blig-blug's Ayahuasca experience log

[blig-blug]

XXVIII log update:

Dose:
T-24:00 -> Ayahuasca. Equivalent to 20g B. muricata and 4g D. cabrerana.
T-12:00 -> Ayahuasca. Equivalent to 10g B. muricata and 2g D. cabrearana.
T+00:00 -> Ayahuasca. Equivalent to 20g B. muricata and 4g D. cabrerana.
T+04:00 -> Ayahuasca. Equivalent to 20g B. muricata and 4g D. cabrerana.

Fasted the previous day, ate a light meal at about T-06:00.

This one comes almost two weeks too late: I had to travel the day after it and ended up forgetting to update the log. So it won't be too detailed.

I decided to try a different approach: taking a very light dose the day before in order to prepare my stomach (and partially my mind), and ended up taking an even lighter one during the morning of the day.

The first dose at T-24:00 was supposed to be low enough so that the chali didn't have much of an effect (if they hadn't been brewed together, I would have had only caapi). To my surprise, at about T-22:00 I had to go lie down for a while, as I got a very sudden onset of dizziness followed by visuals. The visuals weren't intense and were bluish in color, I remember seeing money, a passport, and a lot of unreadable text scrolling by. It lasted a short time, about 15 minutes.

In the morning of the next day I decided to have an even lower dose in order to make it mentally easier to have the actual dose later during the day. It did have a faint visual effect at some points, e.g. patterning in the bathroom floor. This was however very light, it was a dose that I think could be taken regularly without impairing daily function (probably as long as one doesn't have to drive). I may experiment more with this in the future.

My plan for the afternoon was to have a 20:4 dose at T+00:00, and later a 40:8 dose. But the dose at T+00:00 proved to be quite strong! Probably due to a good amount of caapi harmalas being already in my system.

Usually, chali has not been very visual for me. This time however it felt almost like pharmahuasca: I heard the typical DMT ringing (in my case it's usually similar to a sine wave at 400Hz, with a binaural effect to it) and very colorful geometric visuals started appearing. Even with my eyes open, I got patterns and saw beings moving around if I stared at a surface. However I was feeling much "ligther" and able to move and function than other times. I did lie down for most of it, and the peak was intense: at one point it seemed as if I would break through, but in the end didn't.

Due to my emotional state during those days, I didn't want to go too deep, and decided to take a second dose of only 20:4. This dose was much darker and somatic. I was about to get heartburn, but in the end I didn't (I had drank a bit of water with baking soda beforehand). The visuals were few and there was a lot of darkness. My emotions opened up. It was rough and difficult to get through. However, once the stomach discomfort subsided towards the end, I started feeling much more positive, and was left in a state of calm.

During the next few days, I was very emotional, which wasn't too adequate for the circumstances.

This was very different from how I've drank Aya other times, and is an approach I want to experiment more with when I have time. I was able to mostly keep heartburn at bay without even lemon essential oil, and be in a slightly altered state where I could think deeply about many issues for a much longer time. Ideally, I'll be at a more emotionally stable (and a more stable situation) for the next time, and will end with a larger dose.

 

[northape]

Due to my emotional state during those days, I didn't want to go too deep, and decided to take a second dose of only 20:4. This dose was much darker and somatic. I was about to get heartburn, but in the end I didn't (I had drank a bit of water with baking soda beforehand). The visuals were few and there was a lot of darkness. My emotions opened up. It was rough and difficult to get through. However, once the stomach discomfort subsided towards the end, I started feeling much more positive, and was left in a state of calm.

Ime, this heavy darkness comes from the gut and is the kind of stuff the medicine tries to remove from you. In that case, I usually drink a second dose to give extra force to the process, and it ends in purging with a shift to a more balanced state. This medicine requires enough strength to push heavy energy out, so drinking more (especially caapi) is preferable. You fully digest the medicine only when your system is relatively clean (both mentally and physically). If there is any stuck energy in you, it will try to clean you first. I drank Brazilian caapi in the summer, and it was all about cleansing even though I had lots of chaliponga in it (12g per dose). I had close to no DMT effects, but I was purging from both ends. In retrospect, it gave the strongest push toward a different relationship with life and my situation, opening many doors.

It is best to have a few free days after ayahuasca because most of the work comes after the experience. You tend to feel a bit vulnerable and shaken afterward. However, if you have done a proper ceremony with a clear end closing your energy, it is safe to roam about (just not advisable).

I told you before, for a time my drinking process was very similar to your last one. I used to reboil the brew with some honey and put it in a thermos. I would drink it in shots until reaching the desired depth. This is easier to follow for anyone who is familiar with alcohol and tends to create a relatable structure. My ceremony setting was very formal, but the consumption itself followed a known social pattern. After some time I switched back to traditional use, but small shots of ayahuasca certainly do work.