Is chemical enlightenment possible?
I am around 50 years old, and from 20-28 I meditated every day for an hour or two before bed, never missing a day. Just simple breathing meditation - lotus posture, just watching every inhale and exhale, trying not to miss a single one, dropping any thoughts or perceptions that distracted from that intent. I quit for several coinciding reasons - moving, relationship breakup, and possibly primarily because I wasn't sure I wanted to be enlightened, feeling it coming on heavily at that time, and not knowing how to live in the modern world with the state of being that was coming on strong ... I felt like I was becoming like Krishnamurti or Rajneesh inside (2 that I believe were enlightened), but unless you want that way of life, I can't imagine how you can get along in the modern world. And I was also tempted to be challenged by all of the problems and discord of humanity in general, thinking it might be a loss to live in this world and not experience life as the average human. There's time for enlightenment later I thought - time to experience life as others do.
I don't know if I ended up doing that. I seem to have gotten stuck in the middle somewhere. Over the next several years, I felt most all the progress slide away, very similar to an athelete that stops exercising. Little by little, over time, my daily self-awareness dropped from maybe 25-33% of the minutes of every day to about 5-10% over 5-10 years.
I lost:
1) the stress-free life of seemingly endless best and correct and lightening-fast judgments and actions (meaning no regrets). Today, my judgments are much more slow and muddy and at times, regretful.
2) the wisdom that was welling up within me like a 1st-time mushroom trip almost constantly, like rain in my brain. Today, I have none of this, just residue.
3) some of my good health and energy, though not too noticable - just slightly or moderately.
But some things remained:
1) I still have no internal dialogue/chatter. To this day, I still never "talk to myself". I merely perceive, rarely in a state of mindfulness, more often out of mindless routine, mindlessly taking the steps that need to be taken daily.
2) I can enter self-awareness, and do several times a day, but I can't maintain it for very long - a minute or two at most unless a certain situation or environmental factors demand otherwise.
3) I still maintain some sense of natural honor and integrity in all I do, but I have many more faults due to not being self-aware often ... more so in casual things, less so in serious matters - such as actions with police and courts where I still feel an edge from my work with meditation.
And in the middle-ground, I still have some of the "action before thought" processes, such as losing a bar of soap in the shower with one hand over my shoulder, and catching it with the other hand behind my back before I can even have a mindful reflex to do such a thing.
Anyway ...
In my understanding, the purpose of meditation is to strengthen our intent, so that it is unwavering, and exactly where it needs to be, and where we direct it to be. So that it is "full-on", so that we can give our full and undivided attention to whoever and wherever necessary including ourselves, and so that nothing takes us by surprise, and even if something does (like a potential car/motorcycle wreck), we are doing everything that can be done with full awareness and no fear in every nanosecond.
I can't imagine how a chemical could take someone to such a state, and maintain it. I can imagine a chemical inducing full self-awareness, but I can't imagine how a chemical can develop the power of our intent, the muscle behind our attention, and maintain it indefinitely. To me, that would be akin to taking a chemical, and then instantly becoming the #1 marathon runner in the world for the next 10 years, or instantly lifting more than any other power-lifter in the world for years to come. The most I can imagine from a chemical is a weak temporary glimpse of the real thing.
Does anyone claim to have been permanently enlightened from a chemical?
I am going to be researching 5-MeO-DMT soon (in a country where it is legal), and will find out for myself, since this one seems to have some claims to this effect. It may or may not be easy to tell if another person is enlightened - I mean, there is no real test that can prove/disprove it, but I will try to find out for myself, and I believe that I pretty much have a handle on whether or not something is getting me there, and keeping me there.
(Not that I am sure I want to be there! But I am old enough for it not to matter so much anymore!)
I am around 50 years old, and from 20-28 I meditated every day for an hour or two before bed, never missing a day. Just simple breathing meditation - lotus posture, just watching every inhale and exhale, trying not to miss a single one, dropping any thoughts or perceptions that distracted from that intent. I quit for several coinciding reasons - moving, relationship breakup, and possibly primarily because I wasn't sure I wanted to be enlightened, feeling it coming on heavily at that time, and not knowing how to live in the modern world with the state of being that was coming on strong ... I felt like I was becoming like Krishnamurti or Rajneesh inside (2 that I believe were enlightened), but unless you want that way of life, I can't imagine how you can get along in the modern world. And I was also tempted to be challenged by all of the problems and discord of humanity in general, thinking it might be a loss to live in this world and not experience life as the average human. There's time for enlightenment later I thought - time to experience life as others do.
I don't know if I ended up doing that. I seem to have gotten stuck in the middle somewhere. Over the next several years, I felt most all the progress slide away, very similar to an athelete that stops exercising. Little by little, over time, my daily self-awareness dropped from maybe 25-33% of the minutes of every day to about 5-10% over 5-10 years.
I lost:
1) the stress-free life of seemingly endless best and correct and lightening-fast judgments and actions (meaning no regrets). Today, my judgments are much more slow and muddy and at times, regretful.
2) the wisdom that was welling up within me like a 1st-time mushroom trip almost constantly, like rain in my brain. Today, I have none of this, just residue.
3) some of my good health and energy, though not too noticable - just slightly or moderately.
But some things remained:
1) I still have no internal dialogue/chatter. To this day, I still never "talk to myself". I merely perceive, rarely in a state of mindfulness, more often out of mindless routine, mindlessly taking the steps that need to be taken daily.
2) I can enter self-awareness, and do several times a day, but I can't maintain it for very long - a minute or two at most unless a certain situation or environmental factors demand otherwise.
3) I still maintain some sense of natural honor and integrity in all I do, but I have many more faults due to not being self-aware often ... more so in casual things, less so in serious matters - such as actions with police and courts where I still feel an edge from my work with meditation.
And in the middle-ground, I still have some of the "action before thought" processes, such as losing a bar of soap in the shower with one hand over my shoulder, and catching it with the other hand behind my back before I can even have a mindful reflex to do such a thing.
Anyway ...
In my understanding, the purpose of meditation is to strengthen our intent, so that it is unwavering, and exactly where it needs to be, and where we direct it to be. So that it is "full-on", so that we can give our full and undivided attention to whoever and wherever necessary including ourselves, and so that nothing takes us by surprise, and even if something does (like a potential car/motorcycle wreck), we are doing everything that can be done with full awareness and no fear in every nanosecond.
I can't imagine how a chemical could take someone to such a state, and maintain it. I can imagine a chemical inducing full self-awareness, but I can't imagine how a chemical can develop the power of our intent, the muscle behind our attention, and maintain it indefinitely. To me, that would be akin to taking a chemical, and then instantly becoming the #1 marathon runner in the world for the next 10 years, or instantly lifting more than any other power-lifter in the world for years to come. The most I can imagine from a chemical is a weak temporary glimpse of the real thing.
Does anyone claim to have been permanently enlightened from a chemical?

I am going to be researching 5-MeO-DMT soon (in a country where it is legal), and will find out for myself, since this one seems to have some claims to this effect. It may or may not be easy to tell if another person is enlightened - I mean, there is no real test that can prove/disprove it, but I will try to find out for myself, and I believe that I pretty much have a handle on whether or not something is getting me there, and keeping me there.
(Not that I am sure I want to be there! But I am old enough for it not to matter so much anymore!)