Aesop_Dottz
Aesop
Hello everyone,
I just recently came full-circle in life, in the form of a serotonin-induced ibogaine trip. I've had some hard knocks in life, like pretty much everyone, so I began looking for ways to escape early on. During my high school years, I had acquired injuries, and I discovered I had a weakness for opiates. So at the tender age of 18 I became a heroin addict. This lasted for 5 years. I eventually kicked the habit, but went back on pain management. And so for 11 years I took methadone and neurontin every day. Before going to the ibogaine treatment, I tried everything to switch to a short acting opiate, but I don't need to tell you all how bad it looks for a chronic pain patient to request you switch their methadone to morphine.
They told me where I could stick it. Who'd have thought I'd listen. I went cold turkey for 28 days before going to the ibogaine center. To this day I don't know what possessed me, nor enabled me, to stop methadone knowing I had people willing to provide it. What I do know...I feel like having a bumper sticker made "I Quit Methadone Cold Turkey", if that doesn't belong next to "My Kid's an Honor Roll Student" then there's something wrong in the world.
I say I came full circle, because I had previously experienced a serotonin related hallucinatory experience when I was 14. I'll spare the details, but suffice to say I overdosed on welbutrin, and went into full-blown auditory, tactile, and visual hallucinations for a few hours. On my most recent trip, for a few hours I was able to relive what I can only describe as terror without origin, and I was supremely overjoyed at my ability to successfully traverse a difficult but overall immensely positive experience. The majority of the ibogaine experience was very pleasante, euphoric even, but there was ~2 hours (who am I to pretend I can keep track of time on ibogaine) where I experienced a relentless onslaught of pure hell. I am currently 13 days post flood-dose. I was initially scheduled to take 1.65 grams of Ibogaine HCl, but ended up taking an extra pill just to be safe, for a total of 2.15 grams. I am a large man 6'4" & 350lbs, and feel the last pill was critical to the overall experience.
As for my previous experiences with hallucinogens; I have enjoyed psilocybin or MDMA a good deal, and have dabbled in some of the early research chemicals, and on occasion; LSD, Ketamine, and salvia. Right now I have plans to explore Ayahuasca or other forms of DMT, as well as Kambo & Ketamine for depression. The Kambo and Ketamine are for the depression, the DMT would be for shooting into outer space. But if it helps with the depression, that would be an added bonus.
I am very much so looking forward to learning more about DMT in particular, and meeting interesting and unique people at the DMT-Nexus.
Sensimilla, Aesop_Dottz
I just recently came full-circle in life, in the form of a serotonin-induced ibogaine trip. I've had some hard knocks in life, like pretty much everyone, so I began looking for ways to escape early on. During my high school years, I had acquired injuries, and I discovered I had a weakness for opiates. So at the tender age of 18 I became a heroin addict. This lasted for 5 years. I eventually kicked the habit, but went back on pain management. And so for 11 years I took methadone and neurontin every day. Before going to the ibogaine treatment, I tried everything to switch to a short acting opiate, but I don't need to tell you all how bad it looks for a chronic pain patient to request you switch their methadone to morphine.
They told me where I could stick it. Who'd have thought I'd listen. I went cold turkey for 28 days before going to the ibogaine center. To this day I don't know what possessed me, nor enabled me, to stop methadone knowing I had people willing to provide it. What I do know...I feel like having a bumper sticker made "I Quit Methadone Cold Turkey", if that doesn't belong next to "My Kid's an Honor Roll Student" then there's something wrong in the world.
I say I came full circle, because I had previously experienced a serotonin related hallucinatory experience when I was 14. I'll spare the details, but suffice to say I overdosed on welbutrin, and went into full-blown auditory, tactile, and visual hallucinations for a few hours. On my most recent trip, for a few hours I was able to relive what I can only describe as terror without origin, and I was supremely overjoyed at my ability to successfully traverse a difficult but overall immensely positive experience. The majority of the ibogaine experience was very pleasante, euphoric even, but there was ~2 hours (who am I to pretend I can keep track of time on ibogaine) where I experienced a relentless onslaught of pure hell. I am currently 13 days post flood-dose. I was initially scheduled to take 1.65 grams of Ibogaine HCl, but ended up taking an extra pill just to be safe, for a total of 2.15 grams. I am a large man 6'4" & 350lbs, and feel the last pill was critical to the overall experience.
As for my previous experiences with hallucinogens; I have enjoyed psilocybin or MDMA a good deal, and have dabbled in some of the early research chemicals, and on occasion; LSD, Ketamine, and salvia. Right now I have plans to explore Ayahuasca or other forms of DMT, as well as Kambo & Ketamine for depression. The Kambo and Ketamine are for the depression, the DMT would be for shooting into outer space. But if it helps with the depression, that would be an added bonus.
I am very much so looking forward to learning more about DMT in particular, and meeting interesting and unique people at the DMT-Nexus.
Sensimilla, Aesop_Dottz