ok i don't really know how to ask this but i need to talk to people who actually get it.
i've been doing dmt for a while now. at first it was the normal stuff, geometry, colors, different stuff every time. the last two weeks have been completely different and honestly it's freaking me out a little, in a good way mostly, but i want to understand it.
first thing is my body. when i go in, it starts moving on its own. mostly my head and my spine, this slow winding snake type movement. i'm not doing it on purpose and i'm not fighting it either, it just happens. sometimes i get pulled bolt upright, stiff, sitting in a way i never sit. and it's not just in my head, my friend has watched it happen to me in person more than once. he's the one who told me i was moving like a snake. somebody mentioned this might be kundalini.
second thing is it's the same beings every single time now. it used to be random. now it's like they're waiting for me. they show up looking like hindu and buddhist gods, one of them i looked up afterward and it was green tara, which i had never even heard of before that. and one time it was this huge golden lion, like a sun with a face, a literal god, and i just sat there existing in front of it. i've also stopped seeing the waiting room completely. no buildup anymore, i'm just instantly there with them, and it feels like they're inside me, like we're one thing.
i want to be clear i'm not losing it. i work, i'm good in my normal life, i'm not in some crisis. it doesn't feel scary, it feels like love. i'm not trying to act like i'm special either, i genuinely just want to know what's happening to me.
so for anyone who's been doing this way longer than me:
has anyone had the snake movements where other people can actually see it happen? is that kundalini or something else?
did your trips ever go from random to the same beings every time, especially actual gods?
anyone else stop seeing the waiting room and just get dropped straight into contact?
and honestly any advice for how to handle this as it gets stronger would mean a lot.
appreciate anyone who actually reads this. not looking to get hyped up or called crazy, just trying to figure out whats real here. thanks
i've been doing dmt for a while now. at first it was the normal stuff, geometry, colors, different stuff every time. the last two weeks have been completely different and honestly it's freaking me out a little, in a good way mostly, but i want to understand it.
first thing is my body. when i go in, it starts moving on its own. mostly my head and my spine, this slow winding snake type movement. i'm not doing it on purpose and i'm not fighting it either, it just happens. sometimes i get pulled bolt upright, stiff, sitting in a way i never sit. and it's not just in my head, my friend has watched it happen to me in person more than once. he's the one who told me i was moving like a snake. somebody mentioned this might be kundalini.
second thing is it's the same beings every single time now. it used to be random. now it's like they're waiting for me. they show up looking like hindu and buddhist gods, one of them i looked up afterward and it was green tara, which i had never even heard of before that. and one time it was this huge golden lion, like a sun with a face, a literal god, and i just sat there existing in front of it. i've also stopped seeing the waiting room completely. no buildup anymore, i'm just instantly there with them, and it feels like they're inside me, like we're one thing.
i want to be clear i'm not losing it. i work, i'm good in my normal life, i'm not in some crisis. it doesn't feel scary, it feels like love. i'm not trying to act like i'm special either, i genuinely just want to know what's happening to me.
so for anyone who's been doing this way longer than me:
has anyone had the snake movements where other people can actually see it happen? is that kundalini or something else?
did your trips ever go from random to the same beings every time, especially actual gods?
anyone else stop seeing the waiting room and just get dropped straight into contact?
and honestly any advice for how to handle this as it gets stronger would mean a lot.
appreciate anyone who actually reads this. not looking to get hyped up or called crazy, just trying to figure out whats real here. thanks