Does anyone else sit in pleasant nostalgia after smoking?

[q21q21]

I've been smoking 10-12.5 mg doses quite a bit doing controlled experiments with a dosage that is visionary yet not overwhelming.

Anyway I've pleasantly got into the habit of sitting through well after the visuals stopped and almost in a gently dissociated way brought into thoughts about past events, not too unlike when I lay down and go to bed.

The thing is that I am an over-analyzer and I have a habit of turning past neutral events into negative ones and unpleasantly loop the negative ones. I'm working on that and definitely making progress, just noted that because in this post-smoking state not surprisingly my thoughts are all very positive.
What is a little more noteworthy is that I have thought about and relived (like before bed) some rather unpleasant events in a positive way.

While I'm not sure if I'll ever be able to smoke a breakthrough dose and not feel like I am being attacked by the torturous mal-formed non-breakthrough visions, I know that in this way DMT is working reliably for the good.

Anyone else do this? haha

 

[jamie]

with ayahuasca yes, if I had a solid dose of harmalas with just enough DMT to be visual. I can sort of time travel into my own past and review events and reinterprete them, and go back and give my younger self etc messages. Shamans call this sort of work "soul retrival". In a way it is like we leave a portion of our soul in certain past events that we dont integrate properly. That portion of us is left to wander in a sort of limbo state from where it was severed until we journey back to that event and rejoin with the part of us we left behind.

With smoking it is just too fast to actaully do anything like this. Maybe I could think about the past in a positive way or something..but when I do this with oral harmalas and DMT it is different..it is really like being present in the past experiences, standing there with my younger child self being able to tell them that it is okay etc.

 

[polytrip]

On an iboga-shroom journey, i went back once to my very early childhood. And i actually re-experienced the moments i learned to speak!!!!

 

[universecannon]

Yea with smoked or oral harmalas/dmt i often re-live past experiences either in a first person viewpoint, 3rd person, or sometimes another's viewpoint. often it can be very beneficial to me and i learn.. Other times it'll be what looks and feels like parts of peoples lives I've never encountered before. Sometimes i get so lost in thought and sort of dissociated while coming down i don't know what to make of it once i realize whats going on in my mind :lol:

A few days ago after smoking i was coming down and drifting into one of these sequences when all the sudden it was like something snapped and i literally thought my whole consciousness morphed into this orange/red hyperliving fluid stuff that just exploded out of my body and snaked in the air down the street. It was fun, for lack of a better description.. lol

 

[slewb]

Sometimes a few hours after smoking weed I feel a very nice nostalgia for a time in my life that I don't think actually happened.