dmt impressions

[demetrispeaks]

i'm not sure how this classifies but this is open discussion so i thought i'd share something i've been thinking about.

most people would probably agree that smoking dmt is very intense, and probably encounter more hesitance in hitting the dmt pipe than, say, when hitting a hash pipe because you know what's getting ready to happen. personally i get some butterflies and have to take some time to prepare myself and feel a tad bit of anxiety because i've been there before and i know what's coming.

the way i would describe the feeling RIGHT when DMT comes on is a serious kind of feeling: like "this is serious, wow did i really want to do that? am i going to be okay? this is very intense" even though i've smoked it many times. almost like the feeling i had as a child when i was being scolded by an adult, or that cold pang of fear i got when i just did something very very bad.

obviously this quickly gives way to the wondrous world of hyperspace, and i acquiesce to the trip peacefully, but does anyone else share that instant of fear/anxiety/ambiguousness?

i tend to notice a motif with dmt of "am i dead? am i going to be okay? will i die? where am i?" and just want to know if others share a similar sentiment

thank you for reading, nexians

 

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It's always been a respect thing for me. It can be one of the most seemingly random, most intense experiences a human being can have, so therefore..it comes down to respecting the power of the experience and its sacred nature.

Anymore..I wait until the time is right and i'm "ready to go!". :thumb_up:

 

[demetrispeaks]

i've always respected it, and have always entered into its use with a reverent state of mind, but it always has this way of taking my legs out from under me and making me feel like a naughty child who needs to pay attention, even though i always do and never haven't.

 

[Walter D. Roy]

Whenever I smoke DMT, I get really scared. And then when I hit it, I get the "Oh yeah, thats what it is" feeling from it. Even the first time, I could sense the unique feel dmt usually gives me.

 

[demetrispeaks]

exactly! It's like I never really get over that initial anxiety and fear, but once it starts i just enjoy it after that. But it's just a matter of getting it started, it's like a clot, or hesitance

 

[Psychonaut In Orbit]

I agree with what has been said above. I have done DMT ~750 times and like clockwork that anxious feeling comes over me before every trip, even more so when taking semi-long breaks between usage (the feeling is more profound). Once taking the plunge, I always get the feeling of that familiar "feel" or that place (while the effects are coming on)... followed by a complete onslaught of the spirit molecule, that moment that takes your breath away (the moment I fear and love the most). After being warped to oblivion I get a feeling of well being or safety (even during dark trips) because I've gotten past the most frightening part. Once I comeback, I always get a great sense of appreciation and respect towards the molecule ( which may lead to fits of uncontrollable crying mixed with uncontrollable and very awkward laughter).

After that has passed, it's the integration phase (unless I decide to jump back in my space ship ) This phase involves a lot of new perspectives and thoughts... like my brain has been rewired.. my clock has been rewound.. my soul has been replenished... full on afterglow. I look at DMT and all it's glorious layers... and respect every single abstract moment of divinity and clips of awe-inspiring madness it's given me... it's a teacher and it shows you... even though your mind might not be able to put the pieces together fully.. the alien knowledge somehow seems and feels familiar.. and that's why I go back. To see the knowledge you wont get in a book...

 

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Yeah. I'm usually always nervous and/or anxious, but once I go through the experience it's like "i'm soo glad I did this!"