TrampledByInfinity
Rising Star
It was hard work, a year long program, 6 overdoses (two of which I was literally dead for 2 minutes), and lots of talking that got me to this point. I wouldn't say it helped to fill the
void, as I have been working on getting rid of that void inside of me. Using it to fill the void would just be like replacing heroin with DMT, or the one I am seeing a lot of these days
replacing heroin with ketamine. The spice definitely reaffirms that living life on a chemical all day every day is a waste of a life, I had a breakthrough and everything just kind of lined
up into this picture of the type of creature I was when I was addicted to heroin. As sad and depressing it was to see me in that state, I came back from it laughing my ass off because of
the gross hilarity of the situation I had put myself in. I think the most I have gotten out of spice in regards to my addiction is that the awful dreams about needles and dope have all but
disappeared. And I have to say I believe it to be the spice that took those dreams away from me, as throughout the years when I was clean I would always have the dreams, no matter how long
I had been clean or how long I went without cravings. There is a thing called PAWS that comes with heroin addiction (that is Post Acute Withdrawal Symptoms) and it basically means that you
can get cold sweat, hot chills, actual withdrawal symptoms 1-2 years after the last time you used. Totally gone now that I've been doing changa/dmt sessions. If there is one thing that
everyone should get out of what I am saying, is that breaking free of addictions is HARD work, and spice can be a good tool, but it's not the end-all-be-all of cleaning yourself up (that
would be iboga :lol: ) J/K Although I would love to see how well iboga does with cravings, at this point I wouldn't be breaking any withdrawals/long-lasting after effects. I might
eventually write up about my addiction and everything I went through, but it's a harrowing tale that still gets my stomach jittery to think about.
void, as I have been working on getting rid of that void inside of me. Using it to fill the void would just be like replacing heroin with DMT, or the one I am seeing a lot of these days
replacing heroin with ketamine. The spice definitely reaffirms that living life on a chemical all day every day is a waste of a life, I had a breakthrough and everything just kind of lined
up into this picture of the type of creature I was when I was addicted to heroin. As sad and depressing it was to see me in that state, I came back from it laughing my ass off because of
the gross hilarity of the situation I had put myself in. I think the most I have gotten out of spice in regards to my addiction is that the awful dreams about needles and dope have all but
disappeared. And I have to say I believe it to be the spice that took those dreams away from me, as throughout the years when I was clean I would always have the dreams, no matter how long
I had been clean or how long I went without cravings. There is a thing called PAWS that comes with heroin addiction (that is Post Acute Withdrawal Symptoms) and it basically means that you
can get cold sweat, hot chills, actual withdrawal symptoms 1-2 years after the last time you used. Totally gone now that I've been doing changa/dmt sessions. If there is one thing that
everyone should get out of what I am saying, is that breaking free of addictions is HARD work, and spice can be a good tool, but it's not the end-all-be-all of cleaning yourself up (that
would be iboga :lol: ) J/K Although I would love to see how well iboga does with cravings, at this point I wouldn't be breaking any withdrawals/long-lasting after effects. I might
eventually write up about my addiction and everything I went through, but it's a harrowing tale that still gets my stomach jittery to think about.
