CAPTAIN HYPERSPACE
Rising Star
Three and a half years since my last DMT experience and i was still feeling kind of reluctant. I wanted more than anything to journey back into hyperspace, but i guess i was worried about the effects of such an experience on my sanity. After my first big experience, (Communication With The Ball Of Light), I was left feeling that schizophrenia was closely related to excessive levels of DMT production and that taking too much DMT could somehow mess with my own production levels, effectively turning me schizophrenic. Obviously that was a scary prospect...Anyway, for a fair while after my last experience, I felt as though i was back on path, but somewhere along the line i managed to dismiss and block out what i had experienced, and went back to the bullshit of everyday life. It was only the last 12 months that i had finally found my way back and found myself constantly thinking about the spice again. I managed to track down an old mate at just the right time, and he fixed me up with some beautiful orange crystals. Funny how you never forget that beautiful smell...HAHAHAHAH...I'd planned on waiting a week or so to psyche myself up and prepare myself for another journey, but curiousity got the better of me and i ended up getting stuck into it that same afternoon, and later on the next morning...Again i was blown away.....!
Experience 1 - CEV: Usually i pack myself about half a cone of weed, then tightly pack as much "spice" as i can on top, but this time decided on only a quarter of a cone of weed, so i could pack a little more spice than usual on top. I had nothing in my mind as far as expectations...I sat upright on the edge of my bed as i slowly smoked the cone. Holding it in for as long as i could, i felt that familiar feeling come over me. I quickly placed the bong on the floor and about halfway through lying back the visuals began...This time i don't remember getting that "rocket" or "take off" sort of feeling, but felt more as though it came to me. The visuals appeared, patterns, red and golden in colour. Then another, overlapping them, in the shape of a cross and made up of it's own patterns and design. As it came nearer i could make out some sort of face, but it was hard to focus on due to the level of intensity i was feeling. My body had been surrendered and i had no control over anything. I was totally incapacitated. My ears were filled with that familiar but undescribable sound which has accompanied all of my journeys. It was like the sound of the frequency to which i was tuned in order to visit this world. I felt a slight feeling of terror at having lost all control of my body, i guess maybe because this time i wasn't really prepared for the experience. The being/entity was upon me now. I could not look at it. It was too intense. I could sense that i was now being scanned, and the feeling of terror was replaced by the most intense feelings of love and happiness that i have ever experienced. No words could ever come close to describing that feeling. I felt different body parts twitching as they were scanned and remember laughing out loud a few times and saying "oh my fucking god" over and over...As it scanned over my lower body, i felt this strange warm sensation, and remember thinking to myself, "i hope i didn't just piss myself"...i didn't...Somewhere around this time, i felt as though i needed to return. I felt the terror creeping back in, so as usual, thanked the being/entity for the experience, and pleaded with it to let me return to my world, also asking that contact only ever be made if it is by my choice...I don't know why i do this, but i guess it's because of my fear of turning schizophrenic. Although i totally believe in the places i have ventured to, i would hate to be walking around one day and all of a sudden be contacted by these beings. I want to make my own conscious desicions to journey to and explore their worlds when i am prepared and ready. Any other way would just be too terrifying and surely send me crazy...Anyway, even though i asked to leave, the experience continued for a short time and i felt myself still being scanned. When the being was done, i felt it moving away from me, leaving a trail of patterns in it's wake as it faded away. I woke from my state blown away and spent the next 20 minutes in that "fuzzy" kind of state, trying to piece together what had just happened. I think sometimes you try to block bits out that were just too intense to remember...I felt as though i had gained little from it myself, yet at the same time, i felt as though things would come back to me over the next day or two when my mind was ready to deal with it. It was about 4:30am the next morning before i would have my next journey, again unplanned and unprepared...
EXPERIENCE 2 - CEV: I don't know why i decided to journey again. I had been drinking all night and polished off a 700ml bottle of Jack Daniels so wasn't really in the right state for the experience, but am glad i did it anyway. The process was the same. Quarter of a cone of weed with as much DMT on top as i possibly could. Again i layed back and strangely the same visuals appeared before me. It was almost enough to send me sober. This time the feeling was more serious. They had a message. Maybe it was my innebriated state, but as they communicated with me, i found it hard to understand the message being conveyed. This is where it got kind of wierd. I told them i was sorry, but did not understand, so instead off communicating their message telepathically, they changed to visuals. It was like playing a game of charades...These little almost hieroglyphical visuals would appear in front of me and they would keep on flashing at me until i understood. If i did not understand one visual, then another would present itself, and so on until i understood. This went on until their whole message had been passed on. I will not share what the message was,for the simple fact that it was of a highly personal nature and was intended only to help me change something in my life that is wrong, and to show me and help me understand why it is wrong...Once the message was understood, i again thanked them and watched them fade away as i returned back to reality. On returning, i did not feel the usual excitement that follows such an experience. Maybe because i was drunk, maybe because of the nature of the message? I don't know, but i am glad i returned to recieve that message, because it is something i know i need to change in my life, and this encounter has now made it a top priority....
THIS IS WHERE THINGS GET WIERDER AGAIN...
The next day, i began thinking in depth about my experiences and it struck me that all of my experiences seem to begin with me being scanned in one journey, and then presented with a message in the next. My messages are always about bettering myself....I decided to start searching the net for other stories, wondering if anyone else has had similar experiences and also to search for any art which may resemble in any way the visuals whch i had seen in my last two experiences. I thought, "maybe if this place is real, someone else has been there and seen what i have seen, and created a picture of it"...Within an hour of searching "DMT ART" on google, i found what i was looking for, and as ridiculous as it sounds, the art i found was not just similar to what i had seen, it was IDENTICAL. I was fucking blown away! How could this be possible? As soon as i saw this picture i knew it was without a doubt what i had seen and experienced. I will just say at this point that i forgot in my first experience to describe the beetles which i had seen. I descrbed them to my mate afterwards as SCARAB beetles. These brilliant, beautiful beetles made of gold with beautiful red ruby's on there backs and green emeralds...I will be drawing and posting a pic of them soon. Anyway, whilst i remembered the scarab beetles from my journey, the face which i had seen was in my mind but half blocked out until i saw this picture, and then it all flooded back instantly. The face was of egyptian nature which now made sense as to why i had seen the scarab beetle. Everything about this picture was a perfect resemblance of what i had seen and where i had been. You will find this picture posted at the bottom. It is a painting by a bloke named ALEX GREY who had been involved in LSD for some time and has some fantastic art. He is responsible for the art on the front of Dr Rick Strassman's book: DMT - The Spirit Molecule and his site is definately worth checking out...So anyway, i was blown away. The fact that Alex Grey had obviously been to the same place as i have visited opens up a whole lot of doors to me and makes me think that i cannot be crazy, and this place cannot just be something i have imagined...It must be real...Can there be any other explanation?
Another thing i think worth mentioning is some of the after effects of my experience. Over the next few days i found that i was experiencing this strange kind of clarity towards everything. When i listened to music i was no longer just hearing a simple song. Even though i may have heard the same song 1000 times, it seemed new, and vibrant. I could focus on every single note, and every sound. Things i had never heard before. I could experience the song as a whole and appreciate every little note and sound. The words stood out and i could not believe what i was hearing. It was as though i could now see the message within the song, something which i had never noticed before. It was kind of scary and again the reason why i constantly question whether the spice is also the key to schizophrenia. Was i losing it to think that within these songs lay a message that had been there all along, only i wasn't "tuned in"...? I don't know, but everything seemed so clear. Another thing i noticed was that for someone who has suffered from depression for a great part of their life, i was now able to "switch on" at will...I was walking around smiling constantly. I have never felt this before...It felt as though i was connected to the "source"...Sadly, over the past week i have felt this feeling fade. I guess too many strange things have been happening and as a result i have been pushing them away again and blocking them out. I am now trying to figure out whether i should journey on and explore deeper into these worlds or back off...I feel as though journeying on and learning to understand these worlds and experiences is what i am supposed to do, but at the same time am scared i may lose touch with reality and end up in some mental institute like so many others...At the same time i feel s though, if i were losing the plot, i would not be capable of LOGICAL THINKING...Does anyone else out there feel like they are on the verge of losing it after these experiences? Logical thinking tells me that this would be a normal reaction to something which we know nothing about and is seemingly "unreal"....yet, it also tells me that if someone else has seen the same things that i have, then they must exist, and therefore i cannot be crazy...For now i think i'll keep my feet planted in this reality until i am ready again, and have a better understanding of what is really out there. Anyway, thankyou to anyone who reads this, and please leave a reply as i am interested in others ideas on my experience. Thanks.
Experience 1 - CEV: Usually i pack myself about half a cone of weed, then tightly pack as much "spice" as i can on top, but this time decided on only a quarter of a cone of weed, so i could pack a little more spice than usual on top. I had nothing in my mind as far as expectations...I sat upright on the edge of my bed as i slowly smoked the cone. Holding it in for as long as i could, i felt that familiar feeling come over me. I quickly placed the bong on the floor and about halfway through lying back the visuals began...This time i don't remember getting that "rocket" or "take off" sort of feeling, but felt more as though it came to me. The visuals appeared, patterns, red and golden in colour. Then another, overlapping them, in the shape of a cross and made up of it's own patterns and design. As it came nearer i could make out some sort of face, but it was hard to focus on due to the level of intensity i was feeling. My body had been surrendered and i had no control over anything. I was totally incapacitated. My ears were filled with that familiar but undescribable sound which has accompanied all of my journeys. It was like the sound of the frequency to which i was tuned in order to visit this world. I felt a slight feeling of terror at having lost all control of my body, i guess maybe because this time i wasn't really prepared for the experience. The being/entity was upon me now. I could not look at it. It was too intense. I could sense that i was now being scanned, and the feeling of terror was replaced by the most intense feelings of love and happiness that i have ever experienced. No words could ever come close to describing that feeling. I felt different body parts twitching as they were scanned and remember laughing out loud a few times and saying "oh my fucking god" over and over...As it scanned over my lower body, i felt this strange warm sensation, and remember thinking to myself, "i hope i didn't just piss myself"...i didn't...Somewhere around this time, i felt as though i needed to return. I felt the terror creeping back in, so as usual, thanked the being/entity for the experience, and pleaded with it to let me return to my world, also asking that contact only ever be made if it is by my choice...I don't know why i do this, but i guess it's because of my fear of turning schizophrenic. Although i totally believe in the places i have ventured to, i would hate to be walking around one day and all of a sudden be contacted by these beings. I want to make my own conscious desicions to journey to and explore their worlds when i am prepared and ready. Any other way would just be too terrifying and surely send me crazy...Anyway, even though i asked to leave, the experience continued for a short time and i felt myself still being scanned. When the being was done, i felt it moving away from me, leaving a trail of patterns in it's wake as it faded away. I woke from my state blown away and spent the next 20 minutes in that "fuzzy" kind of state, trying to piece together what had just happened. I think sometimes you try to block bits out that were just too intense to remember...I felt as though i had gained little from it myself, yet at the same time, i felt as though things would come back to me over the next day or two when my mind was ready to deal with it. It was about 4:30am the next morning before i would have my next journey, again unplanned and unprepared...
EXPERIENCE 2 - CEV: I don't know why i decided to journey again. I had been drinking all night and polished off a 700ml bottle of Jack Daniels so wasn't really in the right state for the experience, but am glad i did it anyway. The process was the same. Quarter of a cone of weed with as much DMT on top as i possibly could. Again i layed back and strangely the same visuals appeared before me. It was almost enough to send me sober. This time the feeling was more serious. They had a message. Maybe it was my innebriated state, but as they communicated with me, i found it hard to understand the message being conveyed. This is where it got kind of wierd. I told them i was sorry, but did not understand, so instead off communicating their message telepathically, they changed to visuals. It was like playing a game of charades...These little almost hieroglyphical visuals would appear in front of me and they would keep on flashing at me until i understood. If i did not understand one visual, then another would present itself, and so on until i understood. This went on until their whole message had been passed on. I will not share what the message was,for the simple fact that it was of a highly personal nature and was intended only to help me change something in my life that is wrong, and to show me and help me understand why it is wrong...Once the message was understood, i again thanked them and watched them fade away as i returned back to reality. On returning, i did not feel the usual excitement that follows such an experience. Maybe because i was drunk, maybe because of the nature of the message? I don't know, but i am glad i returned to recieve that message, because it is something i know i need to change in my life, and this encounter has now made it a top priority....
THIS IS WHERE THINGS GET WIERDER AGAIN...
The next day, i began thinking in depth about my experiences and it struck me that all of my experiences seem to begin with me being scanned in one journey, and then presented with a message in the next. My messages are always about bettering myself....I decided to start searching the net for other stories, wondering if anyone else has had similar experiences and also to search for any art which may resemble in any way the visuals whch i had seen in my last two experiences. I thought, "maybe if this place is real, someone else has been there and seen what i have seen, and created a picture of it"...Within an hour of searching "DMT ART" on google, i found what i was looking for, and as ridiculous as it sounds, the art i found was not just similar to what i had seen, it was IDENTICAL. I was fucking blown away! How could this be possible? As soon as i saw this picture i knew it was without a doubt what i had seen and experienced. I will just say at this point that i forgot in my first experience to describe the beetles which i had seen. I descrbed them to my mate afterwards as SCARAB beetles. These brilliant, beautiful beetles made of gold with beautiful red ruby's on there backs and green emeralds...I will be drawing and posting a pic of them soon. Anyway, whilst i remembered the scarab beetles from my journey, the face which i had seen was in my mind but half blocked out until i saw this picture, and then it all flooded back instantly. The face was of egyptian nature which now made sense as to why i had seen the scarab beetle. Everything about this picture was a perfect resemblance of what i had seen and where i had been. You will find this picture posted at the bottom. It is a painting by a bloke named ALEX GREY who had been involved in LSD for some time and has some fantastic art. He is responsible for the art on the front of Dr Rick Strassman's book: DMT - The Spirit Molecule and his site is definately worth checking out...So anyway, i was blown away. The fact that Alex Grey had obviously been to the same place as i have visited opens up a whole lot of doors to me and makes me think that i cannot be crazy, and this place cannot just be something i have imagined...It must be real...Can there be any other explanation?
Another thing i think worth mentioning is some of the after effects of my experience. Over the next few days i found that i was experiencing this strange kind of clarity towards everything. When i listened to music i was no longer just hearing a simple song. Even though i may have heard the same song 1000 times, it seemed new, and vibrant. I could focus on every single note, and every sound. Things i had never heard before. I could experience the song as a whole and appreciate every little note and sound. The words stood out and i could not believe what i was hearing. It was as though i could now see the message within the song, something which i had never noticed before. It was kind of scary and again the reason why i constantly question whether the spice is also the key to schizophrenia. Was i losing it to think that within these songs lay a message that had been there all along, only i wasn't "tuned in"...? I don't know, but everything seemed so clear. Another thing i noticed was that for someone who has suffered from depression for a great part of their life, i was now able to "switch on" at will...I was walking around smiling constantly. I have never felt this before...It felt as though i was connected to the "source"...Sadly, over the past week i have felt this feeling fade. I guess too many strange things have been happening and as a result i have been pushing them away again and blocking them out. I am now trying to figure out whether i should journey on and explore deeper into these worlds or back off...I feel as though journeying on and learning to understand these worlds and experiences is what i am supposed to do, but at the same time am scared i may lose touch with reality and end up in some mental institute like so many others...At the same time i feel s though, if i were losing the plot, i would not be capable of LOGICAL THINKING...Does anyone else out there feel like they are on the verge of losing it after these experiences? Logical thinking tells me that this would be a normal reaction to something which we know nothing about and is seemingly "unreal"....yet, it also tells me that if someone else has seen the same things that i have, then they must exist, and therefore i cannot be crazy...For now i think i'll keep my feet planted in this reality until i am ready again, and have a better understanding of what is really out there. Anyway, thankyou to anyone who reads this, and please leave a reply as i am interested in others ideas on my experience. Thanks.
