PRE-CONDITIONS
(mind)Set: A bit tired. I made an intentional effort to clear my mind and wash away negative emotions beforehand.
(physical condition) Set:
Setting (location):
time of day: 6 pm after work
recent drug use: several months away from DMT
last meal: breakfast
PARTICIPANT
Gender: m
body weight: (in kg pls)
known sensitivities:
history of use: plenty of prior use, several month gap
BIOASSAY
Substance(s): vaped DMT
Dose(s): 27 mg
Method of administration: vaped
Intensity (overall): Moderate
Evaluation / notes:
OPTIONAL
Pleasantness: 2
Unplesantness: 3
Visual Intensity: 3
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AFTER-EFFECTS
Hangover: 4, unnerved but not traumatized
Afterglow: 0
REPORT
Accept
As the trip began, a word came to mind, drawn out, that seems to represent the trip best, this time, the word Accept.
The visuals built up, and the words “You always forget” came to mind. A common theme in many trips, reminding me how familiar the initial visuals and experience is, and how the details always fade from memory afterwards.
I wondered just what accept was referring to, running through potential future events and courses of my life that I would have to just accept.
“We control everything” a voice began to speak. Not the usual telepathic message but fully audible, with a sci-fi synth effect that was common in the late 90’s early 00’s videogames (think protoss from Broodwar). I could get a sense of a much larger entity above me, but with only a partly visible due to the hyperspace structures. The meaning was clear, these entities had complete control over what happens in my life. It didn’t feel like a threat or gloating, it didn’t feel like reassurance that everything would work out (got plenty of that on my last trip). Just impersonal, ambivalent about how I felt about it, merely wanting to drive the point home.
Afterwards, I was just left feeling unnerved. The easiest way to deal with it is to just assume its all in my head, or some random spirit messing with me, but the feeling just wouldn’t shake.
Funnily enough, sometimes this is exactly the kind of message that we want. When things are rough, we want some reassurance that there is some plan. When we’re unsure what to do, knowing its already planned out takes the burden off. People get drawn to astrology and divination hoping to find out what that plan is. When things are good, we may even feel special that this was our fate. And that's exactly what this kind of message represents, fate. Adding the word accept to it makes it very much like old stoic philosophy, consulting the oracle to know our fate, so that we can accept it, and recognize that we have no hope of changing it.
But in this case, it had more gnostic prison under the demiurge vibes, then a reassuring grand plan. The entities tone also reminded me of some peoples experiences with the entities of Enochian magic. Supposedly the good guys, but impersonal, less empathetic, and sometimes quite rough.
And before you wonder, the trip didn’t actually tell me what to accept.
(mind)Set: A bit tired. I made an intentional effort to clear my mind and wash away negative emotions beforehand.
(physical condition) Set:
Setting (location):
time of day: 6 pm after work
recent drug use: several months away from DMT
last meal: breakfast
PARTICIPANT
Gender: m
body weight: (in kg pls)
known sensitivities:
history of use: plenty of prior use, several month gap
BIOASSAY
Substance(s): vaped DMT
Dose(s): 27 mg
Method of administration: vaped
Intensity (overall): Moderate
Evaluation / notes:
OPTIONAL
Pleasantness: 2
Unplesantness: 3
Visual Intensity: 3
.
.
.
AFTER-EFFECTS
Hangover: 4, unnerved but not traumatized
Afterglow: 0
REPORT
Accept
As the trip began, a word came to mind, drawn out, that seems to represent the trip best, this time, the word Accept.
The visuals built up, and the words “You always forget” came to mind. A common theme in many trips, reminding me how familiar the initial visuals and experience is, and how the details always fade from memory afterwards.
I wondered just what accept was referring to, running through potential future events and courses of my life that I would have to just accept.
“We control everything” a voice began to speak. Not the usual telepathic message but fully audible, with a sci-fi synth effect that was common in the late 90’s early 00’s videogames (think protoss from Broodwar). I could get a sense of a much larger entity above me, but with only a partly visible due to the hyperspace structures. The meaning was clear, these entities had complete control over what happens in my life. It didn’t feel like a threat or gloating, it didn’t feel like reassurance that everything would work out (got plenty of that on my last trip). Just impersonal, ambivalent about how I felt about it, merely wanting to drive the point home.
Afterwards, I was just left feeling unnerved. The easiest way to deal with it is to just assume its all in my head, or some random spirit messing with me, but the feeling just wouldn’t shake.
Funnily enough, sometimes this is exactly the kind of message that we want. When things are rough, we want some reassurance that there is some plan. When we’re unsure what to do, knowing its already planned out takes the burden off. People get drawn to astrology and divination hoping to find out what that plan is. When things are good, we may even feel special that this was our fate. And that's exactly what this kind of message represents, fate. Adding the word accept to it makes it very much like old stoic philosophy, consulting the oracle to know our fate, so that we can accept it, and recognize that we have no hope of changing it.
But in this case, it had more gnostic prison under the demiurge vibes, then a reassuring grand plan. The entities tone also reminded me of some peoples experiences with the entities of Enochian magic. Supposedly the good guys, but impersonal, less empathetic, and sometimes quite rough.
And before you wonder, the trip didn’t actually tell me what to accept.
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