So, tonight i had my first REAL Ayahuasca experience. And before you make some pre-consumptions, allow me to interrupt and explain, and define, REAL.... what it means to me anyways, when it comes to an Ayahuasca experience.
Earlier on today, i watched Aya: Awakenings by Rak Razam (thank you Rak), and for some odd fuckin' reason, all the prior experiences i've had with this stuff seems like childsplay compared to what i've experienced tonight. Not that i can remember a whole lot, but i did write some stuff down. All of what follows, within the quotation marks, is what i've written (or shall we say typed) down.
"The language that i seem to be speaking, is VERY fluent, VERY real, yet i have no idea how i'm speaking such language. Glossolalia, is to play.
But man, tonight, seems like my first TRUE experience, one on one, with mother Ayahuasca.
So, i think i may have a connection in the Amazon, through telepathic ability??????? At least, i'm getting that picture from Ayahuasca... it seems.
And the visuals, my god man. So many, so little focus, was only shown to be shown and nothing else mattered. But i did see FINALLY, the doctors, working on me, on my mind, on my body, on my connection to spirit. The doctors, i really saw them, i was there, they were operating on me, it seems. And then i moved on, by guidance, even though there was curiosity as to the doctors and what all they were doing to me which seem fun and interesting to me.
Ayahuasca, ain't nothing else like it, it's one of a kind, it's the most real thing you can endure, REAL, completely and truly real.
I am being taught things, i am being taught many things. Learning it, is so fun. It's the ultimate mind-fuck, total geek out, truly real.
Oh, and i'm getting the impression that my telepathic connection in the amazon, is a younger man, maybe my age, maybe a little younger??? Either way though, he seems so wise and skilled in what he knows."
"So, i feel compassion. I feel gratitude, i feel honor, i feel trust.... i AM therefor all of what i've just said previously. I am compassionate, i am grateful, i am honorable, and i am trust worthy. In fact, i seem too trustworthy, too compassionate, too grateful... too, honorable, for the experience that is, Ayahuasca, and i think that's a good thing."
"I do think, that Ayahuasca has chosen me... For what? Idk. But i have my work cut out for me, and i'm in it for the long haul, i do believe. Then again, i do have to reshape myself in the non-Ayahuasca realm aka physical reality. I have to become, a better person, better than who i am today (not that who i am today, is bad, just, i'm always looking to update/upgrade myself). And that is to say, that i think the reason i am alive today, is because my path down the Ayahuasca route, will lead me to my ultimate purpose for being here, and a whole lotta extras come with it."
Now, what i didn't mention in what i managed to write down, was that i have now come to accept the purge
I was a straggler, but no more, i have come to embrace the purge. Still though, embracing the purge, doesn't not mean embracing the nausea and gut wrecking, which the Lemon Balm and Cannabis thank god seem to fix. I love Lemon Balm, Lemon Balm is THE SHIT! Lemon Balm goes hand in hand with Ayahuasca, i feel. SERIOUSLY folks, you gotta try it.
Also, i wonder about "the doctors" that i saw, i'm VERY curious about that, in a really good way.
If i remember any more or remember anything i wanna note, i'll be sure to update
