Hello travellers,
I'm Sludge, a French psychonaut, 27 years old. I hesitated a long time to come here because I'm already very active on the forum psychonaut.com. But my exploration of DMT seems very unusual when I hear all my friends trips. I met so much difficulties that I thought it was a good idea to seek for advices here. I think that the fact that I read Strassman before trying DMT was a bad thing because I imagined the way it will be from that, and it wasn't. I extracted DMT from Mimosa Hostilis a few times, and much of it was shared with my friends. I tried several times to vaporize it, but its like I never really went very far.
At the beginning one of the difficulties we had was to vaporize efficiently. Now I manage to easily make "The Machine" so it's not a problem any more I think.
My first experiences were very soft but good. This feel of being purified and relaxed after the trip was in fact the most impressive thing. I had a few visuals and feelings of dissociation after that, but still kinda soft.
And the disturbing things started when I managed to vaporize well.
The way my universe changed (textures, colours, etc.) was really disturbing, especially because it was very fast, kinda stroboscopic. It felt very unpleasant in fact, like I was resisting and undergoing it, never a good thing with psychedelics.
Then I started to understand more what was happening to me when I increased the doses. It's like I was in the middle of the home or in the middle of a street of people from elsewhere. I never saw them, but I feel their presence. They do something with me, or I'm just in the middle of their world so when they move, they pass through me and push me. Or I am a part of their furniture and they make me turn in all ways, like I am some sort of Rubik's Cube.
Recently I started to really accept the experience and from then I didn't suffered any more from it. I much more understood it.
One day I was so happy that it was so easy that I started again after having sex with my girlfriend, only after one hour. I put Psytrance music but when I took the hit, I thought I made a mistake, and I saw a door closed on me, like if the inhabitants of their home put me in the cupboard. I misused and exceeded my rights, so they explained this to me, punishing me a little. But I felt a strong forgiveness because I was understanding. So it made me cry and thank "them". I was so happy to understand. I cherished them.
It's so intriguing how your mind can interpret what you see or feel and turn it to a precise explanation right away, like in a dream. And also like in a dream, what you feel is real (your emotions), but after the trip, you can easily take a distance from it and go back to your normal life.
At my last trip, I knew it was a good time to try again, so I did it. But something strange happened. It's like I was hit on the head, punished again but for no reason. But after that it was like my punisher was this time punished by someone higher, who explained to him he had to be welcoming with me.
It's where I am now, I can't wait to try again and go further and explore cyberspace, but it's strange how I never had a really really strong visual experience, never a breakthrough also. One time I took a huge hit, but I just blacked-out for half an hour (it seemed to me I just tripped something like 2 minutes maximum, like every time, and not stronger).
I think I should try with MAOI now, because I think that my body is not very receptive to DMT.
Hello again.
I'm Sludge, a French psychonaut, 27 years old. I hesitated a long time to come here because I'm already very active on the forum psychonaut.com. But my exploration of DMT seems very unusual when I hear all my friends trips. I met so much difficulties that I thought it was a good idea to seek for advices here. I think that the fact that I read Strassman before trying DMT was a bad thing because I imagined the way it will be from that, and it wasn't. I extracted DMT from Mimosa Hostilis a few times, and much of it was shared with my friends. I tried several times to vaporize it, but its like I never really went very far.
At the beginning one of the difficulties we had was to vaporize efficiently. Now I manage to easily make "The Machine" so it's not a problem any more I think.
My first experiences were very soft but good. This feel of being purified and relaxed after the trip was in fact the most impressive thing. I had a few visuals and feelings of dissociation after that, but still kinda soft.
And the disturbing things started when I managed to vaporize well.
The way my universe changed (textures, colours, etc.) was really disturbing, especially because it was very fast, kinda stroboscopic. It felt very unpleasant in fact, like I was resisting and undergoing it, never a good thing with psychedelics.
Then I started to understand more what was happening to me when I increased the doses. It's like I was in the middle of the home or in the middle of a street of people from elsewhere. I never saw them, but I feel their presence. They do something with me, or I'm just in the middle of their world so when they move, they pass through me and push me. Or I am a part of their furniture and they make me turn in all ways, like I am some sort of Rubik's Cube.
Recently I started to really accept the experience and from then I didn't suffered any more from it. I much more understood it.
One day I was so happy that it was so easy that I started again after having sex with my girlfriend, only after one hour. I put Psytrance music but when I took the hit, I thought I made a mistake, and I saw a door closed on me, like if the inhabitants of their home put me in the cupboard. I misused and exceeded my rights, so they explained this to me, punishing me a little. But I felt a strong forgiveness because I was understanding. So it made me cry and thank "them". I was so happy to understand. I cherished them.
It's so intriguing how your mind can interpret what you see or feel and turn it to a precise explanation right away, like in a dream. And also like in a dream, what you feel is real (your emotions), but after the trip, you can easily take a distance from it and go back to your normal life.
At my last trip, I knew it was a good time to try again, so I did it. But something strange happened. It's like I was hit on the head, punished again but for no reason. But after that it was like my punisher was this time punished by someone higher, who explained to him he had to be welcoming with me.
It's where I am now, I can't wait to try again and go further and explore cyberspace, but it's strange how I never had a really really strong visual experience, never a breakthrough also. One time I took a huge hit, but I just blacked-out for half an hour (it seemed to me I just tripped something like 2 minutes maximum, like every time, and not stronger).
I think I should try with MAOI now, because I think that my body is not very receptive to DMT.
Hello again.
