Before I'm ready for the final frontier.

[Daarnit]

Hello to you all.
I arrived here at full speed, seeking the ultimate enlightenment I'd heard so much about on YouTube, FaceBook and elsewhere . I watched the documentary DMT - The Spirit Molecule and that was that, it sounded like everything I'd been searching for my whole life, finally I'd found the door to the universe and everything was just a smoke away. I hadn't been so excited and relieved and nervous, for years. So, having taken LSD and different mushrooms, and a varied array of recreationals over the years, and thinking this 'experience' must be all I need for that final push to make all things in my life gel in a way that had so far eluded me. I truly believed that this would remove all my fear and doubt about myself and the world around me! I was ready, so ready! How to get my hands on this gift from beyond?

I have been reading my way through the FAQs, wiki and many of the amazing articles and posts, and though initially this was with the intent to learn either where I might find, or how I might make, my first 'spice' or 'brew', as I read on, my eyes began to open, too my utter lack of readiness to do this.

I'm so very glad I found you all, and so very glad you are such a loving and caring group. You saved me from a terrible mistake. Only a few hours ago I was offered some 'apparant' dmt, and from a source I trust for other things, but I am so not ready spiritualy, nor mentally, nor physically, I've become lazy and arrogant in many aspects of my life, including my presumption that I was begining to find my truth, just because I've read a rew books on shamanism and figured I got it. I hope perhaps I find a guide in this respect, and look forward to time when I truly can, take this wonderous journey.

I'm eternally greatful to you all for this beautiful place of truth, and hope you don't mind me hanging around here sometimes as I'm learning things I'd never have imagined a few days ago, and though I'm not able to contribute a great deal to your dialogues, perhaps I may contribute something sometime!

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[Hjortron]

Hello!

When it comes to DMT, there are bound to be many opinions. However, I don't think there's such a thing as "being ready" for it. At least it wasn't for me. As some others have said, it's so beyond everything that in a sense, you've always been ready.

I don't know how one would go about preparing for it, but I think you're doing the right thing by taking it slow. Whenever you decide to plunge into it, start low. Remember, a strong dosage can be roughly... 10^10000000 times crazier than a low dosage, so if you're in doubt, start really low and feel your way forward.

Welcome to the family

 

[Daarnit]

Thank you for the welcome friend.
I think as far as I feel about 'being ready', I have a few issues that are playing on my mind in my life. I'm not working much at the moment and feel I've become a little parasitic of the kindness of those around me, so I'm searching for a solution to this which will not only give me the beautiful self-sufficient money free life I crave, but allow me the opportunity to do something 'worthy', to give something back and to find my true path in the world of man. I've been considering too, that as an artist, I seem to find more reasons why I can't be inspired to create, than I do to sit on Youtube watching inspirational videos on permaculture, science, ecology, videos on spirituality like the Alan Watts lectures etc. Its frustrating watching others living, while I overthink everything to the point of inaction! Hence my initial feeling that the tremendous kick up the proverbial arse I saw in DMT, seemed to suggest an unavoidable truth for my evolution.
I have certainly experienced leaving the room, so to say, through an extensive use of Psilocybe semilanceata and occasional brews of Amanita muscaria in my 20s, I have many profound and happy memories of those teachers. However, life got in the way and as I approach 43 on Saturday :surprised , I suppose its been a good 14 years since I last partook of their wisdom. It is of course the beginning of Liberty Cap season here and I am very tempted to go say hi to my old friends. :d
As far as taking steps towards my first DMT experience are concerned, I can see that growing and refining my own would be the ultimate achievement, but having lived without a bank account for 10+ years procurement of the initial supplies is obviously going to be an issue all of its own, with no easy mail order options at present! lol Still, where there's a will! It may give me the time to fix the other issues first, and I suppose you could consider that if it thinks 'I ready', it may well find me. I get that its worth doing it,at least initially with someone experienced, so as dont know anyone in my personal life I guess it may be a bit of a long road before I even get the chance. I have certainly taken in the advice to not buy it on the street! Something I was already careful with, but in this aspect, my lack of knowledge or experience would be even greater a liability. Not to mention the spiritual ramifications!
OK, I think I've probably rambled on enough for a thank you!

Thanks again anyway Hjortron, and too you all. I look forward to my quest, I may well start by asking the Lady Liberty for a little help!

A pleasure to be here!

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