god and i am you."
As I returned to the couch of this persons house i had just met minutes ago who essentially had just delivered me from the astral plane, all i remember thinking was, "everything is going to be okay."
[btw this is a horrible representation of this experience it was about 8 years ago so details are fuzzy and lacking at this point and this story does it no justice by any means]
This experience changed me in ways I still cant explain to this day, it completely eliminated my fear of death, i remember not being able to stop thinking about the experience i just had for months after that. I realized that all I needed in life was food, water, and minimal shelter but that everything would ultimately be okay no matter what and that there was never anything to worry about. I told my landlord at the time who was a terrible person i would no longer be paying rent for next month, began giving away my stuff to close friends and put my 2 weeks notice in at my job. shortly after my friends had thrown a going away party for me and a couple days after my last day at my job i set off on foot heading up hwy 1 out of morro bay with my thumb out, embarking on a journey with just a backpack, sleeping bag, food, and water. For seven years, I traveled the country, hitchhiking, hopping freight trains, and walking. I worked when i could and would busk and do other hustles to make money along the way. I have done just about everything at this point from dish pit to working as a rodbuster on a bridge.
Sadly at some point the initial spiritual ideologies from the experience and the adventure it led into eventually waned after the first couple years and i didnt properly integrate my experince with DMT leading me back to old vices and trapping me on the road. Despite sporadic encounters with DMT, my headspace was never ideal due to struggles with substance abuse.
I decided to leave the road last year, been clean off hard drugs for 5 years now and quit drinking about 11 months ago (almost a year next month).
I began working with microdoses/macrodoses of mushrooms and started to unpack the stuff that had happened through my life and the road at the beginning of last year. then about 3 months ago, DMT unexpectedly re-entered my life through the help of someone who is now a dear friend, and while there has been a lot of tumultuous journeys so far and lots of uncomfortable sessions, these beautiful medicine's have been helping me focus on self-care and personal growth restoring my spiritual faith in the universe and the process at large more so than i ever have before.
In the last month and a 1/2, i found my way to the e-mesh from the same person who randomly brought DMT back into my life suggesting i build one and ive truly been so happy with it as a tool for accessing hyperspace. In fact ive loved the E-mesh so much that i assembled 2 of them as gifts for close friends already who really enjoy them as well. I've been so thankful for the encounters ive been having with it lately so much so it has finally prompted me to get the equipment together for my first extract and led me to here.
I am very excited to be apart of this community and hope to learn everything i can and to hopefully be able to contribute and give back in some way and keep the spirit of this beautiful medicine going
much love everyone thank you for taking the time to read my story, and i hope you are all having a wonderful day or night wherever you are
"you are god and i am you."
