dmtsurfer
This Journey
I am new to this forum so please excuse me if Im not posting this in the right area.
My first try and breakthrough was nothing like I had read or researched anywhere. I had listened to endless Terrence Mckenna and psyhcedsubstance videos on youtube . The method I used was a dr. dabber aroua with the ceramic heating element and I filled it up with as much as possible. I filled it and melted and filled again, well over 60mg.
My wife and kids were sleeping and I was in the living room. I positioned myself on my couch wedged in between my pillows with a cozy blanket over me. Initially I had a picture of mountains against a starry night from an Odesza video playing lightly on my tv. I decided to mute it and turn all the lights off leaving the picture up on the tv.
I took one small toke to see what it was going to feel like. I felt my shoulders drop and relax and all the stresses I had been under disappeared like I was a kid again with no worries. I felt confident I was ready for the experience and decided to proceed. I began the timer on my phone so I would know how much time would have passed.
I took four big vapes on the low setting of green on the dr. dabber and set it down. And then closed my eyes.......
Right away I felt terrified and felt as though I was leaving my body. My voice in my head said panicky "Oh no you did too much, you killed yourself", I was so scared, and then suddenly it changed to a realization and said "dont worry you will have an experience and be back". With this realization I also realized that I didnt matter one bit as a individual as I knew myself. I was part of everything. I was completely out of this reality and I was thrust into another reality with bright yellow everywhere and this crazy dimensional being came forward and encompassed me. It was so intense it scared me more than the first part of dying and he said "your mine now". Everything was so intense I instinctually said but not with my voice, more like vibrated ((((((((GOD))))))))). I was instantly pushed through the scary intense dimensional being and found myself in a foggy bright light feeling as though I was cradled and loved like never before. I vaguely remember a sexual encounter with another woman being, and also feeling as though I had visited many people I had know before. I also was ashamed about things I had done on a regular basis such as masterbation, but not sex with others.
I suddenly opened my eyes and was looking at a timer that read 22 minutes. I felt as though I had been gone for thousands of years. I looked in the vape and it only had some residue left in it.
My wife asked me how it was the next morning and I told her nothing really happened. I was kinda freaked out to tell her what had happened. Weeks went by and one day my cousin called me and asked if I had done it yet, and all of a sudden it all just spilled out with her on the phone and my wife right there. My wife was like... I thought nothing really happened...?
I know this is way to long already, but I have tried it several times the same way since and cant even get a break through. I have gone through 2 whole grams trying. Tried with a volcano and just saw a bunch of shapes and colors but was still here. Just got a vapor genie also.
Has anyone had an experience like this? I have experience in the past with other psychedelics like over a quarter of mushies and 7 tabs of L at once. I was always searching for the other side but felt like I had one foot in and one foot out. Definitely found it all in with Demsters.
My first try and breakthrough was nothing like I had read or researched anywhere. I had listened to endless Terrence Mckenna and psyhcedsubstance videos on youtube . The method I used was a dr. dabber aroua with the ceramic heating element and I filled it up with as much as possible. I filled it and melted and filled again, well over 60mg.
My wife and kids were sleeping and I was in the living room. I positioned myself on my couch wedged in between my pillows with a cozy blanket over me. Initially I had a picture of mountains against a starry night from an Odesza video playing lightly on my tv. I decided to mute it and turn all the lights off leaving the picture up on the tv.
I took one small toke to see what it was going to feel like. I felt my shoulders drop and relax and all the stresses I had been under disappeared like I was a kid again with no worries. I felt confident I was ready for the experience and decided to proceed. I began the timer on my phone so I would know how much time would have passed.
I took four big vapes on the low setting of green on the dr. dabber and set it down. And then closed my eyes.......
Right away I felt terrified and felt as though I was leaving my body. My voice in my head said panicky "Oh no you did too much, you killed yourself", I was so scared, and then suddenly it changed to a realization and said "dont worry you will have an experience and be back". With this realization I also realized that I didnt matter one bit as a individual as I knew myself. I was part of everything. I was completely out of this reality and I was thrust into another reality with bright yellow everywhere and this crazy dimensional being came forward and encompassed me. It was so intense it scared me more than the first part of dying and he said "your mine now". Everything was so intense I instinctually said but not with my voice, more like vibrated ((((((((GOD))))))))). I was instantly pushed through the scary intense dimensional being and found myself in a foggy bright light feeling as though I was cradled and loved like never before. I vaguely remember a sexual encounter with another woman being, and also feeling as though I had visited many people I had know before. I also was ashamed about things I had done on a regular basis such as masterbation, but not sex with others.
I suddenly opened my eyes and was looking at a timer that read 22 minutes. I felt as though I had been gone for thousands of years. I looked in the vape and it only had some residue left in it.
My wife asked me how it was the next morning and I told her nothing really happened. I was kinda freaked out to tell her what had happened. Weeks went by and one day my cousin called me and asked if I had done it yet, and all of a sudden it all just spilled out with her on the phone and my wife right there. My wife was like... I thought nothing really happened...?
I know this is way to long already, but I have tried it several times the same way since and cant even get a break through. I have gone through 2 whole grams trying. Tried with a volcano and just saw a bunch of shapes and colors but was still here. Just got a vapor genie also.
Has anyone had an experience like this? I have experience in the past with other psychedelics like over a quarter of mushies and 7 tabs of L at once. I was always searching for the other side but felt like I had one foot in and one foot out. Definitely found it all in with Demsters.
