DS: a subtle vine experience is not totally in vain, at least you had all those amazon plant biochemicals inside that have a good effects on your health.
In traditional aya circles the subtle experience is expected to happen in X-percent of cases, It's not really that uncommon. The issue of "expectations" is at hand here. I've been in circles where I had nothing else than a thoroughly rotten bad feeling from begin to end, I'd rather had a subtle experience instead, but I take it as a necessary lesson, perhaps yet not fully understood, perhaps never will, but I trust it simply had to happen. At least I strayed from groups more and do more solo with good results. Perhaps your lesson is to take care of the spine? I can easily imagine that this serious back pain problem could also prevented you from going-in. I feel for you, get better!
In traditional aya circles the subtle experience is expected to happen in X-percent of cases, It's not really that uncommon. The issue of "expectations" is at hand here. I've been in circles where I had nothing else than a thoroughly rotten bad feeling from begin to end, I'd rather had a subtle experience instead, but I take it as a necessary lesson, perhaps yet not fully understood, perhaps never will, but I trust it simply had to happen. At least I strayed from groups more and do more solo with good results. Perhaps your lesson is to take care of the spine? I can easily imagine that this serious back pain problem could also prevented you from going-in. I feel for you, get better!

