Greetings, 2 weeks after my first experience

[Contracrostics]

I guess I just wanted to say hello to other experiencers, so hello.

I'd been hoping to be blessed with DMT for some years, and figured it would line up with me when it was supposed to. I wound up with the opportunity a couple of weeks ago with someone with a fair bit of experience, and so he came by and I had my first journey. I didn't want to smoke it with weed or anything else, and fortunately he had a good solid method with a crack pipe and 50mg. I put on some of my favorite Chopin, and he coached me through the hits so I wouldn't lose focus, and I could barely take the 3rd hit so I'm glad he did.

It's hard to describe the incredible feeling of gratitude that started in me just then, and still persists, just for being alive and here, and part of something wonderful. I was launched into a beautiful flower with infinite eyes in its borders, and then more and more flowers that seemed to be infinitely blooming. The whole time I was thinking 'thank you, thank you, thank you.' It felt like a return home. The contours of the music were illuminating the outlines of the flowers. There was also a very high pitch, very powerful and 'crystalline' sounding, going in. I spend my life studying Chopin, and since I've experienced his music on DMT I have a hard time not practicing. If I play the piece I was listening to on the piano, a great deal of the experience comes back to me and I can surf the memory again, it's wonderful.

When I told him about it, he told me about the Chrysanthemum, and I've been reading quite a bit on here, what would come up from googling it anyway.

I find it interesting that it's considered a doorway. When he asked me if I felt I 'broke through', I said absolutely, yes, and I still feel that way. I am glad that I resolved me dyed-in-the-wool materialism a couple of years ago, so that I could truly accept a spiritual experience for what it was.

Also I am very grateful for the forum here and all of its incredible resources and chat about the DMT space. I want to try it again, but like I said to him, 'I want to meditate on that for a good long while first.'

Nice to meet you all.

 

[Pemulis]

Welcome to the Nexus @Contracrostics. That's a great introduction and I think your instincts are correct. Integration time matters, as many on here would say more eloquently than I could. I'm actually putting away the pipe for a while myself for this exact reason. I had been getting impatient to explore more and have been neglecting this aspect.

I find it interesting that it's considered a doorway. When he asked me if I felt I 'broke through', I said absolutely, yes, and I still feel that way. I am glad that I resolved me dyed-in-the-wool materialism a couple of years ago, so that I could truly accept a spiritual experience for what it was.

Definitely this. It echoes my first psychedelic experience last year (mushrooms rather than DMT). I was already moving away from considering myself an atheist at the time, but I definitely wasn't one afterwards! I'm sure plenty of people remain contently materialist after psychedelics, but I am not one of them, and I am happier for it; for me there is a spiritual element to it and to life in general.

Thanks for sharing your experiences. You are in the right place.

 

[SuperBAspaceracinglizard2]

Hey man lovely to hear it was that great, I've definitely felt like that for people that have a serious interest in it..
(and probably have went down an Internet rabbit hole of everything dmt!)
.. Seem to have wonderful, touching/meaningful first time experiences with it. I honestly like to consider myself a shaman of sort. I love dmt and have had very wonderful experiences many times. One actually led/caused me and my wife's relationship and eventually that led to my only child being born 2 years ago. But that's a story for another post or time if it's of interest at the moment. Anyways aside from that and doing it myself, it seems like most of my effort and energy put into it..(countless hours of reading and theorizing on how to obtain my holy shaman dirt. Having a hard time with this fr )
.. is just for the purpose of spreading this gift/beauty to others already interested in it or others I feel would have positive out comes that want to give it a shot after learning a bit. Im saving what I currently have for one of these people and times. Despite wanting to blast myself sooo bad, I feel as if it would be selfish to 2 with it being the amount it is.

I could go on and on about how I do everything I can to make sure whoever I'm being a "shaman" for, has the best experience possible. But I will say that personally all of my best (absolutely beautiful beyond belief) experiences wasn't just a hit it real hard and blast off like I feel is a trend with it for some reason... But to take smaller hits but not super small, just every minute or so...... Build up to the blast area not teleport there. And basically no matter what, I think music is a must. Especially important/special music. If you haven't and can rn number one party anthem by Arctic monkeys is a wonderful/universal one I've used with multiple people. Even my dad's first time I played this. Lolol it was a live video and he said "man it's like they made this video... For This!!"


Anyways the point of my topic was before I had a lot of experience with it I would basically encourage anyone to hit as much as they possibly could and blast off. And I have had this be kind of like you described yours for the first time pretty special and profound. Said person coming back and being all smiley and amazed is always a success.
But I've dosed myself like that and was honestly in a environment I wasn't completely comfortable in and it was a kinda darker(literally dark, not the room but like inside my head ) hard to remember, uncomfortable, and basically not a good time, experience.
I've definitely noticed that anytime in my life that I had an experience with it that wasn't good it's very hard to remember like a dream for some reason.
But generally I think it's better to build up into especially if you've done it before and kind of know what to expect a little bit..

I got tired of typing so if the end of this has a few typos sorry I've been writing this up for like 30 minutes and my wife is complaining because I'm not someone that can write something out and do something else at the same time haha

Love you all, farewell, goodnight and good tripinz everyone!