5150saint5150
Rising Star
I researched DMT for a few years before I tried it. I've heard first hand testimonies stating the experience was positive and life changing. I've been making it myself for a few months now and I've broken through twice and the experience for me was anything but positive. I've yet to see any entities or fractals or patterns it's more like a eternal void of my consciousness. The sensation I feel once the breakthrough begins is complete and total fear as reality is stripped away and I'm presented with macabre and evil and the life I was living is gone forever as I witness what the void is going to feel like from that moment on for eternity. I immediately start apologizing and begging the void to put me back. The sounds emanating from eternity are a mix of giant machines turning gears (kinda sounds like an old train starting to move) and screams of agony. As I lay in the fetal position remembering the life squandered I realized what it was about life that made it so special. The pain of loosing that felt unbearable and soul crushing. At some point it seemed to me like the machine was reconstructing the reality I came from as different versions of realities cycled before me rapidly eventually slowing down and stopping at mine. I'm not sure what to make of this experience, if this is was awaits me at death then i would like the record to show that i said "fuck that shit". I don't think I'll be holding my hits In as long anymore because I enjoy DMT until I break through. Any one else go through something like this because the hundreds of experiences I've read about other people having not one was remotely close to mine.
