Nice forum, polite, with good information. I have only occasionally used "serious" psychedelics, only a few times in my life, such as amanita, lsd, etc. The reason was that it always brought me back to Kierkegaard's place, or, if you will, Edward Abbey's West, where nature is silent in Her grand indifference and I am a pitiful fragment, my life meaningless except for whatever Work I might generate.
As a result, entheogenic forays I always undertook in what I imagined was the spirit of the pre-Abrahamic cultures (all of the universalisms tried to wipe out entheogenic use). That is to say that they all seemed to do much the same thing, whether it was the Bitwe people of Cameroon about to use Iboga or the Kichwa in Ecuador or the a Finnish shaman about to take his or her patient on a soul journey using amanita- the percipient would fast, meditate, maybe chant, dance, certainly cleanse one way or other (in the North, this led to the sauna) and only then did one welcome the Ally.
Still, I saw the world much as Castaneda's Don Juan taught it, as full of threats, a place that must be survived and undergone. Still, I came out of each of my handful of encounters simply ambitious to improve myself and the human condition anyway that I could.
Recently, however, I discovered an obscure technology which I can hardly describe in words, but I bought it. It cleanses, seriously, ALL negativity from my self and my space. Even my cats are far more conteent! It is nothing I have to ingest, but when I did ingest amanita a month ago, I felt energized, peaceful, and in unity with the cosmos. It was all that I could have asked for, profound, and none, zero, of my prior angst. Maybe none of you experience 'trip' angst for lack of a better term, but thest bizaree painting-looking thingees I have on my wall (my particular model are Aeslepions) change the whole picture. They are made by www.brind-gen.net Just thought I'd mention it to see if anyone else had experienced similar issue or similar solution.
