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Existential crisis

I took it with a friend- I didn’t even realise what it was in hindsight, I guess I thought it was going to be a trippy high? I saw things that have changed my life…
I took it with a friend I was deeply attuned to. He placed a earpiece with DMT activation music playing and took me to where he went
 
And it was some sort of transcendental or telepathic connection? Has anyone experienced this?
 
There’s been a lot of things happen - I’ve had it about 5 times. Each time the same but different.
There has been overlaps of what I saw and things in my life
 
And it was some sort of transcendental or telepathic connection? Has anyone experienced this?
Yes i did, with a friend. We used to smoke changa together and sometimes we saw the same things, met the same entity.

There’s been a lot of things happen - I’ve had it about 5 times. Each time the same but different.
There has been overlaps of what I saw and things in my life
What do you mean by overlap?
 
So he showed me what he had been seeing - that everything was a simulation… and I was heartbroken and asked why ect
It all happens very fast, what I’ve seen and I only remember it in flashes… I couldn’t close my eyes either and then we started using a blind fold.
I was discussing it with someone who hadn’t taken DMT but described the simulation as I saw it
 
Ever since DMT I have been unsure if I’m insane or not… I had pushed a lot of what I saw as I’m a normal suburban mum of 2 and had to get on with life but it kept coming back in other ways. I had always thought my brain worked in a way that was different to everyone I knew, this person was telling me that there’s a reason, that he was like that too
The other person I spoke to about my experience began telling me about the simulation but with added information from a third party that had told them about it.
 
So he showed me what he had been seeing - that everything was a simulation… and I was heartbroken and asked why ect
It all happens very fast and I’ve
 
Can you talk a bit more about what that simulation is like, is it the Matrix type that it is all a deception or the more philosophical/sciencey one that we're just one of many experiments running on an super advanced computer of a super advanced civilization?
 
@Kitty87 don't worry, it's not a simulation, it's a very common delusion to have. You just perceived the mechanics of your brain and how reality is shaped by your brain. It doesn't mean there is nothing beyond that. It doesn't mean that everything is a simulation. It's like we see the world through the lenses of our brain, but beyond the lenses what you see is real, it's just a little filtered. And having a brain that works in a different way is something many people are born with, nothing wrong with that and nothing to do with the simulation.
This simulation thing has been growing in popularity because of 1990s-2000s advancements in computer science but imo isn't really the mindblowing theory many make it sound it to be. I think that your friend's interpretation of what you saw made you believe in the simulation thing. But are you sure you literally saw that it's all a simulation? There are several ways to explain it and many are far more solid than the simulation thing imo
 
It's has been a very familiar motive of my DMT trips, but after years of processing, my thoughts are: it might be a simulation, but you are here for a reason and shouldn't take being allowed into this "sim" as a punishment or granted, it's a privilege.

In other words: maybe in our common everyday life, we take word "simulation" as being of less quality grade existence ("fake"?) than what's "real".
But imho one shouldn't take existence as a fake. But rather as "the universe is mental", as existing in God-mind.

If you feel overwhelmed, just take your time to process these things. Becoming okay with what entheogenic experiences show us takes months and maybe years to process and get comfortable with. Don't be heartbroken, nothing is really "Fake", maybe it's a simulation, but it is a very good one :)

If you are into reading there is a lots of literature which can help you integrate your trips. Becoming acquainted with hermetic teachings (Kybalion f.e.), what was first step that helped me.
Then maybe Robert Anton Wilson's books.
 
Kitty87,

Welcome to the Nexus sister. Your report title caught my eye as, ironically, an existential crisis is what led me to DMT.

Are you really getting the same experience every time? I have done it an insane number of times and every time it is different for me.

Regarding telepathy in hyperspace. Yep, the only way entities communicate with me is via telepathy and body language.

The key thing to do after a difficult or disturbing DMT experience is to NOT do DMT and take some real time off to integrate. Take care of yourself, journal, lean into the mundane, everyday reality. Play with your kids.

One more thing. Maybe this all is a sim? So what if it is? DMT is just a drug experience but feels like so much more.

If it is a sim it is a very good one with high fidelity. Your experiences are just as real/valid if it is not a sim as if it is. My advice is to not worry about it as long as it works.

I am not trying to downplay the intensity and impact of your experiences. Rather trying to show a different way to mentally frame things.

You do know that consensual reality is not ultimately real, right? It is what the social majority programmed into us in childhood. It shows us one way of interpreting all the bio and neurochemical signals in our head. It is so strong because it generally works well. But the quantum cosmologists confirm we are all tripping if we think our interpretations of our perceptions are real. . .

I do hope you can start to integrate this and begin to feel better about things.

DMT is very strong medicine. It shakes folks up, changes their beliefs, thermonukes the Default Mode Network so that all kinds of new thoughts and ideas can get in. I encourage folks to treat it with respect and take the integration time it demands.

Speaking personally, these lessons were hard won, but I am glad I did learn them.

Again, a very warm welcome to a fellow woman psychonaut into our found family.
 
I believe I have experienced what some may describe as "reality being a simulation", but I haven't interpreted it as a simulation. I'm sure no one who took psychedelics before computers were commonplace could have interpreted it as a simulation, too.
It's a feeling of appreciating that there may be more to reality than we think. That what we take for granted everyday, our "solid" day-to-day reality, is just a way of experiencing it. Because yes, our individual, subjective perception of reality is in a way "a simulation", constructed by our mind from our sense input. I believe that realization is what other people may interpret as reality itself being a simulation. Reality itself may or may not be a simulation (who knows?), but regardless of that, it is true that our individual experience of reality is constructed.
 
So he showed me what he had been seeing - that everything was a simulation… and I was heartbroken and asked why ect
It all happens very fast, what I’ve seen and I only remember it in flashes… I couldn’t close my eyes either and then we started using a blind fold.
I was discussing it with someone who hadn’t taken DMT but described the simulation as I saw it
Okay, even if it's a simulation. What is changing for you? In fact, nothing. Raise your children, love yourself and your husband. Just live and enjoy life.
 
It's a feeling of appreciating that there may be more to reality than we think. That what we take for granted everyday, our "solid" day-to-day reality, is just a way of experiencing it. Because yes, our individual, subjective perception of reality is in a way "a simulation", constructed by our mind from our sense input. I believe that realization is what other people may interpret as reality itself being a simulation. Reality itself may or may not be a simulation (who knows?), but regardless of that, it is true that our individual experience of reality is constructed.
Ехаctly this. (y)
 
Quoting : I took it with a friend- I didn’t even realise what it was in hindsight, I guess I thought it was going to be a trippy high? I saw things that have changed my life…
I took it with a friend I was deeply attuned to. He placed a earpiece with DMT activation music playing and took me to where he went
And it was some sort of transcendental or telepathic connection? Has anyone experienced this?


Is this how some people experience dmt? genuinely curious. this series of posts by op seem fake ish ? the rest not at all ofc and I always enjoy reading your thoughts
 
Quoting : I took it with a friend- I didn’t even realise what it was in hindsight, I guess I thought it was going to be a trippy high? I saw things that have changed my life…
I took it with a friend I was deeply attuned to. He placed a earpiece with DMT activation music playing and took me to where he went
And it was some sort of transcendental or telepathic connection? Has anyone experienced this?


Is this how some people experience dmt? genuinely curious. this series of posts by op seem fake ish ? the rest not at all ofc and I always enjoy reading your thoughts
I was already in a spiritual journey, I have no one to talk to about my DMT experiences. Could someone please share what they know? I feel so confused by what I’ve seen
 
Thanks for all the replies … I had this post in the back of my mind and was meaning to come back- the time away has given perspective…

I feel like DmT awakened the last part of my brain that was asleep at the wheel… I’m adhd and ASD - labels yes - but definitely have a differently wired brain…

I spoke with another friend who is into wholistic healing and alternative therapies and she spoke of us living in a simulation…
I’m not sure where everything I’ve learnt fits in anymore…

I was using the logical part of my brain to process something illogical… once I’ve started letting go of that things have made more sense.

I realise I’ve spent a huge part of my life disassociated and had started doing so again lately. I credit DMT for unlocking areas my brain shut off from trauma and healing parts that have allowed me to understand myself more … most times I came out of the trip crying and sobbing- but feeling only release.

I have discovered how intensely I am highly intuitive- to the point where I have spoken thoughts from the minds of those around me - completely unintentionally - a clairvoyance and the more I lean I to it the stronger it becomes.

DMT taught me to embrace manifestation and positivity
 
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