legatomaster
Rising Star
I’ve done a lot of LSD and shrooms in my time (mostly in the past since I’m in my 40s now), but I’m a noob to the DMT world. I tried an extraction and got really good results in my first try with some almost pure white (a little yellowish) flaky results. So now it’s time to give it a shot, right?
I’ve tried to be very respectful of what I’m doing. I did a lot of research and am going in with a bit of caution. I also lead a busy life so I need to wait for a day where everything went well, nothing major hanging over my head, etc. So one night I just wanted a “taste” as my first foray. I sprinkled a little bit into a glass vapor genie. Had my GF in the room as sitter, but pretty sure that wasn’t needed. I got mostly a body buzz and ringing in my ears. Some minor visuals, but no fractals and it only lasted about a minute. I got what I came for that day, which was a little perspective on how strong it was and what the onset was like.
About a week later I had a great day, everything was good, so I loaded up 25mg on top of some vaped leaf. I decided to be alone, but my sitter was in the next room. My goal was to get it all in one hit, and I think I did. A long drag, I laid the pipe down and laid back while I felt the overwhelming onset. I closed my eyes and there were the fractals right away. They were sort of sideways figure 8 shaped “bubbles” flowing in from all sides, and each had vast patterns inside them that seemed to go infinitely deep. The patterns were deep blues, purples, and reds. This was really intense, and I started telling myself everything I said I would. “Keep calm, you knew this would be intense, it’s only for 15 minutes…”. My next thought was “ITS TOO MUCH! Fifteen minutes of this is ETERNITY!!!”. Ha ha, I admit I started fighting it. I got a taste of reality slipping away and I held on as tight as I could. I opened my eyes and saw my room, but it looked like it may start breaking apart so I closed them again. At that moment I was thinking “I’m never doing this again, just hold on!” Yeah, I panicked a little bit. I thought about yelling out to my sitter in the next room, just as an anchor to reality, but I decided to go it alone. I didn’t want her to get worried if I blasted off and became non-responsive, and I knew I could get through on my own, as uncomfortable as this was. My hands were interlocked over my stomach, and I just kept rubbing my fingers together as a way to keep me in touch with my body.
I saw no entities or anything like that, but as the fractals waved in from the sides I swear a saw the outline of a female head and arms, just for a second. She was either moving the fractals around in front of me, or she may have purposely tried to make me see her before it wore off. Maybe to let me know she’s there waiting for me. She was there for maybe one second and then the effects started to subside. No more fractals, things are calming down now, I made it. I was terrified for a minute (4 minutes to be more specific), but there was never a time I thought I wasn’t going to be ok. The first experience of possibly having my reality ripped away was quite shocking. I don’t think you can be ready for that. Funny thing is, I was REALLY nervous about taking that first huge hit, and now I feel much less nervous. I’ve been there, it’s scary, I came back, I’m fine.
My plan now is to do a couple more low doses in an attempt to “make friends” with that scary place I was in. Maybe start at a not so intense level. I think if I had just laid down and went with it I may have broken through last time because this was CRAZY STRONG, but I fought it. I want to try a few more until I can get there and not fight it. I think back to other psychedelics where I could “let” things get really weird, but could shake it off and pull reality back. I learned that this is NOT THE CASE with DMT. You’re going where it wants to take you, and even though I knew that, the first time was pretty scary. It's very interesting that somehow I'm now less nervous to do it again although the experience was more intimidating than I expected.
I’m sure opinions will vary, but I wonder what other people’s thoughts are on this approach of trying to get “comfortable” in the lower place before just blasting off. I’m confident that all I have to do is stuff a higher dose in the pipe when I’m ready and it will be T-minus 3, 2, 1…
I’ve tried to be very respectful of what I’m doing. I did a lot of research and am going in with a bit of caution. I also lead a busy life so I need to wait for a day where everything went well, nothing major hanging over my head, etc. So one night I just wanted a “taste” as my first foray. I sprinkled a little bit into a glass vapor genie. Had my GF in the room as sitter, but pretty sure that wasn’t needed. I got mostly a body buzz and ringing in my ears. Some minor visuals, but no fractals and it only lasted about a minute. I got what I came for that day, which was a little perspective on how strong it was and what the onset was like.
About a week later I had a great day, everything was good, so I loaded up 25mg on top of some vaped leaf. I decided to be alone, but my sitter was in the next room. My goal was to get it all in one hit, and I think I did. A long drag, I laid the pipe down and laid back while I felt the overwhelming onset. I closed my eyes and there were the fractals right away. They were sort of sideways figure 8 shaped “bubbles” flowing in from all sides, and each had vast patterns inside them that seemed to go infinitely deep. The patterns were deep blues, purples, and reds. This was really intense, and I started telling myself everything I said I would. “Keep calm, you knew this would be intense, it’s only for 15 minutes…”. My next thought was “ITS TOO MUCH! Fifteen minutes of this is ETERNITY!!!”. Ha ha, I admit I started fighting it. I got a taste of reality slipping away and I held on as tight as I could. I opened my eyes and saw my room, but it looked like it may start breaking apart so I closed them again. At that moment I was thinking “I’m never doing this again, just hold on!” Yeah, I panicked a little bit. I thought about yelling out to my sitter in the next room, just as an anchor to reality, but I decided to go it alone. I didn’t want her to get worried if I blasted off and became non-responsive, and I knew I could get through on my own, as uncomfortable as this was. My hands were interlocked over my stomach, and I just kept rubbing my fingers together as a way to keep me in touch with my body.
I saw no entities or anything like that, but as the fractals waved in from the sides I swear a saw the outline of a female head and arms, just for a second. She was either moving the fractals around in front of me, or she may have purposely tried to make me see her before it wore off. Maybe to let me know she’s there waiting for me. She was there for maybe one second and then the effects started to subside. No more fractals, things are calming down now, I made it. I was terrified for a minute (4 minutes to be more specific), but there was never a time I thought I wasn’t going to be ok. The first experience of possibly having my reality ripped away was quite shocking. I don’t think you can be ready for that. Funny thing is, I was REALLY nervous about taking that first huge hit, and now I feel much less nervous. I’ve been there, it’s scary, I came back, I’m fine.
My plan now is to do a couple more low doses in an attempt to “make friends” with that scary place I was in. Maybe start at a not so intense level. I think if I had just laid down and went with it I may have broken through last time because this was CRAZY STRONG, but I fought it. I want to try a few more until I can get there and not fight it. I think back to other psychedelics where I could “let” things get really weird, but could shake it off and pull reality back. I learned that this is NOT THE CASE with DMT. You’re going where it wants to take you, and even though I knew that, the first time was pretty scary. It's very interesting that somehow I'm now less nervous to do it again although the experience was more intimidating than I expected.
I’m sure opinions will vary, but I wonder what other people’s thoughts are on this approach of trying to get “comfortable” in the lower place before just blasting off. I’m confident that all I have to do is stuff a higher dose in the pipe when I’m ready and it will be T-minus 3, 2, 1…