Ciao.

[ABe©eDarian]

My elves.
I’ve said my hellos & goodbyes.
My intelligence is central to myself.
Like the Italian greeting word for hello & goodbye; Ciao. Like C-I-A-- O.

I’m not a person who goes around threatening and exerting my dominance over people.
The pen is said to be and is supposed to be mightier than the sword.
Even if I’m not the next Eminem.
Or the next Jerry Garcia. Etc.

It is very hushed that I am very loved in this world… But in a different way.
The wandering shadows do not always tolerate what I do for too long
while giving too many warnings.
It’s not a threat, it is me following through
with the very promise
that was taken away from my knowing I made and could follow through with.

I’m a very empathetic person,
but I’m not going to always be around
to feel more sorry for people
than all my invisible constituents choose to do.

I don’t like a horror show.
Or clashing devastation.
I can agree to disagree
and have people go in separate directions.
But when boxed in
to something that only has pseudo-authority either get subservience,
or throws people who are straight up straight down in holes,
or pits them against each other like they have no souls,
I am simply not to blame for being so disproportionately real
that no one can make a deal,
and it’s found to be out of bounds what I feel
again in the spin of a wheel
while I’m getting yet being a meal
while not being willing to kneel.
If I need to make some squeal because we need to heal,
then it’s just because I don’t like seeds to become veal.

Who even wants to boast of a pulse of steel?
Who’d want to host under a peel,
and call it all ideal?
It’s my idea to reveal
while we read the ordeal.
Do you want some more of the zeal?

I didn’t love to steal.
But those were only cigarettes.
Sick of it, appeal.
Apples in the thick of it, conjugal, congeal.

The jury is furry.
Don’t worry.
Lonely or only under one heel?
The front wheel.
Some deal.

Be good.

Is This All You?

Walking and talking.

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Living out of somebody’s pocket
and in someone’s box.
When I get out and get my own door
I’m gonna lock it,
set the clocks and watch it
go around the circle
twice a day.
My right,
my say.
And that’s some nice pay
where I actually might stay.
As if I’m too heavy to be plenty
and too light to weigh.
Why would this fight be on display?
Because it will be gone someday.
Only so many dawns, then decay,
unless some stem cells don’t get betrayed.

Who mistook my kindness for weakness?
Who thinks my link is the weakest
and can never mind my uniqueness?
Love to take my wealth and give me cheapness?
Retrieved a little health from the deepness.
What would complete this? Oh, the sweetness
that sweeps this away.

 

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It was literally reading people
who don’t write the book
to find out
what they wanted to do
and what it attempted
to have to do
with me.

It was literally listening to people
who don’t write the song
to find out
what they wanted me to hear
and whether or not it was true
or just attempted manipulation
and attempted governmental mind control
for lucrative loot
while not wanting me lucid in my boots.

Why shoot and why wear a suit?
Why turn up the volume, and why mute?
Why did they drop a dime? What a beaut.
Some keep the ignorance. Some stay astute.
Some make the peace to keep, and some may be new.
At least I’m deep and see you.
I’m a minority in here, be you.
I won’t be last to see who.
This world’s gone sick, a tree’s due.
Due to all or due to a few?
There’s too many. Who has a clue?
Is it too absolute?

In a different set & setting
I’d be glad to be a Dad.
In a different circumstance
I’d Salute.
When not so tiny I’d be saluted.
Cute.

The problem’s in the roots.
I’ll offer no more fruit to recruit.
What you lost does not compute?
I’m not you now
and I’m not you when I’m through with your dispute.
Scoot.

 

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What you see is what you get.
If you already decided based on your feelings
what it is,
then you look,
you’ll see what you expected
like you put on glasses
that change reality
into something unrealistic
with positive and negatives.
I don’t have any racism on the playlist.
I don’t have anything against the gayest.
I need to be happy too
as the straightest.
Why would you want to play this,
and not see what doesn’t pay you pay this?
Love my turmoil and hate my bliss?
I didn’t just turn royal and open gates to get.
I am a giver and this is debated
because of those unsure what is great or created.
Maybe it’s not for them that I waited.
And babies need patience, not a pay debt.
It’s a strong word but I’ll go ahead and hate it.
Birds, and those who don’t fly ask why and rate it.
Eat a worm, get a tick, equated.
What did anyone learn when it ate it.
Okay, shit. Now I’ll evade it.
I do my work, no matter how they explain it.
The Ant and the Grasshopper
or The Grasshopper and the Ant.
Either way, can’t replace it.
I try to reciprocate my side of the basics.
What fundamentals are we facing
and what would sustain it?
Fun to the mental and have physical paintings.
If you’re not raising, I won’t obey it.
I don’t fake it till I make it
but that’s how some erase it.
Babe Ruth, a tooth, phone booth evaded.
Changing clothes they traded.
Throughout all my trying I am desecrated.
No lying, we’re dying, while the best translate it.
Understood, overstood, stand aside, who made it?
What does it mean to be forbade?
Forbid, forsaken, creative, hated.
I’ll just allow and won’t make them all proud.
Reinstated.
Do we win when we take it?
Who breaks it?
What a bond, maintaining.
Was never really a pawn in training in the waxing and waning.
Taxes, complaining.
The fact is I’m the champion.
Can’t be numb to the ambient.
ABeCeDarian, carrying the berry in.
Getting out, no doubt, wasn’t fair, we win.
See again?
Trees and wind.

 

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Once I see someone look at me with disdain
more than twice
as a reaction to something good I wanted to share,
I know that we could never make a pair,
and I’d not be a choice, just an option.
I’d be disposable after a deposit.
I’d be gullible allowing adoption.
If I see it as full of bull then it’s a toxin
seeing me as up for auction.
What a concoction.
It will not be in my decoction.
Aspiring past the aspirin and naproxen.
Acetaminophen, ibuprofen, unfilled stockings.
What a dumb bill to be blocking,
and paying others with a check wanted from the swapping.
Better call someone else then, maybe Mary Poppins.
Sometimes it’s some with the jobs doing all the squatting.
What were they plotting? I see them sobbing.
Shocking.
I feel you better use your noggin.
Ideas not awesome? Better not then.

 

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I can’t do it well if nobody listens.
I can’t do it well if no one receives.
I can’t do it well better than given.
I can’t do well for no fellow needs.
I can’t do well what no one is missing.
I can’t do well if no one will read,
or with no one to be fed by and feed.
To beddy bye with seeds.
If it hurts to have keys then why even be?
Just bread and cheese.
Got it easy being pleased.
Guess it’s just a sneeze.
Words to get heard by the birds and the bees.
I guess it will freeze.
But you can’t freeze these
cause I’ll blow you away like fleas.
Jeez.
Goodnight to the fees.
Knees.
I paid for peace
and got squeezed.
Tits of disease.
It’s a belief.
I’m the police.
What a breeze.

 

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They tried to fu©k me,
and get $,
and get babies that are yummy.
I’m inadequate for the tummy.
I’m insufficiently a dummy.

Honey.
The sweetness of what’s sunny.
The freest for who don’t come free for me
immaculately horny.
The fact of what’s done poorly.
I have a right to judge it surely.
Who don’t love that don’t adore me,
and won’t for me.
It tore me apart and didn’t really put me together
except to enjoy me at first.
Don’t toy with Dad’s thirst.
That’s a curse.
Don’t emasculate a boy because of that’s burst.
Are facts worse?
Don’t forsake and take away the calm of Mom’s purse.
A bomb shirt.
I yawn, dirt.
It’s on, burp.
Squandered. Hurt.
Off aloft, to yonder, work.
Ponder that with squirts.
Wander and launder and lurk.
I wonder what to have as a quirk.
Chirp.
Yerp.

 

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I don’t have it all to teach.
I have it all to have.
I have it all to reach.
I don’t have it all to half.
Don’t put bleach in the bath
after all the glass.
An owl, an ass.
Hooting about the who knows who amassed.
I’m last.
I’m first, I blast.
Climb, natch.
So why snatch?
Hi, catch.
High batch.
Lie fast.
Lie, splash.

 

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Thank you
for meaning.
Thank you for seeming to even.
Breathing.
Something to believe in
while believing before leaving.
Teething before teeth in.
When teeth win is it cheating?
I’ve been eating.
Shoes to put feet in.
Something green for the squeezing.
I was in her and whatever she’s in.
Normal to be warm amongst some freezing.
Need to know I’m pleasing.
Need to know I’m appeasing and easing the teasing.
I learn it with allergic sneezing.
A poem, disease and needing.
I’m not leading, I’m just fleeting.
Reading amongst meat and a meeting.
Not enough standing and not enough seating.
Trick or treat and a sweet and retreating.
No competing and deleting.
Completing and depleting.
Feeding.

 

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I have.
I’ve got to have.
I’ve got two halves.
I want to have a lot of the best of me to share.
The rest of me so bare.
I rest, I climb the stairs.
Can I be fair? Can I be rare?
Can I be amongst a pair?
A monster dare.
Who wants to stare?
My angle, triangles to spare.
Two triangles make new squares.
Who cares?
Who tears apart the wear?
And what do we wear?
Be one who becomes blew air.
The breathing that we share.
The easing of the scare.
There.

 

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A lot of love for me in this world
and I can’t believe it
cause it’s only an expense.
Hold me for a cent.
Holy, I’m the rent.
Sold me, I’m a tent.
Where has it went?
There, I’m a scent.
Hardly even made a dent.
What was meant by what was sent?
Some things with wings just had to vent.
Glad you blent, but how much was spent?
For what and to what extent?
Onto the next event.
Sex and descent.
What would prevent the torment
and make forward ascent.
Is more words a percent
and also a cent?
Purring and consent.
One intent.

 

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Reasons for sneezing
where it’s freezing with needing.
Can’t just put the seeds in while leaving.
Can’t just do more bleeding in the evenings
and mourning in the mornings believing.
It’s grieving with thieving.
Deceiving what we’re conceiving,
and lying to ourselves about breeding.
What kind of gold we retrieving
if it’s not relieving?
Need a real pleasing while breathing.
I’m policing, decreasing disease and debriefing.
Maybe even succeeding.
Cannot suck seeds in to not believe in.
Can’t just put the meat in every meeting.
Gotta keep eating.
Deleting a plus is a bus to be reading.
The custody of sleeping that’s speaking.
Take a peek and know I’m peaking.
A poem I’m peeing.
In case you wanted drugs to be free while fleeing.
I’m only sober and so be it.
Opiates, associates between it.
Guarantee it.
Where to repeat it?
Almost can see it.
Clean it.
Dirty, I have .30 underneath it.
I wonder if the thunder would steal it.
Strike the lightening, heat it.
A newly aloft, the cool off supersedes it.
In a stupor? Reheat it.
The wheel’s real and we’ll be it.
Kneel and we’ll sit if that heals it.
Whatever reveals it.
Feel it.
Realistically conceal it.
Come deal it.
Private parts and squealing.
Peeling.
Can’t freeze me cause these are my feelings.
You’ll get none to the ceiling
and drop to the floor, idealistic.
Why would it be really mystic?
Missed it.
This stick.
You’re a nation, pi$$ out my di©k.
Without a brick.
More than thieves and more than just as thick.
A justice wick.
Wicked and a lick.
To the center, entering. $hit.
But who would quit?
What do you do with what you bit?
More than can be swallowed by a tit,
or the pocket in a box of clock ticks.
Deposit.
I know I’m honest,
and that’s real progress as promised.
Watch me stay modest, but sometimes there was vomit.
What’s there to believe in when what’s even is the oddest?
Good evening, did I profit?
Astonished.
Beware, warning, watch it, I’m talking.
So what do jaws get?

 

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Tan them, see action.
Random, needs traction.
Tandem reaction.
Manually maddened.
And you’ll see it saddened.
And you’ll see it hurt.
And glad to be in a shirt.
Had to be, we worked.
No rush for all the perks,
but there’s dirt.
Touchy, certainly squirts.
Mushrooms and chirps.
Fun guys and fun gals, flirt.
What about what’s certainly a quirk?
Smirkingly a smirk.
For just a burp or justice?
Hot air and busses.
Host, hostess, klutzes.
What’s this?
Who gives a fu©k about this much piss?
They say it’s luck Sis,
so touch this.
Discussions.
Know nothing, just trust this.
Glue the pee to Augustus,
and save some room for later.
I’m the ruminater, not a blooming traitor.
Cartoons have creators.
Crocs and craters.
Still in the crate or a raider?
It’s so natural to mash potaters.
Step on tomatoes and catsup later.
What do we do for what’s due to the haters?
Ask the waitresses and waiter.
A task to be cake or
baths for a bather?
Next batter, master bait or
more greater?
Simple plan, a plate for flavor.