Clouds,
I can respect your bent towards critical thinking. I can also respect the amount of time you've spent hanging out in the forum - reading, writing and preparing (to the extent that is possible) before just jumping in. This, to me, shows respect for the molecule and respect for yourself as well. I don't think any of what you've written reads like a rant at all - but I do have to say with all due respect...
You don't know what you don't know, and until you go, you won't know. Go and you'll know. But know that even once you go, you still won't know. You'll never ever ever ever ever ever know. I know that looks like gibberish, but believe me when I tell you without the slightest hint of irony, bravado or spiritual superiority... you don't know you don't know you don't know you don't know you don't know you don't know you don't know you don't know you don't know you don't know you don't know you don't know you don't know you don't know you don't know you don't know...
When you do finally take the plunge and find yourself within eye of The Experience, you'll be met with a space and mode of being in which science, philosophy, linguistics and logic are equally and utterly lacking.