Exp. Report First Outdoor Experience

[AlpineXplorer]

But have you walked into the middle of an old-growth forest and taken it while surrounded by towering, moss-covered trees and ferns? I hadn’t until tonight, and now I’m left shaking, face drenched in tears, and just grateful. So grateful.

I love it when I can’t really report what I saw. When it takes me There, the place of The Mystery, a place with no concept of me or time or anything.

WOW. Just WOW.

What a blessing to be a part of it all.

The bullets below are the little notes (proofed) I stopped to record over the next couple of hours as I walked through the forest and along the water, kept in the order I wrote them. I’ve only added the occasional annotation where Nexus terminology or someone else’s description gave me a useful reference point for what I had already experienced.

• I took three long pulls from the vape and started a fourth. Somewhere between the third and fourth, things became so intense that I started to put the pen down, then picked it back up and began to inhale again. I remember thinking something like, “What is going on? What is in my mouth? What am I doing?” And then...
• There was no I. I’m using “I” now because it’s the only language I have to separate myself from the experience. But in the experience, there was no I.
• I’ve read people describe being rocketed into an experience and then being able to walk around and explore. That’s completely different from mine. To be able to walk around and explore takes knowing that you’re there, and knowing that you have something to explore with. For me, I get thrown into something and I’m just blown away. For the longest time I don’t even have the cognizance to look around. I’m just aware. Just experiencing. Just observing whatever it is.
• @kaos.underwave proposed the term “camera mode,” and that feels close to how my deeper experiences happen. In the Wiki, it’s described as something “forced” on the traveler, and that’s where I disagree. I don’t feel forced into anything. For me it feels more like being graced with the opportunity not to choose. For once, right? I can just be there and be aware. No decisions are needed from me, which means I can make no mistake. I love that.
• WOW. That’s what it is. Somehow that one word encompasses the experience, and even writing it brings tears to my eyes.
• As the most intense part of the experience started to fade, I became aware of my body. I looked down at my seated form and lifted my arms in amazement. The feeling was, Oh my God... that’s me. Mind you, I still couldn’t really see the forest yet. I was still somewhere else, or perceiving everything in some other way that made the forest unrecognizable. But I recognized me now.
• Then the forest started to coalesce around me. Holy crap... I’m in the woods. The trees seemed to be looking down on me, pulsating with energy. Every plant around me did. It felt like they were sending love into me, helping usher me back from the experience and back into this reality.
• And somewhere right in that transition, as the DMT world was giving way to the forest, I looked down at myself and had this distinct feeling: “Look at you... just a little fairy sitting in the woods.”
• My God, it was BEAUTIFUL.
• It felt like seeing Truth, capital T. And there is nothing one can speak about it. I think that’s what it is. How glorious.
• Toward the end, as awareness of “I” and my body started to return, I felt like I was being told that I had been shown this as a gift. Because I could handle it, or I wouldn’t abuse it, or something along those lines. But for real, I’m not even sure what I was shown. Because for the majority of the time, if there was an “I,” it was so awestruck that I wasn’t aware of me.

One practical note I’ve since picked up from another user while reading about outdoor experiences: bring a blanket. SO TRUE. I’m still not sure whether all the shaking was from the intensity of the experience or from sitting outside in shorts at about 19°C. Both probably lol.

I’d LOVE to hear about other people’s experiences with the spice outdoors.

And a terminology question for the OGs here: is “spice” still the right word specifically for vaporized N,N-DMT? The Wiki seems to use it both for N,N-DMT itself and for a more impure plant extract, so I’m curious how longtime members here use the term.

 

[The Sofa Traveler]

Thanks for the nice report I can recognize this gratefulness feeling when doing DMT outdoor.

One practical note I’ve since picked up from another user while reading about outdoor experiences: bring a blanket. SO TRUE. I’m still not sure whether all the shaking was from the intensity of the experience or from sitting outside in shorts at about 19°C. Both probably lol.

Sure DMT often gives me an intense cold feeling. Not always but quite frequently. I remember one time in the middle of summer - it was 34°C - when I found myself shivering on the deckchair. I said to myself, "What the hell ? I’m not actually going to put on a sweatshirt when it’s over 30°C out." And all those winter sessions spent shivering, forced to huddle completely under the duvet in the fetal position, waiting for it to pass. And it eventually passes; it's only a temporary feeling. Lately, a friend of mine I introduced to spice told me he felt as though his entire body had turned into ice. It would seem that cold and DMT go hand in hand.

And a terminology question for the OGs here: is “spice” still the right word specifically for vaporized N,N-DMT? The Wiki seems to use it both for N,N-DMT itself and for a more impure plant extract, so I’m curious how longtime members here use the term.

The word spice is usually for n,n-DMT, it comes from a Dune quote, "The spice extends life. The spice extends consciousness". The more impure extract you're talking about probably refers to jungle spice, a yellow or even orange DMT, supposedly less pure than the white one and/or containing yuremamine. We know now it is not necessarily the case. The brilliant chemists at Nexus noticed that, more often than not, this color resulted from the oxidation of the indole ring.

 

[brettsta]

Hello mate , yes the "WOW" effect once you experience the wow effect of DMT it can't be used for anything else , same as the word incredible nothing comes close in my book .
I mostly do it outdoors in the spring when the flowers especially the fox gloves are up . I try not to stay sat down and go too deep , but like you sometimes it's too much and I'm gone for a few minutes.
When I can I stand , I wander or more stagger about , interacting with the trees, plants and forest spirits , and like you often with tears of joy streaming down my cheeks .
And yes just to be there in pure awareness !! it's God like its everything .

When It comes to temperature, I'm the opposite I often get hot , sometimes too hot , i'm boiling up ! especially at home , that's why I tend to do most of my journeys in the winter .

Great reading your thread, I'm looking forward to spring now !!

Happy days

 

[Mimosaquero]

i like low dose ayahuasca outside, it really connects you to earth and allows teaching directly from earth to come forward. ive time traveled, communicated with dinosaurs and talked to ancestors while doing it outside. i highly recommend it but only if youre experienced and know how these compounds will effect you.

 

[RitualOpossum]

My only experience with dmt outdoors was on ayahuasca with rue + acacia confusa. I also walked/did some taichi. The feeling of standing up and even moving is incredible on aya. So much physiological energy, quite the body high is an understatement. Im going to have to try vaping dmt outdoors though

 

[Mimosaquero]

My only experience with dmt outdoors was on ayahuasca with rue + acacia confusa. I also walked/did some taichi. The feeling of standing up and even moving is incredible on aya. So much physiological energy, quite the body high is an understatement. Im going to have to try vaping dmt outdoors though

i ddi 3g mimosa and 4g rue outside once and it was so incredible. everything looked like i was in a simpsons episode lmao

 

[TransistorBass]

Sounds lovely, such a shame you can't take pictures while you are 'there'.

One day I'll have an outdoor experience, it might have to wait until next summer now.