In this thread Id like to discuss a subject that a recent session and my own personal experiences and conversation's working with the Shipibo-Konibo and ayahuasca here in Peru has shown me.
I feel this topic is not stressed enough and i found myself completely ignorant of the healing properties of ayahausca in my previous experiences until i came to the Amazon to learn more.
What it comes down to is this, coming to ayahausca are you looking for healing or simply to make dmt oraly active? I'm passing no judgement or criticism's, I love tripping on various substance's but have been recently humbled at the healing power of ayahausca. Ayahuasca is most certainly medicina FIRST, visionary second. The reason I am bringing this up is to help other's understand their intention's as well as the unlimited potential of this sacred plant teacher.
In advisement if your more looking to trip, or have an oral dmt experience I would highly recommend pharmahuasca. It's less tricky, more sure fire and little to no physical sickness or purge. Pharma can teach and show you great things, its most certainly a valued and important method of learning.
However... if I could shed some light or perhapss you feel you already understand the medicinal properties and effects of traditional ayahuasca. For those who don't keep reading.
I came to the Shipibo with what I thought was noble intention's. I came to learn and experience traditional ceremony's. What I didnt expect was just how loving and patient this beautiful plant teacher is and how in depth and caring she can be.
My first couple of ceremony's here were what I was use to back home and wanting, mind blowing information and a visual spectacle that cant be described. Something changed after my 3rd and 4th ceremony. The visions stopped or turned dark and scary and the message was very clearly shown to me. ayahuasca doesn't tell you as much as she either shows you or lets you figure out for yourself.
The truth of the mater is I am a sick person. In the 18 months preceding this now 7 month journey I lost 3 close friends, one died right in front of me as we tried desperately to bring him back with cpr and first aid, another took his own life. In the wake of these events I turned to alcohol and other drug's to escape from the pain and grotesque memories and visions. Although I thought I dealt with this pain I've been shown i haven't and its turned toxic along with other struggles from my past as a child.
So in my pursuit of "doing aya" she delivered what I expected in the beginning ceremony's almost to keep me in the game and interested but then went to work scanning my body and spirit for sickness which plenty was found. The vision's stopped and the journey's became uncomfortable and at times terrifying. Frustrated but with the help of the Shaman's here I accepted and now saw that this work is a process and to be patient and open to it.
Ayahuasca clearly showed me this, in the sacrament's words;
"You came her in search for answer's and knowledge, however your very sick and burdened. Before we can show you these things you must be healed and free'd from the pain and torment you don't even know you carry each day upon you like a ball and chain. I will do my part but you must do your's and face what must be shown to you. It will be hard and painful and you must be brave but the person that will leave here will be healed and free and this is our wish for you!"
Ayahuasca has brought to the surface all my pain, all my anger, all my confusion in her loving non judgemental way. The past 4 ceremony's have been the hardest of my life but also the most rewarding. Im letting go of the past, healing parts of myself i didn't see there and understanding ME at a level I never dreamed existed. I stand in awe of the absolute perfection of her method's and love and trust this process fully. Each ceremony I go to bed exhausted yet liberated and need a couple days to journal and absorb these lessons and parts of my consciousness that have been neglected for far too long. In short I really had no idea why I came to ayahausca until now. I thought I did but my intent was grossly short sighted and I cant believe I almost missed out at the miraculous transformation that is happening now.
So please, I urge you to take a min like I should have and give some thought to opening yourself up to the healing nature of aya, not just the dmt trip. Its medicine folks, it has the power to transforming your life and bring you to the highest level of awareness, love and forgiveness.
Often times we read of first timers having dud's. Many have multiple dud's. to those brave explorers I say be patient and persevere. A relationship must be developed with Ayahusca and often even though you feel you got nothing out of the experience consider the fact that aya is scanning you to see what she has to work with, where you need help, and where she can help. It's not always that you screwed up your brew. A brew that is actually hard to screw up with some simple instructions. I now feel its more that not everyone is ready for the full montey but if you trust and see ayahuasca as a process I promise she will deliver. More than you can suppose.
Remember medicine first, visionary second. Dont forget about the healing. Dont rob yourself of the miracle just before it happens. stay true and open. Godspeed.
I feel this topic is not stressed enough and i found myself completely ignorant of the healing properties of ayahausca in my previous experiences until i came to the Amazon to learn more.
What it comes down to is this, coming to ayahausca are you looking for healing or simply to make dmt oraly active? I'm passing no judgement or criticism's, I love tripping on various substance's but have been recently humbled at the healing power of ayahausca. Ayahuasca is most certainly medicina FIRST, visionary second. The reason I am bringing this up is to help other's understand their intention's as well as the unlimited potential of this sacred plant teacher.
In advisement if your more looking to trip, or have an oral dmt experience I would highly recommend pharmahuasca. It's less tricky, more sure fire and little to no physical sickness or purge. Pharma can teach and show you great things, its most certainly a valued and important method of learning.
However... if I could shed some light or perhapss you feel you already understand the medicinal properties and effects of traditional ayahuasca. For those who don't keep reading.
I came to the Shipibo with what I thought was noble intention's. I came to learn and experience traditional ceremony's. What I didnt expect was just how loving and patient this beautiful plant teacher is and how in depth and caring she can be.
My first couple of ceremony's here were what I was use to back home and wanting, mind blowing information and a visual spectacle that cant be described. Something changed after my 3rd and 4th ceremony. The visions stopped or turned dark and scary and the message was very clearly shown to me. ayahuasca doesn't tell you as much as she either shows you or lets you figure out for yourself.
The truth of the mater is I am a sick person. In the 18 months preceding this now 7 month journey I lost 3 close friends, one died right in front of me as we tried desperately to bring him back with cpr and first aid, another took his own life. In the wake of these events I turned to alcohol and other drug's to escape from the pain and grotesque memories and visions. Although I thought I dealt with this pain I've been shown i haven't and its turned toxic along with other struggles from my past as a child.
So in my pursuit of "doing aya" she delivered what I expected in the beginning ceremony's almost to keep me in the game and interested but then went to work scanning my body and spirit for sickness which plenty was found. The vision's stopped and the journey's became uncomfortable and at times terrifying. Frustrated but with the help of the Shaman's here I accepted and now saw that this work is a process and to be patient and open to it.
Ayahuasca clearly showed me this, in the sacrament's words;
"You came her in search for answer's and knowledge, however your very sick and burdened. Before we can show you these things you must be healed and free'd from the pain and torment you don't even know you carry each day upon you like a ball and chain. I will do my part but you must do your's and face what must be shown to you. It will be hard and painful and you must be brave but the person that will leave here will be healed and free and this is our wish for you!"
Ayahuasca has brought to the surface all my pain, all my anger, all my confusion in her loving non judgemental way. The past 4 ceremony's have been the hardest of my life but also the most rewarding. Im letting go of the past, healing parts of myself i didn't see there and understanding ME at a level I never dreamed existed. I stand in awe of the absolute perfection of her method's and love and trust this process fully. Each ceremony I go to bed exhausted yet liberated and need a couple days to journal and absorb these lessons and parts of my consciousness that have been neglected for far too long. In short I really had no idea why I came to ayahausca until now. I thought I did but my intent was grossly short sighted and I cant believe I almost missed out at the miraculous transformation that is happening now.
So please, I urge you to take a min like I should have and give some thought to opening yourself up to the healing nature of aya, not just the dmt trip. Its medicine folks, it has the power to transforming your life and bring you to the highest level of awareness, love and forgiveness.
Often times we read of first timers having dud's. Many have multiple dud's. to those brave explorers I say be patient and persevere. A relationship must be developed with Ayahusca and often even though you feel you got nothing out of the experience consider the fact that aya is scanning you to see what she has to work with, where you need help, and where she can help. It's not always that you screwed up your brew. A brew that is actually hard to screw up with some simple instructions. I now feel its more that not everyone is ready for the full montey but if you trust and see ayahuasca as a process I promise she will deliver. More than you can suppose.
Remember medicine first, visionary second. Dont forget about the healing. Dont rob yourself of the miracle just before it happens. stay true and open. Godspeed.
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