Guilty Pleasures

[No Knowing]

When I began smoking DMT I was a constant pothead, heroin addict, cigarette smoker, and drinker. I've since reduced my pot usage to a few times a week and have quit all those addictive substances. I find not being addicted to anything has raised my sex drive and led to me messing around with more than a few girls in a friends with benefits situation almost daily. The extra free time and mental clarity is nice and so is getting laid. But I have begin to notice my sex drive has become insatiable and am wary of switching from chemical to sexual addiction.

I've taken up heavy daily exercise, visual art, constant reading, and music creation. But I've come to a point where I feel like my ego is blowing up from too much self-emphasis. I strain to be perfect even though I am aware this is unattainable and I find hanging out with drinking or pothead friends to be almost unbearable. I feel those who do not obsess about self-improvement are wasting their life. Do other Nexians feel like one must allow themselves to partake in some guilty or detrimental hobby? Can striving for perfection and achieving one's own sense of it actually lead to boredom and stagnation? Maybe I just need to meet a new social circle who is like minded and can share the journey towards self but it saddens part of me that I feel like I must set the quest for fun aside and delve only more deeply into self-improvement.

The spice can be entertaining but it feels more like a personal test to me than a guilty pleasure.

Any advice on sublimating an overactive sex drive or curtailing self-improvement so it doesn't become an obsession?

 

[ayanami_rei13]

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[anrchy]

Wow, I think you and me are traveling down a similiar road. I dont have a ton of time due to leaving for work shortly, but I will continue this after I get to work after some time.

I have a slightly different path I took to get to feeling like self improvement is a necessity in life. I will further this explanation of how I got there later... anyways some of the things that I started doing due to this new found skill...

I was imposing my self improvement strategies on other people, my GF for instance. Also Close friends as well. not so good.

I constantly, still, see flaws more strongly in others. And sometimes it annoys me that someone could be so ignorant or whatever the case may be.

I stray away strongly from people who are on a path of destruction. No goals ect.

My quality of life has increased so dramatically It almost feels unreal.

so the sex drive thing, I dont know anything along those lines. Guessing it has something to do with quiting the extreme drugs. It seems though that your body should normalize. How long since you last used heroin?

part of the self improvement is decreasing obsessions. Use your new found skill to quit obsessing about anything. Observe what triggers your feelings. What triggers your need to feel so strongly about it.

Do you find yourself trying to help friends with there problems by directing them in the same direction that got you where you are?

 

[christian]

Any advice on sublimating an overactive sex drive or curtailing self-improvement so it doesn't become an obsession?

Have you thought about your life goals, or are you in that "enjoying my freedoms, as well as actively learning" stage?..

If you are, then why not make the most of your youth...You've got the rest of your life ahead of you, so why rush??..

Take it easy, chill, enjoy getting laid, enjoy your journeys, and when the time to make a change comes, you'll make that change with no regrets cos you made the most of it whilst you could. Then you'll be able to free up all the energy you need to "give" to your next life project.

Taken in stages like this, life is effortless and free from what if's.

 

[No Knowing]

@anrchy Wow yea I've been trying to convince women I'm with that life is all about self-improvement. But I guess thats really only true to me, right now. Also, when you are hard on yourself for flaws its hard to not have the same discerning judgment towards others. Thinking about obsession, I'm beginning to realize that obsession itself it bad even if it is an obsession over something beneficial like self-improvement. I'll begin to curtail that obsessive tendency from not just drug-abuse but anything else.

It's been 10 months since I've done H and 8 months since I used any kind of opiate. I used once within those 8 months and felt sick, no euphoria, and depressed at myself. I can honestly say I have no desire to use opioids again. But its weird to be 23 and feel like I have the same sex drive as when I discovered masturbation at 12 years old. But yeah I'm sure it will normalize as time goes on. With friends I do impose my own views on changing one's life a bit, but seeing my extreme changes many of my friends are eager to learn how I got to this point.

@christian That taking life in stages is great advice. I feel like I do so much but I also know I have so much I want to accomplish; breaking it into bite-size chunks would definitely help. I'm having a hard time coming up with concrete goals and am really just enjoying surveying what I am or could be capable of right now. Hopefully that will lead to something I can put energy into directly and constantly.

 

[christian]

i am really just enjoying surveying what I am or could be capable of right now.

Yea, you're only 23, so for no rush at all mate!

> It looks to me like you're getting back to your natural enegies after all those opiates, and part of dealing with them is with all this self improvement stuff. I say take time out to get your life in order whilst you have this energy. Why not make best use of this energy and pour it into a good paying job to save as much cash as possible??

Believe me, it's better than spending too much time thinking, unless of course you're happier to keep on getting laid, think, and 'travel': Sounds like the world is your oyster!

> I say enjoy your youth, and start to think more seriously when you hit your early thirties. In the mean time be sure to keep busy working and save up you money, cos it will always be there when you need it. The rest is a breeze. You can survey who you are on your days off, and you'll be ready for what you're capable of in your 30's....How does that sound? :thumb_up: