redbird
Established member
I guess I should stop putting this off
First and foremost I want to thank The Traveler and all the other wonderful souls that have made this the beautiful place that it is.
I've been lurking for months, soaking up teks, reading the entire Extraction Help thread, the two main phalaris project threads, and many others.
The wealth of cross disciplinary skillsets and zest for the attainment to and distribution of knowledge represented in this community is at once humbling and inspiring.
I have had good success with my initial efforts and if I were to take any credit, it's only because I know how to read and follow directions. Thank you all for making the steps clear and doing the work to find out what works and does not.
As for me, I wish that my youthful ideals about psychedelics and politics in general had already come to fruition and I felt less trepidation about identifying myself here.
Suffice it to say, I have been on or near the path for over two decades now. I started as a misguided youth who sought simultaneously an escape from a life I hated and also an entry into a mystery I wanted to find answers to. As a result of my early uninitiated explorations, I had some relatively severe short term consequences that led me to walk away from the path almost entirely.
After a transformative experience roughly a year a go I have picked back up on the path, this time with a focus on intention and a less reckless/nihilistic attitude.
I have yet to have what I believe is a full breakthrough experience with DMT but already I feel a strong connection to it. I have been enjoying low dose work, exploring my psyche with love and acceptance.
This weekend in a ketamine session I realized how deeply fear has been layered into the fiber of my being and was able to witness with gratitude how much my work over the past year has started to unwind that.
That being said, the work continues to be unraveling the grip fear has on me. Fear of other people's perceptions. Fear of conspiracies. Fear of loss. Fear of being misunderstood. Fear of failure. Fear of the pressures of success.
Currently I realize my biggest barrier to having the life of my dreams is allowing myself to get caught in the "what if's" of my nightmares.
So here I am, facing the fear of introducing myself.
Hello everyone, I am Redbird. Nice to meet you.
First and foremost I want to thank The Traveler and all the other wonderful souls that have made this the beautiful place that it is.
I've been lurking for months, soaking up teks, reading the entire Extraction Help thread, the two main phalaris project threads, and many others.
The wealth of cross disciplinary skillsets and zest for the attainment to and distribution of knowledge represented in this community is at once humbling and inspiring.
I have had good success with my initial efforts and if I were to take any credit, it's only because I know how to read and follow directions. Thank you all for making the steps clear and doing the work to find out what works and does not.
As for me, I wish that my youthful ideals about psychedelics and politics in general had already come to fruition and I felt less trepidation about identifying myself here.
Suffice it to say, I have been on or near the path for over two decades now. I started as a misguided youth who sought simultaneously an escape from a life I hated and also an entry into a mystery I wanted to find answers to. As a result of my early uninitiated explorations, I had some relatively severe short term consequences that led me to walk away from the path almost entirely.
After a transformative experience roughly a year a go I have picked back up on the path, this time with a focus on intention and a less reckless/nihilistic attitude.
I have yet to have what I believe is a full breakthrough experience with DMT but already I feel a strong connection to it. I have been enjoying low dose work, exploring my psyche with love and acceptance.
This weekend in a ketamine session I realized how deeply fear has been layered into the fiber of my being and was able to witness with gratitude how much my work over the past year has started to unwind that.
That being said, the work continues to be unraveling the grip fear has on me. Fear of other people's perceptions. Fear of conspiracies. Fear of loss. Fear of being misunderstood. Fear of failure. Fear of the pressures of success.
Currently I realize my biggest barrier to having the life of my dreams is allowing myself to get caught in the "what if's" of my nightmares.
So here I am, facing the fear of introducing myself.
Hello everyone, I am Redbird. Nice to meet you.
