It was to be my sixth attempt at breakthrough. I took 60mg loaded into a home made "machine".
I managed to get what appeared to be a mighty dose on the first long hit that managed to really filled my lungs. The elusive sweet spot had been found it seems. 15 seconds and I exhale quickly and hit the pipe again. With much delight the chamber filled with a mass of smoke indicating another massive dose upon inhalation.
Holding this in with a lot more difficulty than the first I got my first indication. Everything suddenly sharpened up and my hearing went ultra crisp. I felt like I somehow had found more space in my lungs though I had yet to exhale. I grabbed the machine and hit another rip which was as indicatively successful as the first two in its thick visual delight.
I notice while taking this last hit that the light from the flame and the end of my machine are starting to glimmer and go fractal, very much like the "slo-mo" scene in the Dredd movie for anyone who has seen it.
This was about 1 and 1/2 minutes in. I managed to just put the machine down on a table next to me before I slumped back quickly, to be greeted by the infinite wall of amazing patterns that from the last 5 sessions had almost become familiar.
I VERY quickly notice however these are far more solid and vibrant, way beyond any CGI I have seen in my life. Like some kind of magic eye picture, out of all of this a table/alter manifested, comprised of the same look as everything around it yet becoming more and more obvious, it rotated around and a vase appeared, also matching everything else around it chameleon style, as if it was all a constantly shifting magic eye world.
This vase suddenly 'hit me' with a wave of feminine sexual energy. Now I say sexual but it was not lustful or to be desired.. Just immensely feminine and powerful. From this, everything in my field of vision seemed to flip around on itself 180 degrees. For a moment, I did not know if I had my eyes open or closed.. I could feel them opening and closing and thought to myself "just give up worrying about it and watch what is given"
From there it just got crazy. I can account and ascribe to about ten percent of what took place in the following ten to fifteen minutes. The rest is beyond words to me.
I found myself back in my room but it was not my room, like another level of my room, a merging of dimensions. In front of me what I can only describe as a holographic pop up book appeared out of the ground and opened to display things that are beyond any comprehension..
I was in awe for what seemed like an eternity yet from the odd background noise that filtered in I knew it was nothing in "real time". After this display, which included a couple of "flashbacks" to other/past/alternate lives involving a person on this forum and someone else I know in the States, I found myself AS Buddha sat by a Bodhi tree watching all the temptations that arose in front of him as he sought enlightenment.
Now at this point I felt this overwhelming message that whatever Siddhartha Gautama did on that day to become Buddha became like a reference point, a co-ordinate of sorts for other souls to find and inhabit, in order to experience the same thing.
Suddenly I felt this voice in my head say to me "what do you see most REAL statues of Buddha doing".. With that I crossed my eyes slightly and was hit by some MASSIVE beam of light or something, I really don't know.. With that I was back in my room looking around but my reality was akin to that you would see on the film "A Scanner Darkly"...
I sat smiling and laughing at the fact I felt I had broken my reality, yet it was not in the slightest bit bothersome. Then, my wife very synchronistically came back down stairs and I fell into this deep pit of joy wherein I cried immensely over what I had seen, explaining to my wife that it confirms so much yet opens more and more potential doors of knowledge.
I told my wife I was infinitely happy she was in my life and someone who supported me in this endeavor and that should she ever choose to witness this it would be my absolute honour to facilitate the experience.
I think she may be quite enthused :thumb_up:
I hope this comes across as an acceptable first report.. I know it doesn't follow a technical format however I am just happy I got down what I did. My head is pulsing just thinking about half of this hahaha :shock:
I managed to get what appeared to be a mighty dose on the first long hit that managed to really filled my lungs. The elusive sweet spot had been found it seems. 15 seconds and I exhale quickly and hit the pipe again. With much delight the chamber filled with a mass of smoke indicating another massive dose upon inhalation.
Holding this in with a lot more difficulty than the first I got my first indication. Everything suddenly sharpened up and my hearing went ultra crisp. I felt like I somehow had found more space in my lungs though I had yet to exhale. I grabbed the machine and hit another rip which was as indicatively successful as the first two in its thick visual delight.
I notice while taking this last hit that the light from the flame and the end of my machine are starting to glimmer and go fractal, very much like the "slo-mo" scene in the Dredd movie for anyone who has seen it.
This was about 1 and 1/2 minutes in. I managed to just put the machine down on a table next to me before I slumped back quickly, to be greeted by the infinite wall of amazing patterns that from the last 5 sessions had almost become familiar.
I VERY quickly notice however these are far more solid and vibrant, way beyond any CGI I have seen in my life. Like some kind of magic eye picture, out of all of this a table/alter manifested, comprised of the same look as everything around it yet becoming more and more obvious, it rotated around and a vase appeared, also matching everything else around it chameleon style, as if it was all a constantly shifting magic eye world.
This vase suddenly 'hit me' with a wave of feminine sexual energy. Now I say sexual but it was not lustful or to be desired.. Just immensely feminine and powerful. From this, everything in my field of vision seemed to flip around on itself 180 degrees. For a moment, I did not know if I had my eyes open or closed.. I could feel them opening and closing and thought to myself "just give up worrying about it and watch what is given"
From there it just got crazy. I can account and ascribe to about ten percent of what took place in the following ten to fifteen minutes. The rest is beyond words to me.
I found myself back in my room but it was not my room, like another level of my room, a merging of dimensions. In front of me what I can only describe as a holographic pop up book appeared out of the ground and opened to display things that are beyond any comprehension..
I was in awe for what seemed like an eternity yet from the odd background noise that filtered in I knew it was nothing in "real time". After this display, which included a couple of "flashbacks" to other/past/alternate lives involving a person on this forum and someone else I know in the States, I found myself AS Buddha sat by a Bodhi tree watching all the temptations that arose in front of him as he sought enlightenment.
Now at this point I felt this overwhelming message that whatever Siddhartha Gautama did on that day to become Buddha became like a reference point, a co-ordinate of sorts for other souls to find and inhabit, in order to experience the same thing.
Suddenly I felt this voice in my head say to me "what do you see most REAL statues of Buddha doing".. With that I crossed my eyes slightly and was hit by some MASSIVE beam of light or something, I really don't know.. With that I was back in my room looking around but my reality was akin to that you would see on the film "A Scanner Darkly"...
I sat smiling and laughing at the fact I felt I had broken my reality, yet it was not in the slightest bit bothersome. Then, my wife very synchronistically came back down stairs and I fell into this deep pit of joy wherein I cried immensely over what I had seen, explaining to my wife that it confirms so much yet opens more and more potential doors of knowledge.
I told my wife I was infinitely happy she was in my life and someone who supported me in this endeavor and that should she ever choose to witness this it would be my absolute honour to facilitate the experience.
I think she may be quite enthused :thumb_up:
I hope this comes across as an acceptable first report.. I know it doesn't follow a technical format however I am just happy I got down what I did. My head is pulsing just thinking about half of this hahaha :shock:
8) 
