Hi!
I'm pretty new to the DMT world and I have very little experience but I had a two that were a bit disconcerting, to say the least. They were not bad but not good either, they were just very strange.
The first one I think I blacked out because I can't remember much and maybe a took a little too much DMT. I remember flashes of it but I do CLEARLY remember when I woke up and it was crazy. I thought years had passed and I felt extremely weird, like I died long ago and I was someone else already but I got back to this place, body, time for some reason. The hallucinations stopped in the normal frame of time (about 15 min) but the sensation is kind of still there, although not that intense, and it's been a couple of days already.
The second experience was even weirder! I took a little bit less but still too much, I think. I let it hit me with my eyes open and when it started, it was too late to close them because I had no eyes anymore, I couldn't even imagine closing my eyes or even having them, it was an alien thought for me. Things got pretty crazy, very fast. I was seeing so much stuff so fast I couldn't even process it. It was going faster and faster, I could also hear everything going faster and faster, it was really driving me crazy. Then I was seeing everything at the same time and then nothing for a couple seconds. I thought "reality" was no more, there was no "time", there was just nothing. Then I got back to the crazy flashes and when I tried to think about the situation, something was wrong...I couldn't explain to myself what reality was. I couldn't think about reality. It's like if I ask you to think about "ksldjgsaldk", it makes no sense to you and you can't even comprehend what I'm talking about, it just doesn't exist for you, not even in your imagination. This lasted for more than ONE HOUR! I was tripping really hard of one hour and I thought that was it, I was never going back to "reality" (still couldn't understand what that was). My body was moving too fast for me to control it and everything I touched felt like it was melting or something. I know it was really one hour because I know I started at about 5 pm and the trip was still going at 6 pm and even more.
Anyways, I won't make this longer. I am just curious about what happened here. Have any of you had similar experiences? Am I doing something wrong or why is this happening? Now I really don't know what anything is. I still struggle to get my head around the term "reality", it just really doesn't make much sense to me anymore.
I'm taking some days, maybe a week or more to think about all of this.
What are your thoughts about this?
I'm pretty new to the DMT world and I have very little experience but I had a two that were a bit disconcerting, to say the least. They were not bad but not good either, they were just very strange.
The first one I think I blacked out because I can't remember much and maybe a took a little too much DMT. I remember flashes of it but I do CLEARLY remember when I woke up and it was crazy. I thought years had passed and I felt extremely weird, like I died long ago and I was someone else already but I got back to this place, body, time for some reason. The hallucinations stopped in the normal frame of time (about 15 min) but the sensation is kind of still there, although not that intense, and it's been a couple of days already.
The second experience was even weirder! I took a little bit less but still too much, I think. I let it hit me with my eyes open and when it started, it was too late to close them because I had no eyes anymore, I couldn't even imagine closing my eyes or even having them, it was an alien thought for me. Things got pretty crazy, very fast. I was seeing so much stuff so fast I couldn't even process it. It was going faster and faster, I could also hear everything going faster and faster, it was really driving me crazy. Then I was seeing everything at the same time and then nothing for a couple seconds. I thought "reality" was no more, there was no "time", there was just nothing. Then I got back to the crazy flashes and when I tried to think about the situation, something was wrong...I couldn't explain to myself what reality was. I couldn't think about reality. It's like if I ask you to think about "ksldjgsaldk", it makes no sense to you and you can't even comprehend what I'm talking about, it just doesn't exist for you, not even in your imagination. This lasted for more than ONE HOUR! I was tripping really hard of one hour and I thought that was it, I was never going back to "reality" (still couldn't understand what that was). My body was moving too fast for me to control it and everything I touched felt like it was melting or something. I know it was really one hour because I know I started at about 5 pm and the trip was still going at 6 pm and even more.
Anyways, I won't make this longer. I am just curious about what happened here. Have any of you had similar experiences? Am I doing something wrong or why is this happening? Now I really don't know what anything is. I still struggle to get my head around the term "reality", it just really doesn't make much sense to me anymore.
I'm taking some days, maybe a week or more to think about all of this.
What are your thoughts about this?