Infinitas
Rising Star
Hello! First I just want to thank all those who contribute to this site, as it is a fantastic place for learning and open discussion about some of the most profound experiences one could have.
This is not my first post, but it might as well be. I am a 21 year old semi-buddhist, transhumanist, who loves the world of psychedelics. Aside from MJ, which I first started smoking 4 years ago, my first truly psychedelic experience was taking 3.5g of mushrooms 2 years ago almost exactly. The only thing I knew about them at the time was that people often had spiritual experiences, which is the only reason why I had agreed on joining my two other friends. The morning after I traveled to "god's country" I wrote a two page letter to god, attempting to explain the ineffable. A few more trips, including a life-changing ~4g dose, and 6 months later I no longer knew who I was; I was completely lost in pretty much every aspect of my life. The following 4 months of my life were like the dark ages. I was trying to explain it all, trying to rectify what I had done to my mind. Having spent countless hours hunched over my computer desk, asking myself whether or not I was an atheist, or rather what I was, I was directed towards a poem, "The Dark Night of the Soul" by St. John of the Cross, who attempted to explain the same thing that I was. I knew I was not alone, and upon reading the final stanza "Of the Soul" it hit me. I realized that I had experienced union with what I had known as god. It was beautiful.
I had sworn not to take mushrooms again, but after my discovery, I knew that the fungi would only confirm my new understandings. The first time I had taken them again was the happiest day of my life. I had conquered my mind!! Since then I have become very spiritual and eager to learn about every aspect of the world. Why? Because I knew that everything is One and it's all interconnected. So in order to truly understand the biggest questions about existence, I had to start learning about all the smaller aspects. The idea of "mind, body and spirit," which had been beaten into my head throughout my life, became my new motto as I sought to become the best person I can be. But no journey is without struggle and doubt...
So here I am today, on another part of my journey, eager to explore the very depths of the universe, not in the physical way of math and physics, but through the expansion of my mind and the unification of my spirit with the divine hyperspace.
I welcome you all into my life!
PS: http://www.karmel.at/ics/john/dn.html
I remained, lost in oblivion;
My face I reclined on the Beloved.
All ceased and I abandoned myself,
Leaving my cares forgotten among the lilies.
This is not my first post, but it might as well be. I am a 21 year old semi-buddhist, transhumanist, who loves the world of psychedelics. Aside from MJ, which I first started smoking 4 years ago, my first truly psychedelic experience was taking 3.5g of mushrooms 2 years ago almost exactly. The only thing I knew about them at the time was that people often had spiritual experiences, which is the only reason why I had agreed on joining my two other friends. The morning after I traveled to "god's country" I wrote a two page letter to god, attempting to explain the ineffable. A few more trips, including a life-changing ~4g dose, and 6 months later I no longer knew who I was; I was completely lost in pretty much every aspect of my life. The following 4 months of my life were like the dark ages. I was trying to explain it all, trying to rectify what I had done to my mind. Having spent countless hours hunched over my computer desk, asking myself whether or not I was an atheist, or rather what I was, I was directed towards a poem, "The Dark Night of the Soul" by St. John of the Cross, who attempted to explain the same thing that I was. I knew I was not alone, and upon reading the final stanza "Of the Soul" it hit me. I realized that I had experienced union with what I had known as god. It was beautiful.
I had sworn not to take mushrooms again, but after my discovery, I knew that the fungi would only confirm my new understandings. The first time I had taken them again was the happiest day of my life. I had conquered my mind!! Since then I have become very spiritual and eager to learn about every aspect of the world. Why? Because I knew that everything is One and it's all interconnected. So in order to truly understand the biggest questions about existence, I had to start learning about all the smaller aspects. The idea of "mind, body and spirit," which had been beaten into my head throughout my life, became my new motto as I sought to become the best person I can be. But no journey is without struggle and doubt...
So here I am today, on another part of my journey, eager to explore the very depths of the universe, not in the physical way of math and physics, but through the expansion of my mind and the unification of my spirit with the divine hyperspace.
I welcome you all into my life!
PS: http://www.karmel.at/ics/john/dn.html
I remained, lost in oblivion;
My face I reclined on the Beloved.
All ceased and I abandoned myself,
Leaving my cares forgotten among the lilies.
