luvinlivinmylife
Rising Star
But that one essentially important item keeps slipping through my memory.
I have been experimenting for well over a year w dmt. Tried ayahuasca 1st... Tried nn dmt and 5meodmt, extracted it, read, learned, asked Google a shit ton of questions. I'd never done psychedelics before, but I had seen the spirit molecule, and of course, I was thoroughly interested. I've smoked pot for many years. Done a lil of this, a lil of that, but never anything extreme... Lol, of course I say this and laugh. Of course I would go straight the main tool to help me unlock my brain.
So, the last time I did it, about 6 months ago, I was basically given a warning to slow the F down. I wasn't being disrespectful or abusing it. But I was doing it every few days. I was making it and sharing it with everyone. I wanted to spread the word, the joy... The answers!
Anyways, since last year I haven't done it, actually maybe 8 or 9 months ago. So, I've always had some, I mean, I was making a lot to share. But I stopped it all. I just got this funny feeling. Like I needed to chill out. So, a friend of mine, who helped me find a shaman and ayahuasca also helped me with my 1st smoking experience, happened to find a lot... I mean, a lot of nn dmt in his fridge. He was purging his home. He called me asked me if I wanted it. I'm thinking a few doses... Sure, of course I want it! How much? Stupid question. It's always been a gift in my world. He said he's learned what he thinks he can from it... Now he wants to go through via meditation. Ok... I'm good with that!
Needless to say, when I got it, I was pretty much floored by the amount. So, now 3 weeks later, I'm still debating and of course still scared. I started reading again, this time more about the experiences of others than the "science" of it. I wanted to know why I was scared. Cautious, always... Anxious, a little, but never scared really. So, I am constantly finding myself back on the nexus. Except today, I wanted to chat.... I wanted fellow explorers to help me regain my sense of exploration.
Unfortunately I find myself writing an introduction so that I can explore the different chat rooms. This is ok, I get it, I have patience. I've waited this long.... I will wait for the right time, place and space to enjoy my journey again...
Hope to chat and share soon!
I have been experimenting for well over a year w dmt. Tried ayahuasca 1st... Tried nn dmt and 5meodmt, extracted it, read, learned, asked Google a shit ton of questions. I'd never done psychedelics before, but I had seen the spirit molecule, and of course, I was thoroughly interested. I've smoked pot for many years. Done a lil of this, a lil of that, but never anything extreme... Lol, of course I say this and laugh. Of course I would go straight the main tool to help me unlock my brain.
So, the last time I did it, about 6 months ago, I was basically given a warning to slow the F down. I wasn't being disrespectful or abusing it. But I was doing it every few days. I was making it and sharing it with everyone. I wanted to spread the word, the joy... The answers!
Anyways, since last year I haven't done it, actually maybe 8 or 9 months ago. So, I've always had some, I mean, I was making a lot to share. But I stopped it all. I just got this funny feeling. Like I needed to chill out. So, a friend of mine, who helped me find a shaman and ayahuasca also helped me with my 1st smoking experience, happened to find a lot... I mean, a lot of nn dmt in his fridge. He was purging his home. He called me asked me if I wanted it. I'm thinking a few doses... Sure, of course I want it! How much? Stupid question. It's always been a gift in my world. He said he's learned what he thinks he can from it... Now he wants to go through via meditation. Ok... I'm good with that!
Needless to say, when I got it, I was pretty much floored by the amount. So, now 3 weeks later, I'm still debating and of course still scared. I started reading again, this time more about the experiences of others than the "science" of it. I wanted to know why I was scared. Cautious, always... Anxious, a little, but never scared really. So, I am constantly finding myself back on the nexus. Except today, I wanted to chat.... I wanted fellow explorers to help me regain my sense of exploration.
Unfortunately I find myself writing an introduction so that I can explore the different chat rooms. This is ok, I get it, I have patience. I've waited this long.... I will wait for the right time, place and space to enjoy my journey again...
Hope to chat and share soon!
