Hello everyone

[Jeamu]

I'm not usually the kind of person to participate in forums and social media and the like, I've been very online since I was young, but I've always preferred to lurk. My real life is similar, I don't get out and mingle very much, I enjoy being alone and find human interaction very stressful

However I have developed a strong urge to start leaving my comfort zone just lately, and this forum seems like a wonderful place to start. Having struggled with anxiety and depression my entire life, I've grown a strong interested in the nature of consciousness, philosophy, spiritualism, and of course psychedelics

I have quite a lot of experience with LSD, but have only recently gotten into DMT. Last night I had an experience with vaped DMT that left my speechless. It wasn't a breakthrough experience, but it was still one of the most profound things that's ever happened to me. After it wore off I spent a solid hour sitting on my sofa, just wondering how in the world this molecule is actually a thing that exists, and yet barely anyone knows about it or talks about it

I instantly developed an intense desire to learn more about it, talk to people about it, and do more of it. I honestly find it unbelievable that this isn't more researched and celebrated. I believe DMT to be perhaps the single most incredible thing that humans currently know of

Thank you for reading, I feel I'll be spending a lot of time here and will try my best to participate in this community

 

[Voidmatrix]

Greetings my friend.

You and I are here for similar reasons. I too deal with severe depression (and a lot has been shared about that here), am also avid about philosophy, spirituality, consciousness, and psychedelics, and find social interactions stressful :lol: you and would probably enjoy sitting in a room together and not acknowledging each other lol.

Tell us more about that DMT journey. I already know I'm smoalking myself some changa later (powerful mental health tool, among other things).

One love

 

[Jeamu]

Thank you very much for your reply, it's great knowing there are like minded individuals here, although I'm sorry to hear about your struggles, I hope you're doing well

As for the experience that led me to posting here, I'm sure it wasn't much to write home about compared to a proper breakthrough, but it still astounded me

After having that familiar feeling of being pulled out of my body, I completely let myself go and allowed the DMT to take control. I was sitting in front of my TV listening to mediation frequencies, and the pretty equaliser in the video popped right out of the screen into the room with me and the patterns separated into many different layers and surrounded me on all sides. It was of course incredible bright and colourful, perhaps the most visually stunning thing I've ever seen, infinitely detailed and all around me

The room was filled with a thick viscous liquid substance which glistened with faint fractal patterns, this is something I've experienced before on DMT but it was much more pronounced, it felt like I was in a giant vat of liquid, my body was slowed and the substance reacted to my movement

The most incredible part of this experience however, and what I find so unbelievable, was that it felt as though there was a presence behind me, and it had grabbed hold of my head and was gently rotating it around, almost as if it was examining my brain from behind. My head moved with definite intent, but completely separate from my own will. I've had this feeling of a presence being with me on DMT before but this is the first time something physically interacted with me

I honestly find it hard to believe that this interaction was just a hallucination, the most rational thing I can think of is that my subconscious mind gained control of my physical body, but it sure did feel like something other than myself was there with me, and it felt infinitely powerful and divine

What I took away from this experience was that the DMT was first showing me the infinite beauty and love of the universe, in order to instil within me a will to carry on living, as well as examining my brain to perhaps see if I was worthy to fully enter hyperspace, or maybe fiddling around with my brain chemistry to help me in my physical life

Either way I seriously want to explore deeper, I can't even imagine what a breakthrough must be like. This experience gave me so much motivation to work on myself and prove to the DMT that I'm worthy

 

[Voidmatrix]

Thank you for sharing with me. I enjoy reading others' experiences. It's kind of a vicarious journey for me since I'm presently not breaking through, though I tend to interact with DMT pretty regularly in smaller doses. Just exploring different territory. I sometimes will only shoot for a somatic experience.

It seems that regardless of whether the experience is simply a byproduct of our own minds or something actually external to us, it's hard to rationalize regardless. I tend to entertain all possibilities, which can be a lot, but allows me to fully explore each experience. For me, each one is novel.

It's also great to hear that it has inspired you in a positive way.



One love