tobecomeone00
Rising Star
Hello all, I come to you all with this question....Well, for a little backstory, I was the world's most disgusting drug addict for like 12 years, totally hooked on misery, willingly walking into a world of homelessness and dysfunction. I am 26 now, finally 2 years away from the narcotic nightmare that had had a chokehold on my life up until that point. I have been on Suboxone (a mixture of buprenorphine and naloxone) for these 2 years, only indulging in marijuana and psychdelic substances otherwise. Well, a few years ago, the makers of this opiate-replacement were touting the effects of the drug, remarking at how insignificant the withdrawl symptoms were. While I agree on the beauty of a substance that can help this much, here we are years later, with medical reports stating that this is harder to get off of than methadone (I had tried to kick a 90mg methadone habit cold-turkey one time by getting on a bus headed to portland, oregon...17 days of absolute pain and insanity until I gave up...first guy I asked happened to be a dealer...synchronicity?) Based on the sheer horror of the methadone kick, which includes headaches, fever, sweats, pain, insomnia, dehydration, acute-agitation, extreme lethargy, auditory hallucinations, sleep paralysis, and absolute madness, I am somewhat concerned about my situation.
I have been on a free government program to get this medicine ($500per bottle otherwise...I require 3 bottles per month), and unfortunately, my year has run out. There is a chance my doc will get me an extra year, but I am assuming not, since I remember reading it was a one-year program only. I know it will not be as bad as the methadone kick in terms of psychological torture, and though I have been through withdrawl roughly 300-400 times in the past 10 yrs (more time sick than high), I wont lie, I'm worried. I have learned a world of knowledge since those times (including a year of dmt use,extraction, hyperspace travel, ego death, etc.), and during one of my anxious worryings, it was as if a voice literally POPPED into my head, and suggested that in the course of withdrawl, to dose with harmalas in order to impart a complex lesson of addiction, obsession, and Need, as well as to aid with the physical trauma and to calm the nerves. What was strange was how telepathic this voice seemed, I would not have thought of this on my own...I totally would have considered DMT to help before the harmalas, but now that I think of it, harmalas have always brought WAVES of meaning into my dmt experiences, as opposed to the sheer alien confusion of dmt alone...This aspect could definitely help with the mental and emotional self-battering one goes through during the throes of withdrawl.
In conclusion, and in my opinion, this sounds like a pretty solid theory, and I'd like others here on the Nexus to add their thoughts, questions, and criticisms as well...I am close to running out of pills, and will probably attempt this method, considering there aren't many other options. Thanks guy, I appreciate all of your words...
I have been on a free government program to get this medicine ($500per bottle otherwise...I require 3 bottles per month), and unfortunately, my year has run out. There is a chance my doc will get me an extra year, but I am assuming not, since I remember reading it was a one-year program only. I know it will not be as bad as the methadone kick in terms of psychological torture, and though I have been through withdrawl roughly 300-400 times in the past 10 yrs (more time sick than high), I wont lie, I'm worried. I have learned a world of knowledge since those times (including a year of dmt use,extraction, hyperspace travel, ego death, etc.), and during one of my anxious worryings, it was as if a voice literally POPPED into my head, and suggested that in the course of withdrawl, to dose with harmalas in order to impart a complex lesson of addiction, obsession, and Need, as well as to aid with the physical trauma and to calm the nerves. What was strange was how telepathic this voice seemed, I would not have thought of this on my own...I totally would have considered DMT to help before the harmalas, but now that I think of it, harmalas have always brought WAVES of meaning into my dmt experiences, as opposed to the sheer alien confusion of dmt alone...This aspect could definitely help with the mental and emotional self-battering one goes through during the throes of withdrawl.
In conclusion, and in my opinion, this sounds like a pretty solid theory, and I'd like others here on the Nexus to add their thoughts, questions, and criticisms as well...I am close to running out of pills, and will probably attempt this method, considering there aren't many other options. Thanks guy, I appreciate all of your words...
