blig-blug's Ayahuasca experience log

[blig-blug]

XXIII log update:

Dose: 50g red caapi (B. muricata) + 5g chalipanga @ T+00:00. With 10 drops of lemon essential oil. Fasted for 24h. Started at 2 PM. Outdoors.

This experience was my first outdoors. I decided to take caapi and chalipanga at the same time for convenience, and not redose. I didn't want too intense of an effect in case something turned out to not be right about the setting. I had a pack of sodium alginate pills in my pocket for any possible heartburn, but didn't take them at the beginning to prevent them making absorption of actives worse. I added lemon essential oil to see if it would help, too.

I hiked up a beautiful place with my girlfriend. It's a secluded high spot between two mountains, you can see a whole valley and many surrounding mountains. There are no paths leading there. Going uphill it was kind of hot, but when reaching the top there was cold wind, some storms were forming in the distance.

I set up my hammock, drank the brew, and laid on it, listening to music and cocooned in a big coat. At first, I could only feel the effects of caapi. Trees started looking brighter, sharper, and more defined. At T+00:40 or so, I felt the electric feeling of DMT through my body.

At broad daylight, visuals were reduced, and opening my eyes was sometimes overwhelming. It felt like I couldn't process so much detail from my vision.

I started feeling extremely cold due to the wind, and shaking. So I got up from the hammock and went to lay on the grass, under the sun. Suddenly, I started feeling sick, and ready to purge. I went to some bushes and purged easily, without any burning in my throat or nose. The lemon essential oil came first and seemed to protect it. It felt cleansing and liberating.

I went back to lay under the sun (sometimes shade due to passing clouds), closing my eyes and feeling grateful. I felt waves of nausea but they weren't bad at all. I saw red and black geometric patterns, and thought about how I need a kinder approach to other people and myself. I saw how I have a lot of energy inside me but I'm scared of it and don't know how to handle. So it tends to be suppressed, it only bursts out in situations of anger or in sex (mostly). I need to learn to be okay with it and direct it. I think some times when I feel inexplicably tired is actually that I'm repressing energy.

After a while, the effects of chali started to come down fast, and I went walking to a nearby mound where my girlfriend was, to give her a hug. Walking was still difficult, everything looked very "tridimensional" and it felt like my vision lagged from reality. It was quite interesting.

We were there talking for a while, and at around 5:30PM decided to head back home. We chose to go back through a different, longer path because I was feeling fine, and that was a mistake.

Going back was quite difficult for the first half of it. In regular terrain or downhill I felt okay, but as soon as we went uphill, my heart rate accelerated disproportionately, my legs ached as when doing anaerobic exercise, and I got severe dizziness and nausea, needing to sit down for a while. So we had to go very slow and pause a lot. However seeing the landscape felt great.

After the most difficult half was over,it was mostly regular terrain or downhill, and I felt much better. We talked and joked and it was very enjoyable. At one point we heard a bear in the distance. We arrived home at night and I slept very well.

So, in summary, it was a relatively light but very positive experience. I didn't get heartburn and didn't need to use the sodium alginate. I think limonene (in the lemon essential oil) was key.

The first time I added limonene was the first time I tried pharmahuasca. So I attributed the lack of pain (not identified as heartburn yet) to pharma, but it was actually limonene. Then I stopped taking it as "I didn't mind puking" and got the pain back, but it has taken a while to see that obvious connection. From now on, I'll always use lemon essential oil.

I also learned that hiking while still on caapi is pleasant, but mustn't be uphill. So next time I do it outdoors, I'll plan accordingly. I'd like to do it outdoors at night, but at this time of the year it's too cold already, so that will have to wait for the summer.

 

[northape]

When I saw pictures in your post, I knew right away that all iz well.
Such beautiful vistas. Thank you for sharing your vibe. It seems like you are working in the right direction. Your previous journey was a preparation for this one, imo.
I worked with two vines this summer, and the first one was all about cleansing, but in retrospect it cleared the way for the second one to work on me.

Going back was quite difficult for the first half of it. In regular terrain or downhill I felt okay, but as soon as we went uphill, my heart rate accelerated disproportionately, my legs ached as when doing anaerobic exercise, and I got severe dizziness and nausea, needing to sit down for a while. So we had to go very slow and pause a lot. However seeing the landscape felt great.

Hehe, vasodilation is a real thing, and the human hydraulic system has trouble with producing enough pressure to go uphill. My advice is to have a nice Cuban cigar or a nicotine patch at hand. You do not need much, because you are a non-smoker. It will work wonders, but you may need to sit for 5-10 minutes in the beginning.

So, in summary, it was a relatively light but very positive experience. I didn't get heartburn and didn't need to use the sodium alginate. I think limonene (in the lemon essential oil) was key.

The first time I added limonene was the first time I tried pharmahuasca. So I attributed the lack of paint (not identified as heartburn yet) to pharma, but it was actually limonene. Then I stopped taking it as "I didn't mind puking" and got the pain back, but it has taken a while to see that obvious connection. From now on, I'll always use lemon essential oil.

Glad that you found a working solution for yourself.

 

[blig-blug]

Hehe, vasodilation is a real thing, and the human hydraulic system has trouble with producing enough pressure to go uphill

Yes, I also think that's it.

My advice is to have a nice Cuban cigar or a nicotine patch at hand. You do not need much, because you are a non-smoker. It will work wonders, but you may need to sit for 5-10 minutes in the beginning.

I had been considering adding some tobacco lately, so hearing that it may help in this type of setting makes me even more interested in trying it. I would try it first indoors to see how I respond to it.
I dislike smoking in general, so it would have to be a nicotine patch, gum, tobacco snuff, or brew. I'm inclined towards a brew; I'm aware tobacco brews can be very strong and even lethal, so I'd have to use very small doses and tread carefully.

Glad that you found a working solution for yourself.

Fingers crossed that it keeps working haha. I'm glad that it can be something light like lemon essential oil instead of some pharmaceutical drug. Feels more in line with the experience.

 

[northape]

I had been considering adding some tobacco lately, so hearing that it may help in this type of setting makes me even more interested in trying it. I would try it first indoors to see how I respond to it.
I dislike smoking in general, so it would have to be a nicotine patch, gum, tobacco snuff, or brew. I'm inclined towards a brew; I'm aware tobacco brews can be very strong and even lethal, so I'd have to use very small doses and tread carefully.

Just to be clear, you cheek-smoke cigars without inhaling. I have used a lot of tobacco in different forms, but I never inhale. Tobacco brews are strong and harsh; they could easily sway the whole session into a cleansing one. I have mixed tobacco with caapi before, and it is a much harder experience. The easiest solution to try would be gum, a patch, or these new white nicotine pouches you put under a lip.

Apart from the spiritual side, tobacco produces a clear physiological response and helps to normalize blood pressure. I would go for a nice cigar because I enjoy tobacco as a plant and like to watch the smoke under the medicine. Anyhow, use it only during the ceremony and you will be clear of any addiction.

 

[ommani]

Sounds like a good journey and those views look spectacular. I’m pretty sure that we live in completely different parts of the world, but maybe at a similar latitude. The mountain vistas in my area look very similar but different to the ones in your photos (no brown bears here, but plenty of black bears around).

 

[blig-blug]

Just to be clear, you cheek-smoke cigars without inhaling

Ah, I didn't know that. Then it could be a good option, what I don't like is smoke in my lungs.

Tobacco brews are strong and harsh; they could easily sway the whole session into a cleansing one

Then I'll rather wait to do that until I have more experience.

The easiest solution to try would be gum, a patch, or these new white nicotine pouches you put under a lip.

Yes, it sounds like a good beginner friendly approach. Kind of like pharmahuasca: taking the pure alkaloids first may be easier to handle. As tobacco is much more than nicotine. A gum or lozenge could be the best option. I also like the idea of those pouches, but from what I've seen they contain rather large doses for someone that doesn't smoke.

Anyhow, use it only during the ceremony and you will be clear of any addiction.

Yes, the ways nicotine can cause addiction are very different from other substances. Some time ago I read this comprehensive article about nicotine, it's very interesting: Nicotine

I’m pretty sure that we live in completely different parts of the world, but maybe at a similar latitude

Could be! This is the north of Spain. It's an interesting climate in this specific area because it's just at the midpoint between mediterranean and atlantic climates. So valleys facing south have more mediterranean plants and are more dry, and valleys facing north are atlantic and much more humid. This year is being exceptionally dry, it should be much greener by now and full of mushrooms, there are barely any. I had planned hunting for liberty caps, but it'll have to wait for a different occasion!

 

[Varallo]

Just wanted to let you know that I really appreciate reading about your experiences and the process you are going through, really impressive

Much love

 

[ommani]

Could be! This is the north of Spain. It's an interesting climate in this specific area because it's just at the midpoint between mediterranean and atlantic climates. So valleys facing south have more mediterranean plants and are more dry, and valleys facing north are atlantic and much more humid. This year is being exceptionally dry, it should be much greener by now and full of mushrooms, there are barely any. I had planned hunting for liberty caps, but it'll have to wait for a different occasion!

Indeed, the approximate latitude of the north of Spain is very close to that of the foothills area of the Rocky Mountains that I call home. It can get pretty dry in this part of the Rockies, which can look fairly similar to the relative dryness that comes through in your photos. Interestingly, if you follow this line eastward, you get to the Caucuses Mountains region, a stunning part of the world that I strongly resonated with from watching videos of people travelling in that area.

Btw many years ago, I experimented with "drinking" very small amounts of mapacho tea through the nose, which I learned about on the old ayahuasca forums. I think consuming mapacho in any form, especially for non-smokers, calls for an abundance of caution. However, the nasal ROA with a light tea seems relatively safe, as it would be hard to overdo it with this approach.

 

[blig-blug]

XXIV log update:

Dose: 50g red caapi (B. muricata) + 5g chalipanga + 0.5mg nicotine (sublingual) @ T+00:00, 3g chalipanga @ T+03:00 (or so, not really sure). With 10 drops of lemon essential oil. Fasted for 48h. Started at 6:30 PM. Indoors.

This time I had prepared myself by fasting for two days. The day before at night I had a tea made with 1g senna (Cassia angustifolia) to clean my intestines, with little apparent effect, so I drank two more cups the morning of the day of the experience. It didn't seem to have much of an effect either other than intermittent sensations of movement in my intestines, but it may have influenced what came later.

This was also my first time trying nicotine with Ayahuasca. I don't use nicotine, so I tried it the day before to make sure I wouldn't have any negative reactions to it.

There are also changes in the setting: my girlfriend is not here anymore, so I'm back to being alone in the house, as in the summer. Also, I had realized that I often feel bad about my dog being alone downstairs, so I decided to let her be with me in the room, hoping she would just sleep and behave well (she did).

At first, sitting in my wool matress (on the floor), I started feeling both the caapi and the nicotine starting to have an effect. I must say it was a very good combination, I felt warm and fuzzy. Even when the caapi effects became stronger, I could easily move and stand up. My mind also felt more alert, and I could pay attention more easily without getting caught in stray lines of thought. So I think I'll keep using nicotine with Ayahuasca (and only with Ayahuasca).

I was feeling physically very well. Slowly, I started having some intestinal cramps and feelings of bloating in my lower stomach. This is different from my stomach symptoms other times: those have usually been in the stomach itself, mainly upper stomach. This was clearly in the lower gut. It seemed that I had to fart, but something felt different so just in case I went to the bathroom, and I did well by doing so. This is the first time I have diarrhea with Ayahuasca.

I had to go to the bathroom more times, but I didn't feel too bad. But after some time, I started feeling more sick, and I started having sudden bouts of vomit, very little amounts, from time to time.

It may have partly been the nicotine wearing off or the chalipanga starting to have more effect, but I started feeling intensely sick and dizzy. I had waves of nausea, and sometimes had to vomit and other times go to the bathroom as fast as I could. In the moment there didn't seem to be too many psychological effects, and I don't think the chali had full effects this time, but in retrospective I see that with every wave of nausea, many negative thoughts I've been having came in a particularly strong form, almost obsessively, until I purged. Also, when going to the bathroom I could see classic psychedelic patterns in the bathroom floor, something that has never happened to me with Ayahuasca before (granted that I haven't gone to the bathroom that much before, either).

I started feeling better and with less effects, so I decided to have the second dose of chali (with four drops of lemon essential oil). I knew that would make me purge more, and it did. There were more psychological effects from this second dose, even though I vomited it after 20 minutes or so. It followed the same pattern of nausea waves as before, this time it being mainly vomit, in larger amounts than before. The vomit seemed black in the dark, and at some points it crossed my mind that it was black because I have some "dark stuff" inside. Unfortunately, the vomit from this second round was more acidic and burnt my throat, although not as much as it has other times, and I still didn't have heartburn. In the end, there was a lot of caapi and chali sediment in the bucket, it looked like all of what I drank.

Once I was feeling better and with fewer effects, I went downstairs, drank a glass of water (I was very dehydrated), and went outside in the night to get some cold air and get phone signal, to write to my girlfriend that I was fine. For that I had to go a little bit uphill which, combined with the glass of water, made me start feeling very sick again. I hadn't had more nicotine because I didn't want it to interfere with my sleep. I had to purge on the lower end right there, and when I got back home I vomited, this time clear vomit because it was only water and bile acid.

I was somewhat concerned because I was quite dehydrated. I tried to drink some chamomile tea by small sips, as when one is sick, but I vomited that too. So I went to bed hoping I would be able to drink next day. And yes, by the next morning I drank slowly with no issues. At first I felt down, weak, and as if I had been beaten up, but after eating some apples I felt much better. Actually better than before drinking it.

This was mainly a physical experience. I think the senna contributed to it, but I also think that without it, I would likely still have purged a lot. Just in case, next time I won't have senna on the day I have Ayahuasca.

This experience has left me less anxious, and directed my attention to some aspects of my diet that should be improved: namely, too much animal fat. I think fixing that will also be conductive to less purging, and even if not, it will be good for my health still.

It's not unlikely that next time I'll have to purge a lot again, I felt like I wasn't fully done. I'm willing to do it, I think it will keep helping me improve both my physical and mental health. I'm only mildly concerned about my teeth, I may look into washing my mouth with water and bicarbonate after purging every time. While the nausea waves were coming I was thinking that there was no way I would ever do that again, but now I see it differently.

I'm also going to look for some good incense. I got some supposed "palo santo incense" at the supermarket, but I think it mostly has synthetic aromas, and I found it detrimental to the experience, so once the first bar was burnt I didn't add another.

 

[northape]

At first, sitting in my wool matress (on the floor), I started feeling both the caapi and the nicotine starting to have an effect. I must say it was a very good combination, I felt warm and fuzzy. Even when the caapi effects became stronger, I could easily move and stand up. My mind also felt more alert, and I could pay attention more easily without getting caught in stray lines of thought. So I think I'll keep using nicotine with Ayahuasca (and only with Ayahuasca).

Nicotine may have also contributed to the purging. At least raw tobacco could be very cleanse-promoting. I don't know if nicotine alone has similar effects.
Anyhow, it's still a cleaning phase, and it will pass as you adapt some more to these medicines.

Maybe now you can better understand why they smoke a lot of mapacho with aya. Tobacco levels the experience and plays a number of roles in a session.

It seemed that I had to fart, but something felt different so just in case I went to the bathroom, and I did well by doing so. This is the first time I have diarrhea with Ayahuasca.

Never trust a fart! This joke becomes life-saving advice for medicine drinkers

In the moment there didn't seem to be too many psychological effects, and I don't think the chali had full effects this time, but in retrospective I see that with every wave of nausea, many negative thoughts I've been having came in a particularly strong form, almost obsessively, until I purged.

It's a peculiar characteristic of aya that it can modulate your experience to a degree. I had a few cleansing sessions with more than 15g chali in my system and had close to zero psychological effects. It's like all this power was channeled into purifying the body or something.

This was mainly a physical experience. I think the senna contributed to it, but I also think that without it, I would likely still have purged a lot. Just in case, next time I won't have senna on the day I have Ayahuasca.

Yeah, try to minimize all the variables in your ceremony. Just aya will be enough. Fasting and cleansing the body beforehand will make a ceremony go more smoothly.

While the nausea waves were coming I was thinking that there was no way I would ever do that again, but now I see it differently.

That's the pattern. The last time I drank aya, I wanted to stop all my medicine work for good. It was just too real and intense.

I'm also going to look for some good incense. I got some supposed "palo santo incense" at the supermarket, but I think it mostly has synthetic aromas, and I found it detrimental to the experience, so once the first bar was burnt I didn't add another.

You can look for some pine resin and sage where you live. I usually order raw incense in bulk; it's very cheap that way.

Don't get discouraged by the experience. It's actually a success story and closer to how real aya should behave. It's firstly a purgative to get rid of parasites, both physical and mental. Anyone who really worked with rue or aya teas went through a cleansing of some sort.

 

[Transform]

Thanks for sharing.

The black stuff in your vomit (if it really was black) could also be from the senna anthraquinones. I'd be careful with that stuff, it can cause liver damage.

 

[ommani]

As northape alluded to, it was a wise decision not to trust the Ayahuasca fart, for doing otherwise can have consequences that are too horrible to mention.

I too have found myself at a similar crossroads, and am happy to report that I did NOT take the road less traveled, but followed the well worn path straight to the bathroom, thereby preserving my dignity before the most high.

 

[blig-blug]

(if it really was black)

Luckily no, it just looked like that in the dark, and probably partly from my mental state. It actually was exactly the color the brew is, and all the sediments were there.
Thank you for pointing out that risk of senna, I wasn't aware of it. Reading on it, it seems to be rare and a consequence of long term use. But it's a reason more to drink just a single cup.

 

[blig-blug]

XXV log update:

Dose:
T+00:00 -> liquid equivalent to 5g mimosa + ? g rue
T+01:30 -> liquid equivalent to 2.5g mimosa + ? g rue
T+02:15 -> liquid equivalent to 2.5g mimosa + ? g rue
T+03:00 -> 100mg harmala freebase from rue
T+03:30 -> 30mg DMT freebase
At night, fasted for 48 hours.

I made a tincture following @Transform's TnT vodka+lime tek. I decided to add rue to it (5:3 mimosa:rue ratio), assuming for some reason that harmala freebase would dissolve well in ethanol. @Transform pointed out that it wasn't necessarily the case, but by then I had already made it. It glowed under UV light, so it had to have some harmalas. I decided to try it, I went for the equivalent of 5g mimosa, more than I usually would, to account for the likely lower than foreseen proportion of harmalas.

I drank it mixed with honey, and it actually tasted very good. I didn't neutralize it, as I also wanted to test my suspicion that it being basic had helped me (other times I tried the normal, mimosa-only version) not have heartburn without needing to add limonene.

Around 15 minutes after taking it, I started feeling some effects. They were quite light, but got me motivated to do some stretches, something I do way less often than I should. Over time, a familiar energetic feeling traversed my body, but it didn't go anywhere further. I laid down and waited and waited, the effects were still there, but they weren't really getting any stronger. So eventually I decided to redose. Being cautious in case it was just taking a long time to come up, I had only the equivalent of 2.5g more.

Again, it felt like it was coming up. I definitely felt something, and at one point I saw faint visuals of reptile mouths with many teeth opening and closing, but basically that was it. So, after some prudential time, I had another 2.5g.

This time I didn't really feel much of a difference. The effects stayed at the same level, which means a very low level. Even those very faint visuals were gone. I could have had harmalas and then more of the tincture on top, but I didn't want to drink too much of the tincture, in case it had some other unknown substance that wasn't advisable in large amounts. I also didn't want to drink more dissolved calcium hydroxide, not neutralize it.

As I had started somewhat early, I decided to just have 30mg DMT freebase with 100mg harmalas. I assumed I already had about another 100mg harmalas, based on the effects I felt. I drank both the harmalas and DMT (with 30 minutes in between) in water, without even dissolving them, trusting the alkaline tincture would be enough to protect me from heartburn. By then I was having quite noticeable time dilation, so the wait between the harmalas and the DMT felt pretty long.

About 5 minutes after taking the DMT, I was feeling a very clear come-up, this time much faster and feeling more forceful. I quickly laid down, as I was getting dizzy and feeling queasy.

I don't remember that well what follows. All kinds of patterns started appearing, at first made of white light, then bluish. I felt the DMT rush, and the cold made me shiver. The blue light started becoming more and more saturated, until it started leaving after-images, which progressively turned into more and more colors. I remember thinking that the DMT was "showing off", bragging about what it could do. Finally a kind of very geometrical (2D) park door formed, with what seemed to be a sign above, and as I crossed it, I suddenly could see the sea. The sun was setting, and everything was so peaceful. I was flying above it at a high speed. It looked extremely realistic, nothing out of place. I remember going to some other realistic places too, although now and then my visual field had some blurry shapes superimposed into it. Then, I suddenly saw a candle up close, and a lid was placed on top of it. Everything went dark and I opened my eyes for a moment. I was back into reality. It felt like somehow the music I was listening to (Chanticles of Extasy, by Hildegard von Bingen) had somehow done it.

Very soon, patterns appeared again, fully convering my visual field. And then I was off again to somewhere else, I don't really remember well where. From then on, I kept going either to different "places" (most often very realistic, but sometimes they were full of patterns and geometry) or getting involved in different situations where I felt I partly controlled them, as if they were a daydream. I also had for a while a series of computer-themed visions. For example, I vividly remember being in front of the DMT Nexus chat interface (this time I had the chat open in my computer, although obviously far away from me in that moment) and trying to interact with it. Later (or maybe before) I was interacting with a spreadsheet-style program, where I was asking about my future in the cells, and other cells computed and displayed the answers. I don't remember neither questions nor answers, and they were likely nonsensical: at one point I became more aware and wondered what I was doing, and was quickly pulled out of the vision. I also remember from those moments some error screens popping up.

I had many visions of fire, as I was laying next to the stove, it was too cold to be at my usual spot. I also remember the face of a being that wanted to tell me something, but then it didn't and just left.

This was probably my strongest time ever, regarding effects. I spent two hours mostly out of body. However it was not particularly insightful, unlike my other strongly out of body experience (that spirits and fetuses one that I bring up sometimes, log X) and many other not out of body ones. Among other factors, it's probably due to a lower proportion of harmalas than usual. It was however interesting, exhilarating, and refreshing. I was glad to have for once an experience without any challenges, even if in the end challenging experiences have been the most impactful. I think I may explore the mimosa tincture for a while (with a higher amount of harmalas) before coming back to my exploration of caapi and chali, the last string of experiences involving stomach issues had created some aversion to the experience itself that was hard to overcome, even for trying the tincture. I'm in for the long haul so to speak, so I want to pace myself properly.

 

[northape]

@blig-blug, your own reflections leave little room for comments

I would use extracted harmalas with your mimosa tincture. As you saw, it is quite unpredictable, and it is hard to tell what was the main driving force behind your experience. I feel that some extra DMT was activated when you ingested harmalas. I usually get this stupefied state where I can hardly remember what is what after ingesting lots of harmalas. However, different combos of harmalas and DMT could produce it too. It is easier to keep it simple: tincture for DMT and rue extract for MAOi. I always fall back to the original ayahuasca recipe of caapi and chacruna (chali). There is no need to overcomplicate things, when playing with these two factors is already enough.

When it comes to caapi, it is typically much deeper. I generally go deep with a cycle of caapi works and then solidify it all with rue. That is how my path looked. Work with your tincture and harmalas if you feel that it benefits you. Just do not stick with using barks for too long. It is not very good for human physiology, and I would say that extracting DMT from them is a better approach. There are many more balanced light sources like chacruna, chali, and mushrooms.

 

[blig-blug]

I feel that some extra DMT was activated when you ingested harmalas

Yes, I agree. I think that due to the high (but ineffective) amount of Mimosa I had consumed, I already had a certain amount of DMT inside, and the 30mg additional DMT tipped it over the edge.

A clarification on the Mimosa extract: it's not pure DMT, or at least I don't think so. It's a full spectrum extract that in my past experiences has felt very similar to brewed mimosa, minus the tannins. In those experiences it lasted longer than pure DMT and had the character of Mimosa, so to speak. I agree with you about barks, and this takes away the harsher side of bark in the organism.

This experiment was in the context of my idea for a rue+mimosa honey. But as Shulgin said, there are no casual experiments, so I still attempted to be cautious and respectful to the experience.

 

[blig-blug]

Next time I have a caapi brew, I'm considering having some dilute calcium hydroxide with it. It really helps me prevent heartburn. Lemon essential oil also works, but sometimes after vomiting it I end up getting heartburn, and vomiting some very strong stomach acids. Instead of the much gentler "normal" caapi vomit, which is still acidic but not overly so.

 

[northape]

Next time I have a caapi brew, I'm considering having some dilute calcium hydroxide with it. It really helps me prevent heartburn. Lemon essential oil also works, but sometimes after vomiting it I end up getting heartburn, and vomiting some very strong stomach acids. Instead of the much gentler "normal" caapi vomit, which is still acidic but not overly so.

A folk remedy that I often use is sodium bicarbonate in hot water. You drink it for heartburn and stomach issues. Maybe it's safer than calcium hydroxide; I don't know.

 

[Varallo]

Next time I have a caapi brew, I'm considering having some dilute calcium hydroxide with it. It really helps me prevent heartburn. Lemon essential oil also works, but sometimes after vomiting it I end up getting heartburn, and vomiting some very strong stomach acids. Instead of the much gentler "normal" caapi vomit, which is still acidic but not overly so.

Be careful with Calcium Hydroxide, it’s a very strong base, as @northape suggests use some bicarbonate or something like an anti acid from the pharmacy that is carbonate based.

 

[blig-blug]

Be careful with Calcium Hydroxide, it’s a very strong base, as @northape suggests use some bicarbonate or something like an anti acid from the pharmacy that is carbonate based.

I know, in any case it would be a minute amount and very diluted, as it was the case this time. Although now that I think about it, I don't even know if what remains is calcium hydroxide, it may have reacted with some other stuff in the tincture. I have tried bicarbonate and, for whatever reason, it doesn't seem to help with the heartburn induced by these brews (it helps for normal heartburn). I do have an antacid containing bicarbonate, sodium alginate, and calcium carbonate. I may try that instead, I haven't tried it yet. It warns about it preventing the absorption of certain substances, I don't know if it will apply to these substances. I will try that first, thanks for the heads up.

On a different topic: I tend to think that I generally have good insight into my mind, so it's funny how unaware of the meaning of certain things I can be sometimes.

I was interacting with a spreadsheet-style program, where I was asking about my future in the cells, and other cells computed and displayed the answers

I have lately been worried about my professional future, and often I've feared that I may end up "filling spreadsheets" (expressed in those exact terms). More generally, I fear that it may constrain me by being too grid-like (the expression in Spanish is something like that). So this was not the random vision it appeared to be at first, it seems quite clear to me that it expresses some of these fears.

I vividly remember being in front of the DMT Nexus chat interface and trying to interact with it

Trying and failing, I didn't say that explicitly. Again, related to my professional future, I fear and I'm worried about not being able to connect with others, and that it may be a problem for me.

There are more similar patterns related to fear in other images and situations I remember. It's interesting because in those moments I felt no fear or anxiety whatsoever. But it seems that, in the moment, I couldn't connect them to what they were expressing. Today it suddenly started coming to my mind.