Glad to hear it's the good Papa Smurf - and this would be the obvious one with the blue colour change, which goes to show how typing stuff into the internet doesn't always provide a useful answer

By "benzosepatiens", do you mean benzodiazepines, perchance? And I'm glad to hear you choose to avoid alcohol - Sweden is somewhat famous for its relationship with booze.
My own relationship with psilocybin mushrooms dates back to the mid 1990's, so they hold a special place in my heart. And my,oh my, have they brought some adventures!
I can relate to what you say about getting addicted to people as well - and that ties in with some of those crazy adventures equally as much. Sometimes it was about healing them, other times about healing myself, and often with some degree of overlap.
In light of all this I look forward to seeing you around on the forum, perhaps the chat too since we are in the same time zone (if you still live in your home country). Just how far have you got in realising the intention behind being here? How far along the road to this experience would you say you've travelled? If you can give us more of a picture of your level of understanding of the extraction process, for example, it becomes easier to pitch things for you in a useful, comprehensible manner.