anrchy said:
Nothing gives you a better trip IME. And more just expands on the abstract nature of the experience. But when you hit that hard hitter its almost/is too much to handle.
Just like anrchy I have had a difficult time integrating my first breakthrough. I have read about this topic for years since two thousand and four and messed around with the spice quite a bit this year. Even though it is the most magnificent experience, it is impossible to read about and understand what a breakthrough is and then can be terrifying going through the process when you find yourself in there.
I had a hard time with the black entities even though when I was there I was having a blast with them but nothing ever prepared me for the long lasting mental trip it was going to have over me.
Another thing that took me a while to even remember was how the trip began. I am used to the mandalas, jeweled mask, energy tunnel of the normal low dose chrysanthemum experience. But, when the breakthrough began it already had me taken aback, I was staring at a tunnel and could feel like I was going to breakthrough by going forward through the tunnel. Nope. Instead the energy tunnel fell down like if it were a painting on the wall, I had my eyes closed but could now see my room and a black box unfolded around me. It trapped me inside and the floor fell out into infinite space, falling at what felt like the speed of light until that frequency sound began. Was really scary, the experience was not
unfolding as I thought it would. Even low doses you just never know but I feel I have an easier time maintaining and enjoying them. I just have no words for the breakthrough and I screamed all the way through the death of body and ego death. Its a tricky little bugger. It is one of those things that is just such a huge mystery to me, of how this experience is even possible to begin with and then its messages, puzzles, riddles and the impossible nature. It sounds fascinating on paper and it is but to actually do it could rip you a new one. Just remember to smile and laugh that is what I should have been doing but it seemed impossible.
Methinks I will stick to small doses for a while longer