DMT Scares Me

[Hyperdimensional Cuttlefish]

Being scared is emotionally understanding that you might be effectively destroying yourself for a short time on the spice. Scary, but enlightening. I get the spooks every time I use it, but I never use unless I feel COMPELLED to partake. The urge to learn must override the animal fears, or else you ain't ready (at least for me).

 

[YTXian]

Yes. DMT is terrifing!

Even A. Shulgin says he feels this way.

The function of a healthy ego is to make survival based descisions; "now it's time to eat. I'm tired, I think I'll get some rest. I'd better dress warm because it's snowing outside..." ect., ect.

So the healthy ego's primary purpose is survival.

It follows that the functional, healthy, ego isn't going to take dieing lightly. One can't expect to silence the id and have it just resighn peacefully...it's whole purpose in life is to continue living.

Meditation and DMT are two of the many tools used to reach states of higher consiousness. This involves silencing the mind and since the ego manifests itself primarily as noise (be it our mouths making 'I' statments, or our endlessly creeking internal dialog) it is akin to the (temperary) death of the ego.

Whereas meditation can take a long time to reach this little death called silence and, often results in all kinds of mystical phenomena, (sometimes known as Dharana, Dhyana, crossing the abyss, Epiphany and a lot of others and is said to grant 'Siddhis' or 'powers', all of these being an atempt on the part of the ego to continue living and to not be silent or die) DMT is quite fast acting and is terrifying to the ego.

I feel compelled to note that DMT is only a window though. Meditation is the door. Both require disapline to do continualy however.

 

[tele]

I must say that after I have gotten more and more familiar with the substance, I must say the pre-flight anxiety/fear about it has diminished alot but not vanished. I mean after each time seeing the pre flight anxiety as unnecessary, even when there have been "difficult" journeys, I realized that there is nothing to be afraid of, only something that deserves our deepest respect instead of fear. Pre-flight anxiety hasn't gone away 100% for me, but certainly there's much less of it. It even could be due to the matter that I never use plain spice, but always take sublingual harmalas with it. It's absolutely essential part for my journeys.
One thing of course about D is that it's different each time and you never know what kind of journey are you going to have and that's a reason by itself to be pre-flight anxious, not even mentioning the possibility of death experience, which can be the most frightening and the best journey one can have at the same time.. Immortal teacher one can call it.