Am I sensitive transcendence ?

[Trancend]

Well Ive been a lurker for years, and its been very difficult for me to come up with a intro essay. YOu see, Im a bit OCD and I strive for perfection, as you will probably see when you get to know me through my future posts. I feel the strong need to express myself perfectly and not vaguely so I am clearly understood. I have probably attempted to write an intro essay a half dozen times only to delete it and not post.

Well I have finally decided to do it. Regardless of its imperfections. Without further ado:

My psychedelic experiences include LSD more times than I can count (over 100), psilocybin also probably 50+ times, mescaline via san pedro a dozen or so times, and a few various RCs. I have been using psychedelics for about as long as I have been using any recreational substances (about 17 years) so Im no stranger to what these compounds have to offer. Ive had horrific experiences, one of which led to years of psychological distress which I now have sorted out, and I have had experiences which have opened me up to other realms and had therapeutic effects beyond the scope of what I ever imagined possible.

About 15 years ago I took what was roughly between 500-700 ug of LSD, foolishly and even worse, it was at school. Needless to say it was a horrific experience and I believed that I was dying and/or losing my mind. This resulted in PTSD like symptoms for 4 years. These symptoms wained over the years but I didn't find that I was completely "better" until I discovered the sacred mushroom. This mushroom seemed to have a "hair of the dog" effect on me. I dosed low and I did have some fearful moments, even believing that the mushrooms where laced with LSD due to some similarities in effects. But when the higher state of consciousness began to wane four hours later, I began to feel a spiritual healing or cleansing. Oddly my first experience with the mushroom wasn't particulary profound, but it was definatly healing to my soul. I believe without this experience I would still be suffering from the negative effects of that LSD trip many years ago.

Since a young child I have always been "different". I had a strong intuitive belief in the supernatural, i.e. ghosts and the occult. From as far back as I can recall I have experienced natural altered states and have seen things with my own eyes that I can never explain.

Anyway, in my teen years I began having sleep paralysis, lucid dreams and OBEs. Some of these experiences resulted in some very unexplainable phenomena, and if I tried to go in to detail of these experiences it would make my essay far too lengthy. I believe however, I will touch on these experiences in my future posts.

In my experiences, especially with psilocybin, I have found that having transcendent experiences are extremely common and the more I expand my mind with the mushroom the more questions I have about the universe around me. With my essay, I have one question for all you nexians ? Am I sensitive to mystical experiences or do many of you relate to me with you use of the sacred tryptamines?

 

[Infectedstyle]

700ug? Oh man, that sounds like more than sufficient. I've read there are people though who get nothing from 500ug. So yes, I think you are naturally psychedelic/ open to mystery! I concur ime that the first hours and the comeup of mushrooms are slightly paranoia inducing. Those moments afterwards are specifically empowering and never fail to lift my consciousness for several days after. But when you really give in to them the come up is also awesome! there's a lot of spirit in psilocybin and i believe there is some similarity in the types of spirits they carry. I hope you get promoted as I would love to hear about your experiences in altered states of mind besides psychedelics!

 

[Adjhart]

Welcome ;P

To answer your question: if you had multiple profound altered state experiences as a kid, I know many who have, it could mean that you are more sensitive to your extra-sensory perception, which is what I believe you're calling 'transcendence'.

However, I've known people who've had intense experiences like that as a kid, but are now completely superficial and secular. So, not in their case.

You have an insight to something from memories of your childhood, though. That's an advantage I don't have.

To answer your second question: yes, I can relate through my psychedelic experiences. That's the only way!

It was awesome for me also, when stumbling across meditation, to learn that psychedelic experiences and altered states hold profound knowledge of the universe around us.

Some people may even disagree with that statement and say that it's all a product of a chemical reaction in my brain...but I think you're with me ;P

 

[Trancend]

Thank you fellow humans , Im working on a part 2 (I probably won't call it "Part 2" ) which I will soon post in another forum here on the nexus. It will also be in the "new members area". I have some personal hypotheses on tryptamines , life after death and other related phenomena. Its going to be a collection of personal experiences and also new scientific evidence that I have discovered from personal research. Im excited to post but as I said in my initial post here , Im pretty OCD and try and make my posts count! Thank you for your interest !

 

[Trancend]

By the way, I have been very interested in Remote Viewing for a very long time. Ive had many results that I impressed myself with. I possessed a NEED to share these experiences with people. A need that was tearing me apart. I shared with a few people that I felt where mentally stable and skeptic as I felt that they would be the perfect for my desperate need to confirm that I wasn't nuts. Ive done some simple remote viewing in which random images or objescts where picked by another person, sealed in envelope or box in another location and I would "pick up" on what was in these envelopes. Sure I don't get a HIT every time but the hits that I did get and the frequency at which these "hits" happened where enough to peak interest, to say the least.

Lets just say I have an unwavering belief in the extraordinary. To a degree that may not be be considered healthy. In fact, it does at times get in the way of my normal social interactions. I have become quite introverted over the years and have difficulty with "small talk" as the profoundness of the universe is always on my mind. My only escape is my art. So the issue IMO is quite "black and white", Im either completely off my rocker or theres absolutely something to altered states, ESP and also the possibility that psychedelics are a catalyst to these things. Im also open to the idea that psychedelics aren't "perfect" and while they have the ability open these abilities up in people they also have the ability to cause pain and suffering to a severe enough degree to cause one to take their own life. I had a close friend unexpectedly take his life during a period which he was heavily using psychedelics. (RIP J.G.H, you are in my thoughts, friend)

One of the most profound things I have noticed about psilocybin is its ability to induce the feeling of "profound familiarity". Its almost a deja vu x 100 type of feeling. Even if its ones first time experiencing the psychedelic state, they often report. "IVE BEEN HERE BEFORE!!!" I also seem to have the "delusion" that Im literally watching time and space "warp". Its the only way I can describe it. Its extraordinarily meaningful and its paradoxically absurd at the same time. It is incredibly unnerving and anxiety inducing. In many ways I feel that this experience is not quite meant for mortals. I intuitively feel that its beginning of the transition of the consciousness into the "next realm". Perhaps the realm of disembodied spirits. Bio-energy consciousness. Where all living matter's bio-energy is available to ones perception. Not merely the chemical intoxication science seems to say it is.

I don't know if psychedelics caused me to become more "psychic". I don't like the term psychic as it seems to conjure images of phony charlatans and wack jobs. But I will use it for the sake of simplicity. Id like to believe Im NOT a wack job but Im open to this idea as well because Ill be the first to admit that I don't have the slightest as to whats going on.

My "paranormal" experiences began happening more frequently probably about a year or so after my bad LSD trip. To this day I cannot sleep on my back without "leaving my body" or experiencing some degree of frightening sleep paralysis. I know I need to embrace these episodes and work with them and learn to utilize them but they are extremely unnerving and Im quite alone with my experiences and rarely share them with anyone. Maybe I should join a forum in which people discuss their experiences with sleep paralysis for some help. or maybe I just need to be put on medication and be done with it .

If anyone out there is reading this and thinking "wow, this guy has really lost it", let my experiences be a heed of warning as to what psychedelics are capable of.

 

[Adjhart]

Nah, you haven't lost it. You may be surprised by this but there are actually many others who feel the same way. I agree with you on mostly all of that, save the part where it's too much for 'mortals'. In my opinion everyone deserves this knowledge and my research has led me to the belief that in ancient times, everyone did have it.

All categories of mysticism, occult, and religion are simply languages with which to understand this connection.

The most interesting thing for me is that within my lifetime, there have been enough scientific discoveries, namely in the field of quantum mechanics, that in fact serves as another language with which to interpret psychedelia/profound knowledge/universal truth, etc.

There's more to this existence than humanity. And that's coming from someone who has spent 90% of my life believing the opposite.

I guess I had an epiphany. But it wasn't with psychedelics...it was through meditation. But it sure made perfect sense of all my psychedelic journeys.

Let the OCD go. I know what you long for. You wish you could put all of what you want to say on a Zip drive and just download it to other people so that they understand it all instantly without any words even being exchanged.

But we can't do that in this realm You just have to take comfort that others of us know what you mean.