I initially pursued DMT because for as long as I can remember, even long before I started smoking weed at 13 (perhaps too young), I had wanted to experience strong hallucinogens. A hallucinogen that gave the type of experience that public perception believes LSD gives.... seeing "monsters", reality melting away into another reality etc. I tried many different drugs between the ages of 13 and 23 trying to find this experience. Notably mushrooms, acid, salvia, amanitas, high doses of ecstasy (amongst other recreational non hallucinatory drugs) and never got what I was looking for. They were almost all a disappointment. Salvia and amanitas were getting close to it, but with salvia it was closer to a crazy dream since I would completely forget I had taken a substance. With amanita muscaria I didn't like the delerium, the void, the infinite loop and the very odd form of blindness which it caused for me. Not full blindness, but a kind of blindness where I could see as long as I didn't move but as soon as I moved I would lose my sight and all control of my body and just fall over (unnerving experience). My next attempt was going to be with datura, which I procured, but after reading experience reports and doing a bit of research on tropane alkaloids I decided it was not only very unlikely to be enjoyable but also was very dangerous... so I ditched the seeds.
I first heard of DMT years and years ago through erowid (god bless erowid) and from reading reports there I knew that this was what I was chasing but I dismissed it as unattainable since it is (or was) impossible to get a hold of without doing an extraction and at that time the extraction procedures looked beyond my capabilities... also I lived with my grandfather and, although he is naive about drugs, he would have certainly been suspicious of seperatory funnels, beakers, base solutions and solvents lying around. About 9 months ago I moved out and quite quickly started reading up about DMT again and got round to extracting it. It was what I had been chasing, and much more.
So to sum up... I initially wanted to just get "trippin' out my tree", now I am far more cautious and curious about the state entered when DMT is ingested. I don't know if "tripping" is really the right word for it. It seems like more than that. It does feel more like a gateway to either another dimension or another way of seeing reality that is no less real than our everyday view. Who knows though. It could all be the conjurings of a drug addled mind but it seems far to dynamic and complex for it all to be contained within my brain.
